Tonight was the showcase and I felt confident enough that Top and I were ready for the showcase. We just had to get costumes. Which we had completely forgotten about. He tried to convince me to wear a dress but I refused. I hate dresses and no matter how much I love him, I will never wear one for him. So, now we were just a few hours away from performing and we were still fighting over the costumes. 

"I've already said it about twenty thousand times. I'm not wearing a dress!" I say as I go through all my clothes to try and find something that would match the song, dance and style. I pull out my over sized white shirt and a pair of black shorts and turn around to show Top what I had picked out.

"What do you think?" I ask him and he shrugs his shoulders; so I throw my shoe at him. It misses him but he still gets up and picks me up and drops me onto his bed. He takes my clothes out of my hands and throws them behind him somewhere. I try to get up but he pins me down on the bed and I try to get out of his hold. I give up and sigh and wait. 

"You done?" He asks and I nod my head. He smiles at me and then leans down and presses his lips against my own. I return his kiss and he soon tries to deepen it. But, I stop him from doing so and realise that he was trying to distract me. 

"Get up and let me help you choose your costume." I tell him and he groans before getting off me. We end up choosing him a blue shirt, black waist coat and black trousers. We change into our costumes and then go to the theatre for a run through. When it was our turn to go on the stage, I was a little nervous but I shook it off as much as I could. Then we went on the stage. 

We finished and the teachers were deciding on all the lighting for our performance. We sat on the stage and waited for them to be done. I looked at him and he was staring off into space and looked to be deep in thought. I didn't want to interrupt him. So, I just linked my arm with his and rest my head on his shoulder. He continues to look out to the space until we were told to do it again, so that they could fit the lighting in as well. 

Once we had finished, he took my hand took me backstage and then into one of the spare changing rooms. I was curious and nervous about what he was doing. He around to face me and he looked anixous about something. I reach out and put my hands on either side of his face. 

"What's wrong?" I ask him and he smiles at me, sweetly. 

"It's about what I told the others. About us breaking up at graduation." He sighs and I start to get a bad feeling about what he was going to say. I lower my hands down to just hold his own. 

"What about it?" I ask him in a way to encourage him to continue speaking; as he looks unsure about himself.

"What if we don't have to break up then? What if we try to make it work? We have phones, the internet and if we need to, we can go old style and write letters. Anything in order for me to be able to know that you're okay." He suggests and he looks at me a smile and I return it at the thought that I had never even considered. 

"I never even thought of that. How couldn't I? But, will you be able to? You because of how hard you'll be working with the company and doing shows?" I ask him and he shakes his head and releases my hands to cup my face in his own hands. 

"I would make all the time in the world for you. Plus, if you didn't hear off me for more than two days, then I will get on a plane and come to you." He reassures me and I think about the possibility that this could actually work out for us. Yes, we wouldn't be able to see each other face to face in real life, but we could always skype. We would still talk over the phone and the internet. Maybe this would work for us. I got so excited over the idea that I leant up and kissed him. He returned it but only for a few moments, as we knew we had to go and get set for the showcase in two hours. 

***

When the showcase was over, we were called back to the stage as a way for the teachers to thank us all for trying our hardest to put on the best showcase. I liked the credit that they gave to each student on their dance. They even precised me and Top, which got cheers because the boys were sat in the audience. Once it was all over, we met the others and they were happy to see us. 

"You guys were amazing on the stage!" Daesang greeted us and span me around in a hug. I laughed as he did so and thanked him when he put me down. 

"I say we have a party." G Dragon suggests and all the boys agree. 

***

So, by the next night they had invited near enough everyone to the party that they were throwing. They even got some of the other seniors to bring their own alcohol. I told everyone I didn't want to drink because I've never actually drank beer in my life. But, I somehow got persuaded into it. To be honest its not bad, but I know where my limits end. So, I slowly sip my drinks. The others though were just drinking away. I don't think that they know their own limits. I shook my head when I saw Seungri hugging a chair. Now, that actually made me laugh. I tried to look around for Top, but there was no sight of him anywhere. Where did he go? I saw him five minutes ago. Maybe he just went to the bathroom. I sit back in my seat and watch the party and pray that the teachers don't come in to ruin it all. 

"Hey! Kaia!" Seungri yells as he crashes into the seat next to me. He was drunk for sure. I help him sit correctly before I respond to him. 

"Hello Seungri. I think you should have some water now." I tell him and he shakes his head and shows me his drink.

"This thing right here is very loyal to me!" He yells and then takes a drink from it. He looks at me as I shake my head and try to look for Top again. 

"If you're looking for Top, he went outside and some girl was following him." He tells me and I feel my heart pound against my chest. I run through the crowds of people and out of the dorm building and try to find them. I didn't want something to happen. I know that he loves me, but he wasn't in his right mind right now. So who knows what could happen. I look around the campus outside first but I couldn't find them. So I decided to just roam the halls of the school. All the classrooms were locked so they wouldn't be in any of them. They weren't in any of the school buildings. So where were they? 

"Kaia?" I jump at the sound of the voice calling out my name. I turn around and see TaeYang down the hall from me. He runs up to me and almost stubmles until I catch and help him stand up straight. 

"TaeYang, have you seen Top? Seungri told me there was a girl with him as well." I ask him in a rushed tone and he nods his head. 

"Yeah, they were just heading back to the dorm building together." He replies and then pats me on my head and walks away. I rush back to the dorm building and see that there was more students here than before. Meaning it was going to be harder to find him. After looking for another half an hour, I gave up. There was no way that I was going to find him in this chaos. I run my hand through my hair and just think to myself that I could just be being paranoid. I say goodnight to the lads and head back to my own dorm. Top wasn't back here either; as I did a quick little search for him around the dorm room. 

I changed myself in my pj's and had two glasses of water before going to get into my bed. That was when I heard the dorm room door open and I jumped out of bed to see who it was. It was Top but he wasn't alone. The girl that had came up to me on my very first day and asked me to give a letter to him was with him. She was clinging on his arm and he looked uncomfortable with her on him. 

"See! She is real. Now let go of me!" He whines and the girl looks at me and gives me a dirty look before speaking Korean to Top. I guess she thought I couldn't understand her. 

"But, I could be so much better than her. I wouldn't be leaving you either." She tells and he shakes his head at her in disgust. He tells her to get out once more and then she leaves while crying. 

"Aish." He mutters and then goes to kitchen area and drinks water. I watch him to make sure that he doesn't fall over or anything like that. He walks over to me and then picks me up and throws me on his bed. I try to get up but he pins me under his arms and legs as he cuddles up to me. I hear his soft snorgs soon after and get the thought that he was now asleep. So, I just huffed and looked up at the ceiling before I started to fall asleep myself.