Minsoo- ugh 

I look at Minsoo and see him all sprawled out on the couch, I guess his body is aching now especially after a whole day of snowboarding and playing with Sungjun. Well actually I am also feeling the after effect of snowboarding for a whole day especially when my posture is all awkward and out of proportion they keep on pointing it especially Minsoo who kept on teasing me. I see Sungjun then went and jump on Minsoo making his Hyung grunt in pain but nonetheless wrap his arms around Sungjun’s body. 

If you two are going to sleep go take a shower and change your clothes 

Minsoo- ugh

Sungjun- ugh 

Hey don’t just “ugh” at me come on go to the bathroom and take a shower

Minsoo- ugh 

One more grunt and I will drag you two in the bathroom and wash you two with my bare hands 

Minsoo- you wouldn’t dare!

Want to bet on it? 

He look at me first like studying me if I would really do what I had just said and I lift my eyebrow on him and he then grunt again and I wanna about to approach him when he shoot up real fast while holding on to his brother as he then run towards their room and hopefully straight to the bathroom. I laugh loudly and when I turn around I see Myungsoo just staring at me like I agree another pair of head or something but an amused look is etched on his face. 

Something wrong? 

Myungsoo- no

You sure? 

He just nod at me and I shrugged the topic off, I then trudge myself towards the couch and took a sit, I couldn’t help but groan as I hit the soft cushion of this couch. I don’t think I can handle snowboarding again especially if Myungsoo is my instructor, he is too strict! But I must admit that even with a day of practicing snowboarding I’m slowly getting a hand of it and manage to learn quickly we’ll never mind the few uhm I mean a lot of falling down on my and all I still deserve a pat on the back for being a good student kekeke

I stretched my tired and sore limbs and then look at Myungsoo who is now also sitting on the single sitter couch and his arms cross as he looks outside the snowing night. He really looks handsome and a sight to see, his fingers fumbling on one another and I couldn’t help but remember how those strong hands felt around my waist earlier, those arms that securely supported me and wrap around my waist. I could feel my cheeks heating up so I look away, I know I shouldn’t have these kinds of feelings towards him but I couldn’t help but feel the know it all tingles that overcome my body whenever he is near especially when he touches me. 

I looked outside also and watch as the white and thin specs of snow slowly falls down on the ground, we already had our dinner and was actually the only reason that Minsoo and Sungjun agreed on going back to the hotel, god knows how much they enjoyed playing on the snow they kept on sledding back and fro even though it was turning dark they didn’t mind as they continue on playing and throwing snowballs on one another, truthfully I had never seen them be so happy and so free. 

Even Myungsoo would occasionally play with them and when he did Minsoo and Sungjun’s eyes would go wide and filled with nothing but pure happiness. It was like their eyes were some light bulb that instantly lighten up when they see their father bonding with them and freely playing with them. It really was a wonderful sight and also a heart wrenching sight because I can see that they badly yearn for their father’s attention and yearn for Myungsoo’s time. It actually made my heart clench with so many emotions but I’m really glad Myungsoo-ssi is being wise and using every chance he has to be close with his sons today. 

I was about to open my mouth and say something when Minsoo and Sungjun come walking out of the door and I see they are fully freshened up and finally wearing their pajamas, it’s really nice of Minsoo to help his baby brother to change his clothes and bathe him also. Today really is a great day Minsoo and Sungjun got even closer and I get to see that despite how much Minsoo pick a fight with Junnie he truly and utterly adore his baby brother I guess him picking on Sungjun is his way of showing his affection towards Sungjun. 

Minsoo took a sir on the other single sitter chair while my baby Junnie securely and comfortably place himself on top of my lap and wrap his arms around my body and bury his head on my chest and I just smiled at him and rub his slightly damp hair and that causes him to cuddle with me even more. I’m sure this ball of energy and hyper active boy is really drained with all the running and sledding then the snowball fight he had with us. Minutes later he then raised his head and look at me and I kiss the top of his head and I received a wide smile for that he then lean forward and whisper on to me 

Sungjun- junnie had lots of fun today umma 

I’m glad you had lots of fun baby I did too. I whispered back at him 

Sungjun- thank you umma 

I think you should say that to your appa baby, you should be thanking him and not me

Sungjun- but appa... 

