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Chanhee's POV

it has been almost three day since i left. Byunghun surly gone crazy now . I'm so sorry. The baby seem like mad at me too. I keep throwing up alot these day. I also cry alot too. Minsoo Hyung and Niel brought me here right after we went off the plane. If i come here with byunghun i surly wanna go visit everywhere with each other . But for now i dont want anything . All i wanna stay inside the room and let's myself dip into guilty ocean. I miss Byunghun i wanna come back already. Tell him i'm sorry i just jorking but i cant. While i'm still crying i wanna throw up again. Baby ya~ i know u are mad at me now but please at least stay healthy untill u come out . Omma love u .......

Niel's POV
since the day he come here he didnt say anything or go anywhere . Just lock himself up at his room. He said we can go back to the city now, he is fine alone but we cant bring oursleves to do that; so we decided to stay here untill he feel better. He cried alot but never skipped any meal. He always went out of his room when the time for eating . Seeing him like that i dont know what to do. Why he had to do this? Why he need to go through this pain? Ofc he never cried infront of us . He always smile and said he is fine when we ask. But it's always a sad smile. He is so weak now . He even weaker than the time he is at home . The baby bring to him alot of tiredness. He keep throwing up when he eat something but he always try to eat again after throw up. He tried really hard to make his child healthy. I cant image if Minsoo Hyung is not here with me what will happend ?

Chanhee's POV
today is Byunghun's birthday. That's mean i already left for more than one month now. He may find out my letter. He will forget abt me soon . Then he will have a great life . He will get married again, have a lovely wife and great children. We planned to give our child a name Baek Hee for a boy and Kyung Mi for a girl. I'll do it like we were planning . . 5days more i'll be in 3th months of pregnant. I'll go to the hospital for check up. I hope my baby is healthy to come out . After rasing him i'll give him back to Byunghun. Today is his bday . I wanna celebrate it with him. This is out first time to celebrate it since we got married . But i couldnt make it like i said. I gave him a braclet like a goodbye gift and my perfume as his birthday gift. Actually i shouldnt do that but i cant stop myself from doing that. I bring our ring with me too . I couldnt take it off. I'm crying again. I know if i keep crying and sleep less like this . It'll bring bad affect for my baby but even i tried to control it . I still cant hold it back. Minsoo Hyunng and Niel already stayed here with me for a long time now .they need time together so i need to stay strong and learn French well so i can take care of my baby

Minsoo's POV
It's half a year already since we moved here . At first Niel's parents didnt let 's him get married this early so i need to tried my best to convince them. Foturnatly our parents know each other and i also need to promise that we wont have children untill he finish high school . That's our problem but i can solve it and at least we still can stay with each other. Chanhee's condition is really the big problem here. He is now in last month of pregnancy so it's really hard for him to move or doing thing. His body doesnt built for carring a child . He is surly have a hard time now. And one more thing he keep crying everynight. We can tell that just by looking at his eyes in the morning. He went throught his morning  sickness alone . Sometime he even throwing up at night. I went out of my room to drink water and found out he was in the bathroom and keep throwing up. He was so tired at the time when he was in his 3th months of pregnant. He want us to go back to the city he can take care of himself but we refuse to go. We will stay here at least untill the baby come out safely .We already knew it'll be a boy and his name will be Baek Hee, Lee Baek Hee. Now everything seem fine . Baek Hee doesnt make Chanhee throw up every mornig anymore but his back hurt and he feel tired. Niel is really worried abt his condition since the doctor said he is too weak for carring the baby. But he refuse to stay at the hospital. He said he can carring his own child without any help. He dont want his child is being affect by any medicine at the hospital.
"MINSOO HYUNG , MINSOO HYUNG, COME HERE QUICKLY" Niel scream my name . I rushed there and saw Chanhee is now collapse and there is blood on the floor
"What's going on here? Why he is like this?"
"Just go to the hospital first i'll tell u later"

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"WhAt's wrong doctor ???how is he now? "
"We need to take the baby out even it's nor the time yet. Or else both of them can survise. Who is his husband? I need he sign something"
"We are his family . His ....husband is on a bussiness.... trip... now"
"It's ok" with that the doctor went away

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"Tell me what happened"
"We were preparing.... the breakfast and suddenly .....he faint . I dont know.... what to do ? Maybe he ......didnt sleep last night again.... . ....Everything will be fine right?? They will ......be fine right? " niel said while crying . I hugged hik tight in my arms then pat his back
"Everything will be fine . Dont cry. He will be fine"

Chanhee's POV
I spent all night just for crying again.The baby wi;; come out soon .  hope everything will be fine. if Byunghun can be here with me everything will be easier but i'm the one who run away from him so i have no right to dream abt that . i have no right..... After all i cant sleep so i decided to wake up and preapre breakfast with Niel. When i walk down staires Niel already there prepare breakfast
"Hey~ why so early Hyung? Can sleep again?"
"The baby wake me up again with throwing up thing like always. Why u are do early?"
"Minsoo Hyung need to go back to the city today for a meeting so i need to go with him. U'll be ok alone right Hyung? "
"Yeah~ i'll be ....." Suddenly everything went black around me
 

