Mark fell his back onto the bed and stared at the ceiling. He reached for the phone, he wanted to call JinYoung be he couldn’t get up the courage. What would he say now? That he was sorry for leave the other hanging? That he decided to get back to his girlfriend? What would their friendship turn into then? Mark didn’t want anything to change. That was why he put the phone down, intending to ignore the whole situation one more time. Pretended that nothing has happened, that he had never heard JinYoung’s confession. Maybe after a month, they would get back to normal. By then, once again, he would enjoy the feelings of being next to JinYoung. But again sounded like impossible. Not when JinYoung had decided to put an end to everything. Poor Mark for being too ignorant…

It was early in the morning that JinYoung found himself being gathered by his best friends. Suddenly, he wanted to fling himself into their embraces. Yesterday, he was so excited that he texted YoungJae about his date with Mark. And of course, he knew the other guys would know too. Because here they were, smiling happily when they walked towards him and put their arms around his shoulder, already teasing.

“So, where’s your prince? I thought he would be here with you!” - BamBam joked and grinned. JinYoung couldn’t help but smile back. But his friends always noticed what went wrong.

“JinYoung, is everything okay?” - Jaebum’s question finally broke him. The black hair found tears helplessly flew on his face as he told his friends everything.

“I knew it. I knew it from the start. It was not his fault. I shouldn’t have any hopes.” -he said between the sobs when YoungJae and YuGyeom hugged him from both side. Jaebum, instead just clenched his fist.

“That s! I’m gonna give him a lesson!”- he angrily said but JinYoung pulled him back.

“Don’t, Jaebum…” - that only triggered more anger.

“Why not!? Why does Mark get to act like a jerk and you’re still here protecting him! He is so clueless about his feelings! We all know he loves you, you know that yourself JinYoung!” - Jaebum  shouted and YoungJae hit his arms, telling him to stop. But before they could do anything, Jaebum sprinted away.

“Wait!” - JinYoung wanted to run after his friend but other boys held him back.

“Let him!” - BamBam sneered from anger. - “What do you have to lose now JinYoung? You said you would end this! So let’s end it clearly! Mark needs to be taught a lesson!”

*

Mark walked into school and he saw his group of friends from afar, more exactly, his eyes caught the sight of the only one boy, JinYoung. He took a deep breath, ready to once again pull off his play. His steps suddenly slowed as he saw the other boys hugged JinYoung and he could heard Jaebum yelling though he couldn’t quite make out what that was. He saw the boy stomping his feet away when JinYoung was helped by YoungJae back in class. Mark just stood there all the time, he started to understand what was going on. But he was praying that his guess was wrong.

“You jerk!” - Jaebum threw his fist at the red hair when he met Mark on the way up to class.

“What the was that!?” - Mark swore and caressed his swollen cheeks.

“If you don’t love him at the first place, you shouldn’t have used him like that!” - Jaebum gritted his teeth, he kept his voice down in case other students heard what they were arguing about. But Mark still heard those clearly.

“What the ! He told you so!??” - Anger and embarrassment got the best of him. Mark stood up straight and clenched his fist. He thought that he had made it clear that this was just between him and JinYoung. That the black hair shouldn’t tell anyone about their relationship. Now all their friends knew. The red hair just couldn’t accept that fact.

“Get out of my way!” - He shoved Jaebum away but the other boy pulled him back.

“Where do you think you’re going?”

“To class, Mr. I-care-so-much-about-my-friend. It’s none of your business what happened between me and him. So shut the up!” - he yelled and sprinted off before Jaebum could throw another punch.

Mark was late. He slammed his backpack down on the table and muttered some swearing words. Not that YuGyeom and BamBam sitting right under him couldn’t heard. They just sighed and shook their heads, holding the urge not to look back at JinYoung.

JinYoung , on the other hand, was having all his attention to the lesson when Mark walked in and the red hair was just a great distraction. The black hair tried to look away, but he didn’t miss the glare from Mark.

He knew. He must hate me so much. JinYoung said to himself and he felt his heart throbbing again. Why should he care? If Mark didn’t love him, hating or not hating, would they be the same? Maybe it was for the better. Avoidance could be the first step for JinYoung to move on.

*

Few days passed by just like that. JinYoung walked into class with other boys surrounding him, there wasn’t a chance for Mark to even come close, let alone talk to him. Not to mention not only Jaebum but YuGyeom, BamBam and even YoungJae shot death glares at him. It was damn annoying. And Mark started to feel something missing already.

