You stab yourself at your wrist and the blood started to flow out.

Every second that pass you feel weaker and weaker.

Then you just suddenly felt people shaking you.

You did wished that one of that people was Taemin.

Then people wearing white suits more like of a doctor appeared.

You can feel that all people around were panicking but you dont want to fight anymore.

You just wanted to die.

You dont want to reach tomorrow, which was the day of the wedding of Taemin and Sulli.

You never thought things would be this complicated.

What you have dreamt was a total opposite the reality right now.

You thought and wished to be the girl walking in the altar with Taemin waiting for you with a wide sweet smile until the priest say "you may kiss the bride".

The next day..

You fell asleep, but after you got your senses back.

You open your eyes slowly and weakly.

And you look around your room and saw Cheimy, Minho, Appa, Key, Onew, Jjong.

You were expecting Taemin.

And then you remembered it was the day of his wedding.

You started crying.

And everyone knows why.

Minho hugged you tightly as you brother.

"Maecy-ah! dont cry... We know it hurts.. But you still need to fight! arasso?"

You're whispering to yourself that you cant.

You looked up to all of them.

"W-why are you all here? you should be in the wedding right?"

"We wouldnt go there!!"

"You should be there! it would be the most special day for your maknae!"

you said trying to be strong.

But deep inside you,  you are breaking.

They didnt answer back at you they knew what you're undergoing on, so they dont want to argue anymore.

You gave up hiding your feeling and started to cry even more.

"Give me a hard liqour!"

"Maecy you shou-"

I cutted them.

"I said give me a beer, or else I would jump in the rooftop!"

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