I think your appa would be really and I mean really happy if you said thank you to him. 

Sungjun- he would? 

I’m sure he would be really happy and would appreciate it 

Sungjun- junnie way thanks to appa 

That would be very nice of you 

I whispered as I then kiss his forehead and he then once again smiled at me as he then got off my lap as he then slowly and hesitantly approach his appa and he was nearing Myungsoo-ssi when he turn around asking me if he really should go ahead and I just nod at him smiling encouragingly at him. He then nod his head as he then approach his appa, he tugged on Myungsoo’s sleeves and Myungsoo looked at him and after staring at one another for a few second he then gathered Sungjun in his arms and place Junnie in his lap and I couldn’t help but smile as my baby wrap his arms around his father.

I then see him whispering something to Myungsoo and I see how Myungsoo-ssi’s eyes went wide and a smile break free from his lips and the reaction he has right now is the same when Minsoo and Junnie see him playing with them, it was really a wonderful sight. He then rubbed Sungjun’s head while the smile is still etched in his face and he then lean and kiss Junnie’s forehead, I can already see the smile Sungjun has despite seeing only his back. Sungjun then buried his head on Myungsoo’s broad chest and Myungsoo just rubbed Sungjun’s back. 

I turn and look at Minsoo who was looking at his brother and father, I know he also want to join but he must be thinking he is old enough for that so willing himself to stay put. I know he wants to be as close as Sungjun with their appa but something is just holding g him down and even though Myungsoo-ssi manage to get a little closer to Minsoo today he still has a long way to go but I’m sure with little and careful steps everything would be fine, I have a strong feeling that they would be all fine and they will be able to get closer together in time. I then stand up and stretch my aching limbs making Minsoo look at me and I just smiled at him 

Want some hot chocolate? 

Minsoo- if you wouldn’t mind. 

Now you’re being shy? When earlier you were teasing me kekeke of course I wouldn’t mind Minsoo I wouldn’t had ask if I would. 

Minsoo- well you do look constipated while snowboarding earlier 

I was not 

Minsoo- you were! And you keep on falling down! 

Was not and come on it was my first time snowboarding I was still learning! 

Minsoo- whatever 

Meanie! Hmp... Myungsoo-ssi would you like something to drink? 

Myungsoo- no thank you 

Okay then how about you Junnie? Would you like some hot Choco?

Sungjun- no umma Junnie okay 

Okay baby

What that I head towards the kitchen and grab two mugs and put it on the kitchen counter and then pulled the cocoa powder and pot, I poured the mineral water on the pot and the electric stove and put the pot on the stove. When the water is boiling I then put the cocoa powder and a little milk and some sugar and I stirred it for a few minutes and then turned off the stove as I then grab a pot holder and poured the hot choco in the mugs that I prepared. I put the pan on the sink as I then open the cabinet and grab the small marshmallows I bought together with the cocoa powder. 

I pour a few marshmallows Minsoo’s drink making sure that Myungsoo-ssi doesn’t see it and I then put the marshmallows back and I then grab the two steaming mugs of hot choco and as I reach Minsoo I handed him his mug and he quietly said thank you and I just smiled at him and when he looks at his mug and see the marshmallows floating in his drink he looks up at me and I just wink at him as I blow on my drink and then gently sip on it. I see Minsoo look at his mug again and a small smile ghosted on his face as he then blows on his drink and sips on it. 

I took a sit on my previous chair and then look at Myungsoo-ssi and see that he is still rubbing Sungjun’s back as he looks outside and my baby already fast asleep, aww that is just adorable he fallen asleep while his appa is rubbing his back, I guess Junnie likes the attention his appa is giving him and Myungsoo’s soothing caress manage to lull him to sleep I can see that Junnie’s grip on Myungsoo’s shirt is loosening up which means that he is already dee in his sleep. 

Uhm Myungsoo-ssi I think I should tuck Sungjun to bed now

Myungsoo- huh? 

