Silence

It was a long silence that frightened JungKook. Suddenly Jin brought his wrist to his lips. The younger could hear the and that pop when the older pulled away. SeokJin showed JungKook a red hickey that he just did on his own wrist with a smile. Then the older proceeded to caressed the stunned younger's hair 

"See I have one too. It's not so bad. And, you are not oblige to feel that way. I mean, I'm not your boyfriend. I'm your doll. I'm paid to make you happy isn't it? And even without that I could still be your friend, your hyung" Jin said that with every good intentions even when he himself felt it hollowed. Though it still confuse him, he get the gist that JungKook can't ever be just a friend. It pained Jin to point out the barrier between them, the truth that he was just one of the younger's collections but he'll never know how painful it was for JungKook. 

There he was remembering something dark, then Jin lights it up saying it was okay, making him believe he understand and that his mistake was accepted. At the end it was just because of the contract. Because he was a doll. Because he was paid to do so, to be there, to smile to pretend he cares. But that wasn't enough cruelty, he was FRIENDZONED of all things. 

'Better than nothing' 

JungKook closed his eyes, feeling every of Jin's warm hand. JungKook tried to ignore how his heart was just trampled on and he thought

'Soon enough your hands are gonna something else'

with much difficulty in refraining a naughty grin, Jungkook tried his best to completely relax under the older's touch.

An idea suddenly sprung and he opened his eyes for a puppy dog look as he made space 

"Hyung" the younger weakly pleads.

Jin beamed with understanding before lying beside him. SeokJin continued caressing JungKook's hair not losing eye contact 

"Hyung" the younger said again as his hands got to the older's waist. Jin pulled him in a snuggle. The younger burrows to his hyung's chest, drowning in his scent. His hands tight on SeokJin's waist as a muffled question was said

"Am i disgusting?" 

Hearing this made a mixture of different emotions stir at the pit of the older's stomach. That's what he blames for what he did next. His hands started soothing circles on JungKook's back and he places gentle kisses atop the younger's head, whispering

"No, no. Of course not"

With swift moves JungKook manage to pull away from the hug, stir around and end up sitting on Jin's stomach. SeokJin was staring in surprise as the younger started stripping. Once his upper body was exposed, JungKook kept looking at the older with a blank face. He let Jin's eyes to linger on his body. JungKook could see the twitching curiosity on the other's face so he took Jin's hand and placed it on his chest where one of the darker mark is. Jin touched some of the scattered spots. He was contemplating what to feel then he noticed bruises on the younger's hips. He let out a quiet gasp as he graze the bruises with his fingertips. He was about to search the younger's face when alarm painted the older's eyes. SeokJin's hand was suddenly on JungKook's shoulder

"Is that..."

"Umh, I like it rough when I'm sad" the younger scratched his nape as he sheepishly watch Jin's expression as the older was focus on tracing the darkened teeth marks.

"Do you still think I'm not disgusting?" JungKook sadly smiled

SeokJin stared at the younger. This vulnerable boy on top of him is Jeon JungKook. Jeon JungKook who acted like he could own everything and everyone. The boy with the most beautiful smile. The boy who he thought have all the confidence in the world now sounds so insecure and unsure of himself. No matter how he looked at the younger, no matter how many hickeys cover his ivory skin, JungKook would always look flawless to him. He is always perfect. If he wants to lead the boy to the right path, he first needs to help him stand up when he is down like this.

His hand warmed the younger's cheek as he spoke 

"No you are not disgusting. Never"

Then JungKook collapsed on top of Jin to bury his face to the older's neck again. He likes nuzzling against Jin. He likes the older's scent for some reasons he feels comforted by his smell. And SeokJin's warm, soft skin makes him feel safe and relax. SeokJin rolled slowly so they would lay on their sides with arms around each other. JungKook squeezed Jin a bit in his hug and muttered 

"Don't leave me"

That made the disappointment to creep up to JungKook when he woke up with the empty space on his bed. He was to venture out and look for his princess. He will take advantage of SeokJin's gallantry in affection. But before twisting the knob he heard his princess outside

"He is just a kid. I could only be a hyung to him. He have issues and I feel the need to take care of him. No, I don't. I can't. The most I could give is motherly love because he seems so fragile."

