Baekhyun pressed his lips against mine.  I didn't know how to react.

Why was Baekhyun kissing me?

Just as quickly as Baekhyun kissed me, he pulled away.  I didn't understand.  I felt my face crinkle in confusion.

"You're an idiot." Baekhyun told me.  The look on his face was as if I'd just stabbed him in the heart.  He got up off of the bench and walked away.  All I could so was watch as Baekhyun kept getting further and further.

"Baek?" I whispered into the garden, finally finding my words.  Baekhyun wasn't there anymore though.  There was a feeling at the bottom of my heart.  It told me that it hurt.  It told me that Baekhyun wasn't coming back.  It still wouldn't tell me what had just happened and why.

I slowly picked myself up and numbly walked back into the party.  I returned to the where I'd left Kai.  He was still there, just as I'd left him.  However, the moment and the feelings that had brought me to this room with Kai were no longer there.

Kai looked up at me.  He was still beautiful.  "Chanyeol, are we gonna keep going or what?"

"No.  I think I just fought with Baekhyun." I said while frowning at the floor.  I was trying to piece it together.  It was something that should've been simple, but like a child, I was trying to fit the square block into the round hole.  Something told me it shouldn't have been so complicated.

"Oh. Okay.  Do you wanna just go home?" Kai bit his lip and looked up at me through his eyelashes.

"Yes please."

Kai drove me home.  I kissed his cheek and slowly made my way past the front gate of my house, up the mini stairs, onto the porch, and through the front door.  I flopped onto my couch.  My parents and sister weren't home, so I was sitting alone in the dark.

Finally and slowly, my mind put it together.  It solved the mystery of why Baek had kissed me.  He was in love with me.  It sounded wrong in my head.  My memories provided proof and evidence.

He was crying because he saw me with Kai. I remembered all of the occurrences that had seemed odd to me.  He wasn't as happy as I thought he'd be when Kai agreed to go out with me.  He seemed stand-offish with Kai in every interaction.  This was my first time noticing it.

It was my first time noticing something so blatantly obvious. Now that I knew, I realized Baekhyun was right.  I was an idiot.  It was impossible not to see it.  The way his eyes would soften when I blathered on about stupid, pointless things.  The way he would perk up a bit just by me being around.  He would laugh at all of my stupid jokes, he hadn't always done that.  He used to tell me that no one thought I was funny.

Part of me was unwilling to look at it when he'd fallen in love with me.  I knew, but I wasn't ready to admit to myself that it was my fault.  It all went back to that day when I kissed him.

I sat on my couch, staring at my fingers through the darkness.  I ruined the most important relationship I'd ever forged.  There wasn't a single memory from my childhood that didn't have Baekhyun's dorky laugh in the background.   My body carried scars from all the stupid plans and ideas we'd come up with.  Baekhyun had them too.  We were always together.  There was nothing I did that he didn't do as well.  Every that he did, I did too.  Except for this one.  I'd never fallen in love with Baekhyun.

Maybe that why it hurt Baekhyun so much.  I fell in love with Kai.

Why did I kiss Baekhyun that day?  I was stupid for thinking that it hadn't changed anything.  I was so so stupid for thinking he wouldn't feel anything too.  I was stupid for breaking my best friend's heart.

I waited.  I waited for Baekhyun to text me.  I waited for him to tell me that we needed to meet up.  I waited for a day.  A day turned into two, which turned into four.  I waited for a week before I understood what had truly happened.  When it hit me, it hit me hard.  It was mind numbing how much it hurt.

School was over.  Baekhyun had told me how he felt.  Baekhyun was letting go, moving on, leaving me alone.  Baekhyun was breaking ties.

I was right the first time.  I had done irreparable damage.

These were the consequences that I would have to deal with.

I lost my best friend.

A/N:

yes, I know super short.  I didn't want to do anything else with it.

Thanks for staying.  I promise that there's more to come and do I need to apologize for all the angst I'm hitting you guys with? I'm sorry.  Happiness is on the horizon.  I pinky swear. (I think I just referenced my own thingy... hehe).