He is already fast asleep he might get a stiff neck if he sleeps like that 

Myungsoo- oh he’s asleep already? He must be really tired 

Yeah he must be so I’ll go and tuck him to bed 

Myungsoo- no it’s okay I’ll do it? 

Are you sure? 

Myungsoo- yes I’ll do it. 

He then securely wrap his arms around Sungjun’s body and slowly stand up and head towards the bedroom, it’s really a good thing that Junnie already freshened up and change to his sleeping clothes if not I’m sure I would be disturbing his good sleep because I would be fussing on changing his clothes. I then look at Minsoo and see him staring at his drink, I can see he is thinking of something, something deep and worrying about it as his eyebrows scrunched together and I really don’t want to make him think of something other than our activities today. 

Minsoo? I called and manage to snap him out of his deep thought and he then look up to me with a questioning look

Did you have fun today? 

Minsoo- yeah... 

I’m glad then... Oh do you want to look at the photos I took while you were snowboarding? 

Minsoo- eh? You took pictures of me? 

Of course! I took pictures of you, Junnie and all of us. 

Minsoo- why would you do that? 

Eh? Of course to capture the memories because as we make them it is also important that we keep something to remember those good times, so when we return to Seoul I’m going to print this and put it in an album

Minsoo- ...

So would you like to look at it? 

Minsoo- I guess...

He said with a nonchalant face but I can see from his body that he really wants to see it so I just smiled at his action as I then pulled my phone out and I see him stand up and slowly went closer to me and took a sit beside me and so I open my gallery browsed through the tons of pictures I took today and went from the start and handed him the phone and let him swipe on his own, he was looking at Sungjun’s photo and I can see a smile creeping in his lips and he then swipe to the next photo which was him and Junnie together with Myungsoo-ssi. 

I saw that Minsoo look at it for a few minutes with a straight face but then let his finger trace on the screen and I really and badly want to know what he is thinking as he looks at their family photo since I can’t read his facial features. He then swipe to the next one which was him and Junnie and one again a smile broke free from his face as he swipe to the next one and see that Junnie is doing a weird face as Minsoo rest his hands on Sungjun’s shoulder. He started laughing when Junnie’s weird pose and face started showing up but then as he swipe to the next one his face went neutral as he see the picture of me and Myungsoo-ssi he then look at me his gaze that he is giving me is like judging me and reading my inner thoughts making me gulp in fear and look away 

Minsoo- you’re gay right? 

I feel like my eyes went wide and I immediately look back at Minsoo as my ears buzzed and his voice echoes in my head and his question repeats in my head like a broken record. I feel like my mouth went dry with his question but then again I keep on swallowing my saliva. I see him looking at me intently and waiting patiently for my reply, I bit the inside of my cheeks as I fumble with my fingers I really don’t want to lie to him and I never really hide my uality nor tried to deny it but I’m scared that he would pull away from me again if he found out about my uality. 

Myungsoo- Minsoo don’t be rude, you shouldn’t be asking those kinds of questions. Say sorry to Sungjong-ssi 

Uhm no Myungsoo don’t worry I don’t mind please don’t reprimand him, uhm yes I am does it bother you Minsoo-ah? 

Minsoo- no, I have friends who are gay also I don’t really mind and I’m sorry if I sounded rude and I didn’t mean to offend you I just wanted to know. 

When he said that I feel like a huge and I mean a ton of weight got lifted from my chest and like I could breathe again, I really don’t want him to withdrawn himself from me again especially now that he is slowly opening up to me. I really want to get close to him but if he was uncomfortable with my uality then I don’t have a choice but to stay away from him, I just smiled at him as I then rub his hair. 

Don’t say sorry Minsoo-ah it’s okay

Minsoo- right I’m going to sleep, good night appa, Sungjong-ssi thank you for the hot choco and for showing em the photos you took. 

Myungsoo- good night Minsoo 

Ne good night Minsoo-ah sweet dreams 

I then grab the empty mug and then head to the kitchen, I put all the mugs in the sink and when I heard the door close I then started washing the utensils that I used and put it in the tank so it would dry and when I turned around I couldn’t help but flinched seeing Myungsoo-ssi watching me while he sit on the bar stool, I pat my chest lightly to ca