Jin must be talking through phone, hinted by his pause every sentence and his tone that changed every other stop

'I'm a kid? Motherly love?' JungKook gnawed at his lower lip as he grips the door knob. He glared at the door as if it would penetrate the wood and send chills to the man outside.

'I'll break you Kim SeokJin' he thought as his furious eyes got blurry.

He walked back to his bed and stopped himself in thinking about the prickling sensation in his eyes and the bitter taste of betrayal. SeokJin is one heck of a work. Why did he even thought he could have been different? How could he believed that Jin could feel something real? How could he even dream of a real relationship with anyone? He is kidding himself and he needs to stop or he'll get more hurt. 

JungKook acted as his usual jolly self till the next day. He was smiling and being cheesy as usual but Jin felt they lost something. He can't quite figure it out but he was sure there was something different. He wanted to talk to the younger once he got home from school but he was informed JungKook would be home late because he attended a meeting. 

In the afternoon, Jin wondered to the kitchen and found the maids in frenzy. Flour, eggs, chocolate, it was obvious they are preparing to bake.

"Ahjumma, what are you preparing?" He wants to segue his way to helping because he was bored again

"We're baking young master's birthday cake" Mrs. Choi said with a smile

"It's his birthday today?" the maid nodded with a smile. Jin stood from the counter and volunteered to help.

JungKook said nothing that morning. He heard of rich people throwing big parties for their birthdays. JungKook's seemed to be really quiet.

That night JungKook came home with a bang. LITERALLY. The door to the living room slammed shut real loud followed by JungKook's outburst

"They will never change! I hate them! I hate all of them!"

SeokJin immediately run to the living room but all he found was NamJoon shaking his head

"What's wrong? What happened to him?"

NamJoon looked up with a frown and a once over before asking

"Why are you wearing that?" the butler pointed at the pink apron Jin forgot to take off when he left the kitchen

"Uh I was baking a cake for JungKook" Jin bowed down a bit embarrass about the apron. But his answer seemed to convince NamJoon that he could tell him

"His parents forgot his birthday, they even made him attend a meeting with the new clients. They even have the nerve at the end to tell him off for not being attentive. He was expecting for a difference this year but his parents are..." NamJoon snorted as he walked away giving Jin the choice.

Of course he'll go to JungKook's room to see what he could do. No one should be sad at their birthday. 

Before he could brave a knock, he heard things hit the wall, the door even. He hear things break and he could hear JungKook break. The younger sobbed and shouted a lot of profanities. 

He let the surge to pass.

Once silence took over Jin let himself in. He saw the younger sitting on the floor by the balcony door. He is hugging his legs against his chest while trying to hide his face between his knees. He was shaking as muffled cries could still be heard. He audibly tried to suppress any sound once he knew someone else is in his room. Jin sat beside the younger not knowing what to do for a while then he proceeded to run his hand from the other's head to his back in a slow, soothing way. It went on for a while till the sobbing subsided to silent tears. He wasn't trembling anymore but SeokJin knows he is still crying. He moved nearer and gathered the younger in his arms. He wants to stop the pain. Every cry, every tears seemed to tear a part of him as he watch so he wanted to bring that smile back. He just set his mind in a goal, how he'll do it will all be impulsive. 

SeokJin kissed the younger's temple before whispering in his ear

"JungKook, look at me"

The younger lifts his tear-stained face to the older. His face was wet with tears and sweat, his nose and eyes red. But all the same, with the illumination of the moon, he is still a beautiful sight.

"We won't let your birthday end just like this" Jin didn't let a heartbeat pass, he leaned down and his lips touched JungKook's gently. Their lips were just against each other in a light tap for a few seconds before the older pressed forward to get their mouths in a complete liplock. 

There in front of the open balcony door, with the cold night breeze blowing the curtains in a lovely wave and with the moon as their lone witness Jeon JungKook and Kim SeokJin shared their first kiss. 

Tbc....

A/N: Arghhh! Umhh... I think this is pretty short I'll try to make it longer next time... so? How was this chap for you? Is it bad? Good? I really can't decide how I did it... I didn't want to miss on my weekly update so I rushed this.. Thanks for everything everyone... to those who always comments, I know I'm always saying Thanks but that's because I'm really grateful. Sharing your thoughts in every Chapter just makes my heart to flutter with happiness. All of you make me happy, with every comments and votes... I'll work harder for you guys. My 'thank you's will never be enough! : )