"Hyung, do you... would you like to top again?" JungKook shyly asked. He fiddles with his fingers as he wait for the response, which came a bit shaky and hesitant 

"Huh? I... well I don't think we should" Jin didn't even get to finish and the younger swiftly got off the couch, away from the him. JungKook  felt so embarrassed for asking. 

"Thought so. Sorry, I just. Yeah I just told you, it must be weird. Sorry" JungKook bitterly smiled, biting his lips, biting the tears back. He was halted by Jin grabbing his wrist and pulling him back. He landed seated on the older's lap. He tried to get up, he wanted to hide. He knew his tears were b and didn't want to cry in front of the other. He didn't want to make Jin feel guilty and obligated. SeokJin held him in place by circling his arms around the younger's waist.

"No, no baby. I didn't mean that I don't want to. I just think, maybe we should take it slow? And besides, top or bottom, it doesn't really matter to me. What I care about is we have each other, we love each other. It doesn't matter if I never get to top, being loved by you is all I could wish for" Jin buries his face on the younger's back, nuzzling against the scent. JungKook turned  a bit so he could  face Jin and return the hug. 

"I love you" he whispered to to he older's ear, hot breath and sincerity is all 

"I love you too" Jin looked up and met smiling  lips with his.

~~~

"What did you do that for?" HoSeok immediately demanded once they reached TaeHyung's apartment. V locked the door before turning towards the seemingly fuming other with folded arms against his chest. 

"Uh, you could actually start off by thanking me for saving your face from great embarrassment" the blond pointed out, eyes unamused at how the older was acting at the moment. 

"You basically told SunMi that I'm a liar who tricked her the entire stretch of our relationship to avenge the guys she played with. Just where did you picked up that story? Do you know how much embarrassment that was for her?" HoSeok's voice was raised for the first time. It irritated Taehyung that the older was actually mad at him because of his unworthy ex girlfriend 

"Oh, there! So you still care about her, that's what's  getting your all twisted up!"

"I'm still your hyung!"

"Fine, hyung you're an idiot if you still hope for salvaging your fake romance with that "

"If anything is fake here, it's this engagement bull. I don't want to play your game anymore. I'm done" Hoseok turned back, heading for the door. TaeHyung immediately caught up to him and pulled him just to pin him against the door 

"Jung HoSeok who the hell told you that any of this is fake? You can't just leave me like this not when i-- " Taehyung caught himself, the question that strike him voiced out by the other 

"Not when what?"

Exactly, not when what? What did he almost say? Why is he acting this way? He composed himself. He can't blurt things out now. Not those kind of things. 

"You won't leave me" TaeHyung stated with hardened expression. 

"Why won't I?" Hoseok challenged 

"Because you love me"

"You conceited little --" Hoseok was muted by soft lips aggressively moving against his. 

"Deny it more and I'll make it harder, I'll make you HARDER" TaeHyung said breathily to the other's ear. It tickled HoSeok and the hand that suddenly cupped his front made him gasped. It quickly earned a smirk from the predator who proceeded to attack the older's lips. 

★★★

"What are you--" 

"I'm sorry, i'm sorry, I'm so sorry. YoonGi, please!" JiMin held the door open so the older wouldn't be able to slam it shut to his face, not that YoonGi ever did. The older hasn't been replying or answering any of his calls.

 Now they stare at each other's eyes. 

Jimin's hand against the door while YoonGi's  never left the knob, just in case.

"You said you knew what you are getting yourself into, you said you'll be patient. If you can't keep your words, if you can't cope with me anymore you can just move on. I won't stop you" YoonGi said as stern as he could.

 He didn't want to lose JiMin just like that but he doesn't want to be unfair too. JiMin lowered his head, his eyes starting to get blurry. 

So everything was just his wishful thinking? The connection he felt was still one sided?

"You really don't have any feelings for me huh, even just a bit" he said it out loud even when that just hurt him more. YoonGi bit his lower lip as he watch JiMin going to a break down. He never planned on admitting but he just can't see the younger so broken. 

"I won't say it that way. Honestly, I have feelings. They are just unclear. I don't want to be unfair to you. I can't be part of your life that way yet if I'm not sure of everything myself" YoonGi's eyes were fixed on the floor as he said this but once he raised his gaze, he was surprised to find JiMin's expression so alive again 

"You have feelings for me?"

YoonGi has to sigh at this but a smile passed by his face for a nano second.  

"Hopefully that wasn't the only part you heard" the older shook his head at JiMin's sudden change of mood. His smile reach his ear, his eyes almost gone to jovial slits 

"Unclear feelings are feelings nonetheless" JiMin pointed out giddily. 

YoonGi arched a brow 

"Nonetheless"

"He he, I need to keep up with you, don't I?" JiMin said with a happy tilt of his head that made YoonGi smile back.

★★★

"Hyung~~ what flavor did you bought? Told you we should have just asked namjoon hyung, I missed you" JungKook immediately hang by Jin's back as soon as he got back to the house. They are still at SeokJin's apartment, finding it more peaceful somehow 

