Krystal

It was perfect. My life is perfect and I couldn't wish anything for more. I have a stable job -- I have a loving family -- I have Trish and lastly my dream to get married with the person I love the most is happening soon. Making a family with Amber was one of my dreams and now it is happening already. My life is already complete because of my daughter and Amber. This is enough. I couldn't wish for more..

But why do I feel that there is something wring? Not with me, I know that, but.. with my Amber. I felt that there was something wrong with her..

I really hope that I was just overreacting but I felt that she was being distant these past few days. She's always out and she barely spends her time with us.

I was once a celebrity before and I knew what she's experiencing right now, and she would always find time just to be with us but I could feel that it is already different right now. She would always say that she's busy or exhausted.. but, right now.. I am starting to wonder..

And it is starting to freak me out already. She never rejected me when I would first initiate things but the other night, when she told me that she wasn't in the mood, of course I was sad. I just missed her so much and I was craving for her touches that was why I couldn't help but to feel hurt when she rejected me..

I didn't know what is happening to her, but I have to find out. I won't let anyone to ruin my family..

My thoughts were snapped off when I felt a pair of arms were encircled around my waist, hugging me from behind. I stopped rinsing my face, looking up to the mirror and saw Amber placing a kiss on my neck which never failed to send electricity through my nerves.

Every time we would have an argument and every time she was the who'd approach me, instantly, I would always give in. I didn't know. I think, I just love her so much that's why, I couldn't get mad at her for too long.

"Sorry, Soojung." I heard her say in my neck, and like what I've said, my heart instantly melted, but I didn't say anything yet.

She must've noticed my disappointment earlier, while we were at the mall. It just that, when she came at the mall, she was always quiet, which was pretty unusual. It was like, she wasn't with us that moment. I always saw her zoning-out which made me really worried. I was disappointed because instead of telling me the truth, she said that she was just okay which I found it hard to believe.

It hurts me because we're getting married soon. She would be my soon-to be-wife, but why do I feel that she doesn't trust me anymore. These past few days, I felt that she was putting a.. barrier between us. I couldn't reach her anymore..

It was like, she was hiding something from me and I didn't know what it is.

"Soojung, babe." She said, sighing as she finally turned me around. I wasn't looking in her eyes but on her collar bone instead. "I'm sorry if.. Sigh.. I know that, you feel down.. It is because of me.. I'm really sorry, babe.."

"Why?" After a few minutes of being in silent, I decided to speak now.

"What makes you think that? Why do you think that I'm feeling down?"

First of all, I didn't want to play dumb but I wanted to hear from her lips what she did. I would always give in so easily when it comes to her, but right now, not anymore.

I thought, I saw something in her eyes, but I think I was just imagining things, so I shrugged it away. "Okay.. I.." She took a deep breath before she speak, "Mom got into an accident and she's staying in the hospital right now."

Wait, what? "Huh? Oh my god! What happened to mom?!"

I didn't expect that this would happen to her mom. I mean, Mrs. Liu is so nice and sweet to me, that was why I couldn't help but  to get worried when she told me that her mom got into an accident.

"Relax, baby. She's.. Okay now and it was just a minor accident." She said as she gave my arms a gentle squeeze. I sighed in relief, hearing that it was just a minor accident and her mom is already okay.

And I started to wonder if maybe that was the reason why she was acting so strange lately. Guilt shot me in an instant. How dare I am to think that my fiancee was hiding something from me. I'm such a stupid lover..

I cupped both of her cheeks, giving it a gentle rub as I gave her a soft smile. "I'm sorry baby.. I should've notice it. I'm such a stupid future wife for not asking you. Is that the reason why you kept on zoning out lately? Because you are worried of your mom?"

I think, after that, I felt her tensed but I guess it was just me. Anyways, she gave me a kiss on my forehead then trapping me into her arms for a tight hug which I also did back.

Ah.. Feeling her in my arms felt so great. It feels so great, that I wouldn't want to let her go if I have a chance. I really missed her so much. "... Yeah, baby.. I was worried of.. I was worried of my mom.. And.. If you will let me.. could I visit her?.. I just want to check her by myself.."

I guess, I couldn't stop her. Its her mom, and she has the right to see her mom and I wasn't in the right place to not let her, right? I mean, if I were in her shoes and my parents were living across the country, I would immediately book a flight just to get there.

I leaned back so I could see her face. She has this hopeful look in her eyes that I found it cute rather. I smiled as I gave her a long kiss on the lips. "Sure baby. You have to go there. It's your mom, so you should go."

And after that, she released a long sigh of relief. She must've been thought that I wouldn't let her got to LA. I mean, it is just a few days, right? "By the way, how long are you gonna stay there?" I asked.

She opened to speak, but nothing came out. I guess that she was hesitating and I wondered why. "Uhm.. maybe for.. a month?" She said and there was a tinge of uncertainty in her voice.

Oh. I.. actually didn't expect that. I mean.. I just thought that she'll stay there for 2-3 days, but for a month? I was surprised. Then, I realized she wont be here with us for that period of time. It will be pretty lonely. I am not used to it. I frown.

"H-hey.. Uh, baby.. I just need to make sure that she will be okay there. I wanted to take care of her, even just for a month. It will be pretty short."

Even though that she was saying it carefully yet gently to me, so that I could understand, I couldn't help but to feel.. down.

Amber leaving us for a month.. I just couldn't imagine it. It makes me very sad..

"Hey baby.." She trailed off as she reached out to grab my hands then placing it onto her chest. "It will be very fast. You wouldn't notice it. I assure you. We're still going to communicate with each other. Hm?" She stated, giving me a kiss on the temple.

One month. My god that is too long. I just couldn't say, that -- no. A month is too long. I cant. That would be selfish. I mean, the reason why she's going there, because of her mom who got into a accident. She wants to take care of her mom. But, one month.. isn't it already too long?

"But.." I paused, biting my lower lip. "... One month? Don't you think.. Sigh.. Don't you think its already too long?"

"I.. I.. know, Soojung. But.. I want to take care of mom.. just days is not enough.. I need weeks.. so, I.. I think a month is okay. P-please, Soojung?"

How could I resist that handsome face? She still knows how to flick my weak spot. But.. one month? Trish and I will be definitely lonely without her.. Sigh. This is hard.

Should I let her? But.. okay you can now call me selfish, but I don't want her to leave..

But if I let her go.. Am I going to regret it?

 

 

 

 

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A/N: school is starting on monday guys.. and i think i will put this on hiatus for awhile but if i have come up with an idea i will update this story immediately.. I will not abandon this i swear.. So i hope 

understand.. Mianhe.

 

 

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By the way guys, can i ask you something? uhm.. I think i need a co-author this time..  if someone is interested please pm me. Thank u!! :)