“Honey, be careful with that!”   “Kai... You are doing it again.”   “Doing what again?”   It's been 2 weeks since I was discharged from hospital but Kai was still freaking out even if I moved an inch without his knowledge. I gave him an 'Are you serious?' look. He sighed and said, “I just can’t help it, sweetie. I'm scared, you know. You have not fully recovered.”   “Kai, the doctor said I can move just fine, but I have to be little careful, that’s all.”   “Well, I'm making sure you are being extra careful.”   “Not by freaking out even if a lift a coffee mug.”   “Well, the coffee is hot and what if you burn your hand and drop the mug at your feet? The coffee might burn your foot! Even worse, what if the glass pieces hurt your foot?” Oh god, the conversation was useless. Kai had always been like that. Though it made me feel fuzzy and happy, I didn’t want him to worry too much.   “You know, if you keep on worrying like this, you will get old and look ugly and everyone will not look at you”, I said teasing him. He looked at me and pouted. God, he looked like a lost puppy. His pout turned into a sudden smirk and he came near my ears, whispering, “Who cares? As long as you love me, I don’t want anyone to look at me. Cause I'm only yours and you're only mine”. He nuzzled his face on my neck and I squirmed due to the ticklish feeling.   “Well, who said I will like you when you are ugly?” I stuck my tongue out at him. He huffed, acting all angry, and advanced towards me. I dodged him and we fell on the bed. We stared at each other and broke into fits of laughter. He was so cute when he laughed like that; his eyes turned into crescents with his blinding smile and his soothing voice echoed in the whole room. Our laughter died down and we both looked into each other’s eyes while lying on the bed.   No words were exchanged, but the silence spoke louder than our words. I touched his cheek and he closed his eyes, brushing his cheek against my palm. At that moment, I knew nothing bad would happen to us. This was our moment and I would always cherish it.  

Although I wanted Kai to stay with me, I knew he should get back to work. He had been spending too much time worrying about me and not concentrating on his work. He took 2 weeks off to take care of me. When I was asleep, he would work. I felt bad that I was putting him in such a position so I asked him to stop worrying about me and go back to work.

I was able to successfully send Kai to work. Well, I practically pushed him out of the house because he just wouldn’t go. He was still being a baby.   After sending Kai off to work, I had the house to myself. I didn’t have many chores since Kai woke up early and finished them all. Thus, I had nothing to do. Instead, I took out my journal again and started reading it, taking a trip down memory lane.  

June 15, 2010. 

It was a hot summer's day and I was strolling in the park. The skies were clear and the hot summer breeze was brushing against my face. My face felt hot and I wanted to eat something cool so I knew where I should go.   I knew this area very well because this was where my aunt used to live. I used to visit her and play with Baekhyun in the nearby park. Baekhyun was my cousin brother, but he was more than what a blood bother was. He was 2 years elder than me. We went to the same school and he always protected me from being bullied; he was pretty much my rescuer. Whenever we used to get in trouble, he would always take the blame and let me off the hook.   I have always admired him and the girls of our school used to bribe me or befriend me just to be close to him. But it was all a waste because he loved someone else; he loved my best friend, Jiyeon, but was too scared to tell her his feelings. So, I ended up being the messenger but now, they're happy and in a relationship. That’s all I could ask for: my best friend and my best brother happy together.   Jiyeon was my best friend from kindergarten and she was also my neighbour. She was the first ever friend I made. She was a very big part of my life after my mother’s death. She was my pillar and supported me through my hardship; she was like my soul sister. Although I was an only child, she never made me feel lonely. I was happy that the two most important people in my life, loved each