Krystal's POV

 Almost a week have passed since my sister have visited us and it seems like there's something that is bothering Amber..he's been spacing out a lot..but everytime I ask him what's wrong he just smiles at me and hugs me tight..I even started to blame Donghae oppa that maybe he said something that offended him but he said he's ok and he's like that because he's just excited for his first check-up with his doctor..so I just did'nt asked him about it anymore.. but I don't know I just can't figure it out..sometimes he's too shallow with his expressions that I can easily read what's in his mind but now he seems too deep..too deep that I can't figure out what's running inside his mind..

My work schedules are getting hectic again despite of all the negative news spreading about me but I make sure that I get to spend much time with Amber..I hate it the the most whenever I do an interview or presscon or guestings related to my upcoming movie with Minhyuk..I'm thinking if I should tell Amber about it or not..I just don't like it whenever I'd have to act sweet with him infront of the camera..that I'd have to take my ring off to satisfy the fans that are rooting for us.. when I want to show the world who really owns my heart but I just can't because I have no control on my job..I have already asked him for forgiveness of what have happened between us but he just kept silent whenever I try..he does'nt talk to me when there's no camera rolling around us as if he does'nt know me..but I understand if he hates me for now.. I know I've hurt him too but I am hoping that one day he'll come to realize that it'll be more unfair for him if I did'nt cut the wedding off..

I called Amber to let him know I'll be home a bit late today..when I came home I found him already sleeping soundly on our bed..After changing into my comfy clothes I sneaked in beside him under the covers..

"hey baby I'm home" I whispered as I kissed him..

"hmmm" he just hummed in response and snuggled closer to me and wrapped his arms around me..I played with his hair as I tried to doze off to sleep but I just can't so after a few minutes of staring blankly at the ceiling i decided to check on my sns accounts..

I haven't checked my accounts ever since I got back with Amber and God!..netizens kills me..I really did'nt expect having this kind of fame would cause me this much trouble..I browsed different sites that had news related to me and saw different comments and opinions from people..some understood and even encouraged and supported my relationship with Amber but some started to hate me for leaving Minhyuk and the worst is their putting Amber into it..calling him names and some even cursing at him..I felt a tear escaped out of my eye..why can't they just accept us..why can't they just leave us alone..we are humans too and we have our own decision making capacity..why can't they just accept me being happy with they guy I really love..there's a lot of bashers..many harsh comments not only for me but also for Amber and it really hurts me..I don't mind them to hate me but I can't accept it when they get Amber in their harsh comments..*sigh* I'd rather be out of stardom than to loose him..I looked to the man beside me..he does'nt have to be treated this way..if they do love me..why can't they love the one I love too..

"baby I'm sorry..sorry for getting you into this..I just don't want to loose you again..please bear with me a little longer I'll get us out of this when our project's over" I softly said and closed my eyes falling to sleep..

I woke up a bit late today..I felt my head in pain as I did'nt have enough sleep last night..I have no taping schedule but my manager asks me to see him this afternoon..I spread out my arms still my eyes closed as I felt the sunlight on my face..I searched for the man beside me but there's no Amber..I thought he just went to the bathroom so I called out for him..

"Amber??"

"--------" no one answered..I suddenly felt nervous..what if he ran away again..