What happened to him? I wonder to myself. I look at Tao and Kris,fear lingering in my eyes. They take a look at Luhan then back to me. "What the happened to him" Kris questions. I shrug slightly not being able to move much from shock and fear. "I have no idea but there's definitely something wrong with him" Luhan stands up and walks over to the wall repeatedly banging his head on it. I quickly walk over to him, grabbing him by the shoulders, whipping him around and leading him back to the couch where i push him down and make him sit.

 

 "Luhan are you okay!?" I question grabbing his hand to feel its ice cold and i look up to see the colour draining from his face. 

 

"His hands are ice cold. We need to get him help!" Tao walks over next to me and puts his hands on Luhan's shoulders shaking him lightly. "What the ! Stop playing tricks on us Lu! You're scaring us just come back already!" He yes as he shakes him slightly. Luhan grabs Tao's hands i suppose what was with a lot of force because i watch as Tao cringes in pain and pulls his hand out of Luhan's grip; grasping hold of it and shaking it to push the pain away. 

 

Luhan stands up and instantly pushes Tao who was standing right in front of him to the ground. "Yo man what the actual " I hear Kris yelling from behind me. Instead of responding Luhan walks away once again. 

 

"We need to get him help!" I say quickly and urgently turning to Kris and Tao. "But how!? I mean we don't even know what's wrong with him. Or if anything is wrong with him; i mean for all we know this could be all some sick little prank the er's playing on us!" Kris yells out to me waving his arm over to where Luhan's walking. 

 

I turn around to see Luhan walking into the kitchen. "Oh god, Lu what are you doing now?" I question as he walks away and into the kitch without giving me an answer. After a few moments i watch as Luhan walks back into the living room holding a gun. 

 

 

"Luhan! No!" I scream running over and tackling him to the floor so he doesn't get the chance to shoot himself. I hear a gun shot as we both go down but I have no idea as to where it went.

 

 

I listen as Tao and Kris rush over to us as I scramble off Luhan and take a look at him to see his eyes turning from white to black and he slowly closes them.

 

"Guys call an ambulance" I demand as i start feeling for a pulse in Luhan wrist which i can't seem to feel at all.  I place my head to his chest to hear heart beats to my luck but they were faint and slow. I listen as Kris calls for an ambulance, giving them the building address and apartment floor and which place it was. 

 

I grab hold of Luhan's hand and lean in closer to his face as tears fill my eyes.

 

 "Luhan wake up please, please wake up. Don't go i can't do this on my own. Don't say goodbye, not yet" I whisper as i feel the tears fall down my face. I feel someone pulling me into a hug from behind and i look up to see it's Kris "He'll be okay" he whispers in my ear as i start crying even more. 

 

Passing minutes feels like hours waiting for the ambulance to come but i finally hear it growing closer to the building. Soon they finally  burst through the apartment door, quickly making their way to Luhan, picking him up and carrying him out. Kris, Tao and I follow them out and downstairs. 

 

I'm not sure as to why but they had asked me if i wanted to ride in the ambulance with Luhan. I accept their offer and climb into the truck "We'll meet you there" Tao yells as they close the doors and begin speeding off towards the hospital. The whole ride to the hospital i hold Luhan's hand tears not stopping anytime soon and continue to stream down my face. We finally make it to the hospital and they rush Luhan to a room which I'm not allowed to follow them to so i walk up front where i meet Tao and Kris. 

 

 

 

 

I walk into the bathroom, drying the tears in my eyes, and grab my bottle of pills and a new razor. I rip the razor apart removing the three small blades from it. I hold one in my hand and drop the other two. I rip the bottle of pills open and quickly swallow the rest of the pills in the bottle which is only about ten considering i swallowed most of them the other day. 

 

I pick the blade back and pull my sleeve to my jacket up; i pull the blade across my wrist re-opening all the cuts from a few days ago. All the cuts i add now are much deeper than I've done in a while and it feels so good. I glare down at the blood that seems to be oozing out of my arm. There's so much blood, its everywhere, and i like that. I add more and more cuts covering my entire forearm with them. A lot of them deep some of them not so much but that doesn't stop the blood. The sight pleases me so much and i smile at the sight of the crimson red that drips out of my arm. 

 

I accidentally drop the blade on the floor so i reach down to grab it and as i do so i feel my hands begin to shake a lot. I stand up feeling my legs go weak and staring into the mirror. I lift the blade to my neck so i can pull it across my throat causing death in a matter of seconds but before i can i feel my eyes close and my body hit the floor just before everything goes black and i can't feel anything anymore.