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When i wake up i already in the hospital with my belly is now really hurt and i can feel that i already lost something. I touch my belly and found out my baby was gone. I open my eyes then saw Minsoo Hyung and Niel
"U already awaked ? How are u Hyung? " i immediatly hold Niel's hand tight and scream at his face
"WHERE IS MY BABY ?? WHY I'M HERE ? WHERE IS MY BABY? TELL ME !!!!" Tears are now falling all over my face
"HE IS MY ONE AND ONLY THING IN THIS WORLD . WHERE IS HE ? I DOESNT HAVE ANYTHING LEFT " i cry then cry and then scream like crazy . I also kêp shaking Niel . He couldnt say anything just cry . What's that mean??
"Calm down Lee Chanhee !!!" Minsoo Hyung took my hands off Niel then bring me to face him
"Calm down and listen to me . Ur son is now in the nursery room . But he came out a little early so he need to have special treatment. That's all . Nothing happened so calm down" that's mean my baby is alive . That's mean i'm Omma now.
"Really??"
"Ofc ~ i never lie to u"
"Take me there . I wanna see him " i said hold his hands tight
"U need to rest and he also need to rest too . The doctor will bring he here untill u and him are in good condition . So for now just sleep abit more. U did a great job"
"Thank you both of u for took care of us . And Niel ya~ sorry i was too much "
"It's ok Hyung . No need to sorry. We are family right? " Niel said with a smile one his face and my eyes are full with joyful tears

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Three days later
I'm ok now but the doctor still havent let's me see my baby so i begged Niel to take me there and see him. He is so small and now sleeping in incubator. My baby ~ u are a strongest child in this world so please stay with Omma ok ? I'm sorry for let's u went throught all of this without ur Appa . Everything will be ok right?? You and me will live together untill the time come . I'll give u back to ur Appa and dissapeard . I keep crying and crying while looking at his face . He has Byunghun 's nose and so do lips. I wonder if he also has Byunghun's eyes. Coz i cried alot Niel decided to take me back to my room . I keep crying untill fall into sleep.....


Niel's POV
Two years already passed . I'm now pregnant our lovely first child . Coz of that i know more abt Channie Hyung 's feeling when he was carring Baek Hee before . If Minsoo Hyung is not here i dont think i can bear with all those morning sickness and the uncomfortable feeling while carrying a baby. Minsoo Hyung and i got married one year ago after i graduated from high school . Then we move to city so Minsoo Hyung can easy to go to work. and Channie Hyung also have the stable life with Baek Hee now so we think it's ok to move to the city.After get married, Minsoo Hyung didnt let me study more he said study not suite me . All i need to do is stay at home and do what i like . After one month staying at home and doing nothing i decided to go to Channie Hyung 's house to stay with him . He got pregnant before so he can help me alot and i wont feel bored anymore. We always go there on the weekend so we are really close. Baek Hee is 15 months old now . He already could walked slowly and start talking . He is so cute and already so sweet . He is a mini Byunghun Hyung . They really look alike . How can Channie Hyung can live with this mini Byunghun Hyung all the time without missing him? It's really hard .
"Hyung ~ when will u go back to Korea ? U cant run away forever "
"I dont know . I started being selfish now . I dont wanna give Baek Hee back . I dont want"

"Why Hyung ?? u no need to give him back . all u need to do is go back .Byunghun Hyung is waiting for u all the time" he just keep silence and tears are now start falling out of his eyes.

"Ok ~ i wont ask anymore it's up to u "
"Thank you "
In my point of view he still need to go back

Chanhee's POV

When Niel asked me a the come back thing . i just dont wanna talk abt that . after all i 'm the one who is wrong . at that time i dont need to run a away like that . All i need to do is tell everythign with Byunghun so he can help me . i'm so stupid . Now i think i acan come back since i heard on the news that Shin Taeha already died coz of drugs . So there is nothing can hold me back now. But i cant forgive myself . i know Byunghun will deffinitly forgive me but i cant so i decided to stay here . just stay here . i'm sorry Baek Hee ya ~~~~

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Today is parent's day at Baek Hee school . He is now is first year at nursery school . And he already can talk
"Omma , u'll come alone? " he pull my coat
"Yeah~ ofc i will go there alone coz Minsoo Oppa is now busy with work and Niel Omma need to take care of Minna. What's wrong?"
"But...but teacher said omma and Appa need to come together " my boy is now almost cry
"I'm sorry i'll talk with teacher later ok? So come~  we need to go now"
After come back from school Baek Hee who is just 3years old start sulking amd keep crying . He even doesnt let me touch him and just asking for his Appa. Omma is sorry u . I can let u meet ur Appa now i cant . That night i was crying alot beside my baby who already stop sulking and now hugging me tight while sobbing even in his dream. I'm sorry baby i'm the worst.........

END CHAPTER 30 

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