It could be the usual ride he took with JinYoung after school. It could be the awkward skinship in class that he always tried to push the black hair away. It could be the teasing, the jokes, all the things JinYoung picked up on him but Mark never once hated those, mostly because he would have a chance to punish the smiley boy later.

Then suddenly it dawned on Mark that he might not just miss those things they do as friends. He missed JinYoung’s kisses. He missed holding the other’s hands and let his hair be n between those chubby fingers. He missed acting childishly with JinYoung and let the black hair pamper him.

The more Mark missed everything, the angry he got. And since he was too stubborn to realize he was at fault, he started to hate the remaining one of the story, JinYoung.

“Mark, I’ll head to class now oppa.” - Yumi informed him after they had taken a few walks around school. Mark totally didn’t feel guilty that he had missed all the things she was talking about.

“Ah, okay, Yumi.” - he forced a smile, having promised that he would treat Yumi better.

“That’s all?” - she teased, smiling brightly. Her smile isn’t as beautiful as JinYoung’s. His smile is the best, the most natural one, the one with wrinkles at the corner of his eyes. Mark mentally slapped himself for comparing. But he just couldn’t help. Added one more thing to those he missed, JinYoung’s precious smile.

“Bye, girlfriend.” - he leaned in and pecked her cheeks. Yumi chuckled happily and replied his kiss. However, Mark wasn’t paying attention, again. Because he saw JinYoung walking towards them, alone. It seems like he saw what was going on, since he was turning around and walked away.

Wait. Mark wanted to scream for JinYoung’s name but luckily a part of his mind still remembered that Yumi was here. “I gotta go too Yumi. Bye.”

He quickly ran to JinYoung, almost not catching up to the boys. But eventually he did, Mark caught his breath when the black hair just looked mostly surprised.

“Hi..” - JinYoung said, not even looking into Mark’s eyes. The red hair obviously noticed that. The emotion inside of him switched immediately. From missing to anger. Angry at how JinYoung ignored him for the past few days. Angry at why the other boy had to tell all their friends about their secrets, and now those had ended too.

Mark was desperately needed an answer. He could have said it gently. But the hatred he had for JinYoung now was too much. He couldn’t help but think that it was all the black hair’s fault. So instead, Mark threw a tantrum.

“What the do you think you’re doing JinYoung?” - He groaned, almost yelling. - “Why the hell did you tell the boys about us? Are you happy when they laugh at me and teasing me and joking at the fact that I was disgustingly gay like you?”

JinYoung couldn’t believe in his ears. What did Mark just said?

“You know ing well that I hate it, I hate people knowing what I did to you. It is supposed to be a secret JinYoung ah, not something you can go boast around like that. Are you that desperate!?” - Mark continued before JinYoung could reply. He lost control and his mind are all messed up. It was like his words and his thoughts didn’t match at all.

Why JinYoung? Why are you acting like this? I miss you. I need you. I… I don’t know my feelings, I don’t know if I’m gay or not. I don’t want anybody to know that I am. Because even if I’m gay, it could only be for you.

Before he could splurt out any more insults, Mark got a slap onto his face. He looked up and he had never thought JinYoung could be that angry.

“I can’t believe I’m hearing this from you Mark. So what? I told them. I told them cause they’re my friends, and as far as I remember, yours also. Are you thinking straight because they could never be disgusted by homo since they hang out with me, even after I came out. But apparently you didn’t Mark. You didn’t think highly of me , even until now. You’re using me as your toys, you’re trashing me and you talk about homophobians as trash that means you think I’m a trash as well. Fair enough. Maybe this trash doesn’t even want a friend like you. And don’t worry, the boys and I won’t tell anyone. You can live happily ever after with your so-called-important reputation. I regretted saying that I like you. I really did.”

And with that JinYoung left Mark dumbfounded and walked away. Mark gritted his teeth, feeling even more pissed at what the black hair had told him.

“Get back here JinYoung!” - he screamed but JinYoung had walked too far to listen. Or if he did, he had chose to ignore it.

“ you! Am I a nobody to you? The one that you could play around and decided to stop whenever you want, JinYoung?” - Mark slammed his fist onto the wall. It hurted but he didn’t care. He was so pissed off. The one he trusted the most said things as if he didn’t know him at all.

A/N: Since this is so short, I decided to leave it as part 1- I tried to update part 2 as soon as I can. And once again, sorry for the late updates! And really really thank you and love you guys so much for still waiting for me and my crappy fic!! Please continue to support me! <3