"I was just out for an hour" Jin laughed lightly reaching out to ruffle the younger's hair. JungKook moved around so they we're chest to chest and his arms wrapped tightly 'round Jin's waist. 

"Still, so what flavor? Argh! I'm so excited to try the bubblegum flavor" JungKook excitedly uttered while peppering the older's neck with kisses. The younger is obviously in the mood as he started lapping and nipping at the expose skin. 

"umh, I think I forgot" Jin admitted as he moaned, JungKook's  roaming hands at fault. 

"Eh? Then what did you bought?" JungKook pulled away so he could Peck at Jin's lips. 

"I forgot what I was buying" Jin scratched his head sheepishly. It wasn't a lie, he just didn't tell why. JungKook tilt his head for the  silly statement but didn't made a big deal out of it. 

"Weird, maybe you're still too stressed. Come on I'll give you a massage" the younger started pulling Jin to the bedroom

"Jeon JungKook giving a massage, the world must be ending" SeokJin joked giggling but followed in excitement anyway

"Only for you. And i haven't said what kind of massage. Let NamJoom hyung buy the and lube, we can use that next time" JungKook said with a smirk and a glint of mischief in his eyes. 

It's gonna be a long, loud afternoon. 

...

Jin was distracted by the ecstacy brought by his boyfriend but he knew he'll stay awake tonight thinking of the encounter earlier that made him forget about his 'grocery list' 

SeokJin was nervously looking for his 'items' at the pharmacy when he run into him at the counter. The medicines he bought with a bright smile made Jin furrow his brows. He turned around and gone face to face with Jin 

"Oh, hey you"

"Im TaeJoon" Jin's eyes trailed down to the bought items. TaeJoon followed with his own eyes an realized what the other was gawking at. 

"Oh. Umh. SeokJin sshi, right? Can we talk"

They ended up at the nearest park. TaeJoon was quiet the whole walk, but his smile was not fading. Jin had to admit that he have a pretty smile, okay heck now he is conscious and maybe a bit insecure. Because JungKook's ex is perfection much like the younger, what does he have that's greater? What does he have to offer that TaeJoon can't?  He sighed before sitting on the bench beside the other 

"The medicines you bought ..."

"It's for the heart. Haha, my heart is quite weak, about to give up on me. That's why I want to talk" TaeJoon said with little laughters like it was nothing but after a few, probably when the meaning dawned upon him, his head was down and his smile was sullen as sunset.

"SeokJin sshi, I don't know if Kookie told the story"

"He did and you don't know how hard I'm trying not to punch you" Jin oath to be mad at the man in front of him but he can't hiss, thinking that this man is slowly fading, that  one day he'll just be a memory. 

"You can punch me, I'll accept that. I deserve it. I know how badly I treated him. And the break up was ty and unreasonable. That's why in my remaining months, I want to make up to him. I just want to make him feel that I loved him. I want to treat him the way I should have. I want to love him properly before I die. SeokJin sshi, can you give me a chance? Just a few months, my heart is too weak I won't even make it to 6. Just a few months to make him happy and for me to be at peace when I'm gone"

Tbc... ICEBREAKER (ask A-sshi)

V:who tops jimin or suga

Jimin: seriously?

V: what? I'm curious!

A-sshi: ahhh... *contemplating with furrowed brows*

Jin: why are you so conflicted with them but you could easily label me as bottom!

Kookie: princess *rub circles on Jin's back*

A-sshi: I think that already explained it

Jin: but kookie is a baby!

A-sshi: that just made you a e, not a seme.

 Jimin: let's get back to the question, who tops? Me or suga?

Suga: *everybody stares at him* will you... will you all stop staring at me, I don't have issues here 

V: won't you ask why you seem so emotionally unsettling?

Suga: *roll his eyes* won't you ask why you are such a hyperactive ?

A-sshi: ooohhh a love squalor, two betas fighting for their alpha. Never seen this before *a bag of chips magically appears at hand*

JungKook: *snatched the bag of chips* share

NamJoon: she just accidentally answered the question.

J-hope:*nudged namjoon* ask her 

NamJoon: do you love me?

A-sshi:what? *blushes*

NamJoon: I mean how come I don't have any love interest, do you hate me or what?

A-sshi: you do have  a love interest

Namjoon: Sehun isn't counted, he is getting married and he have Luhan too. Where am I in that equation?

A-sshi: somewhere... near my heart *hides tomato red face*

NamJoon: *scratch his nape shyly* 

J-hope: they are flirting, aren't they?

Jin: totally 

V: another question. When will I get it on with my bae?

A-sshi: let's close this thing

V: yah! That was the last question! Yah! It's just a timeframe! 

J-hope: let it go 

JungKook: can't hold it back anymore~~

Jin: seriously? Till now?

V: she didn't even answer anything properly! Argh! I hate you!

A-sshi: 'Kay, then just cuddles for you and Hobie. Abstinence for the win.

V: what? No!

Jin : *nudged kookie* heard that? Give those chips back to her if you want to use the bubble gum flavor

JungKook:  fine.

A/N:

... wew just nonsense ice breaker again! Hiiiii!! I missed you! I'm weird today, ignore. No! I mean don't ignore me. I'm not drunk. Just half asleep maybe? I really need you now lovelies, votes, comments, follow, anything please feed my Muse. I want to update weekly and I need my Muse to stay so please I need you. Tell me what you think.  I LOVE YOU LOTS! ~~  next week lovelies!