동산 위에 올라서서 파란하늘 바라보며

천사얼굴 선녀얼굴 마음 속에 그려봅니다

하늘 끝까지 올라 실바람을 끌어안고

날개 달린 천사들과 속삭이고 싶어라

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Prolouge

Myungsoo’s Lullaby

92년 3월 14일: the Kim’s house

“Myungsoo.”

The little baby stared up at his mother with wide dark eyes, waving his little chubby fist.

“Ahh, Myungsoo.  You’re going to grow up to be a wonderful boy.  You always need to be strong okay?  Fly with wings, fly high into the sky.

“Be brave, my son.  The world may be a scary place at times, but don’t worry, I’m always going to be here for you.”

She picked her newborn son out of his crib and craddled him in her lap.

“The world can be a scary place, but it’s also a exciting place.  So always rest up to have a fun the next day.  Your Umma and Appa are here, we’ll be with you in the morning.  Get some rest so that you can play in the morning.”

Myungsoo gurggled happily and twisted in her arms, his baby face controting into a yawn.  His mother smiled and patted his stomach lovingly. 

“I’ll sing you a lullaby so sleep now, my darling.”

Myungsoo blew a bubble and snuggled against his mother, his new brain probably not knowing what his mother was talking about or how much her words meant, but he knew that his mother made him feel safe and that’s what he loved.

His mother smiled and started singing.

~*~

99년 8월 16일: Neighbourhood Park

“Myungsoo-hyung! Wait up!”

“You go with Umma!” Myungsoo yelled over his shoulder as he ran towards the park. 

“Myungsoo, wait for your brother.”

With a sigh, seven year old Myungsoo stopped and waited as Moonsoo stumbled up to his older brother.

“Moonsoo, let’s go, hurry, hurry.”  Myungsoo bounced impatiently.  “Come on let’s go to the park!”

As soon as the park was in sight, Myungsoo ran forwards to the swings, leaving Moonsoo behind.

He jumped onto the swing and started to push himself off the ground.

“Hyung!” Moonsoo whined as he caught up with his brother.  “Push me!”

“No!” Myungsoo yelled back as he swung past him.  “Just grow bigger and do it yourself!”

“But, hyung, Umma said that she won’t let us come back to the park unless you help me at the park,” Moonsoo reminded.

Myungsoo sighed and dragged his heels into the ground to stop his flight. “Get on then.”

Moonsoo smiled at Myungsoo as he got onto the swing.  Myungsoo gently pushed his brother off into the sky before climbing back onto his swing.

Flying… flying higher…

“Hyung!”

“No, not now, Moonsoo!” Myungsoo yelled.  “Not now!”

“Hyung!”

The chain to the swing suddenly jerked out of his grasp and he was falling through the air.

He screamed out in pain as pain shot up his arm.

“Hyung!”

Unintentionally, Moonsoo touched Myungsoo’s arm, sending another wave of pain through it.  Myungsoo automatically brought his arm closer to his body, jarring it.

“Umma!” he wailed.  “Umma!”

“Omo, omo, Myungsoo are you okay?”

Myungsoo shook his head and wailed as his mother hugged him.  

“It’s okay, Myungsoo, we’ll go to the hospital and you’re going to be fine.”

Myungsoo nodded even as he cried.  He didn’t cry because of the pain,  but he cried for the loss of his wings.

~*~

01년 6월 23일: the Kim’s house

“I don’t want to!”

Myungsoo danced away from his mother’s grasp.

“Umma!  Can we play for a bit longer?”

“Yeah!” Moonsoo jumped around with Myungsoo.

“Now boys, you need to go to bed so that you can play together again tomorrow,” their mother gently scolded as she brought them towards their bedrooms.  “Myungsoo, be a good older brother and put your brother to bed and go to your room, I’ll be there in a second.”

Myungsoo sighed and took his brother’s hand.  “Let’s go.”  He dropped Moonsoo off in his room and sat down on his bed.  His mother entered his room a little while later and found Myungsoo playing with a few toys in his room.

“Now, Myungsoo-yah, it’s time to go to sleep.”

Myungsoo pouted.  “But Umma…”

She picked him up and put him on his bed, tucking the blanket over him.  “It’s time for bed, Myungsoo-yah.  It’s time to sleep now.  Your family’s here, and we’ll play with you in the morning too.  Get some good rest to have fun in the morning.

“When you were a baby, I would always sing you a lullaby before you went to sleep.  Do you remember it?”

Myungsoo smiled and nodded, his eyes closing automatically as she started singing a lullaby.

~*~

13년 11월 7일: Hotel in Los Angeles, USA

Myungsoo read through the pile of fanletters that he had received at the airport that afternoon, carefully reading each one to understand the English.  He looked over at Sungyeol who was sleeping peacefully on the hotel bed, sleeping away the jet lag that Myungsoo was too geared up to sleep off.

His nerves were on edge, ready to perform their first One Great Step performance in the US.  Unfourtunely, because of the time difference, he was too awake to sleep for their performance.  He glanced at the clock and frowned as he tried to do math in his head. 

3am would mean that it would be… Myungsoo frowned, deciding that it was stupid for clocks to have an unround number of hours and the time difference between Los Angeles and Korea was too difficult to try to do the math. 

Giving up on the math, he quietly pulled out his phone and dialed the farmiliar number.

Not even after one ring, someone picked up. 

“Yeobesyo?”

Myungsoo smiled and nearly melted into a pile.  “Umma,” he said into the phone.  “It’s Myungsoo.”

“Myungsoo!  I thought that you should be sleeping right now.”

He shrugged, even though his mother couldn’t see his nonverbal actions. “I can’t sleep,” he explained.

“Myungsoo, you need to get some sleep for your performance tomorrow. I don’t think that you want to be seen with bags under your eyes and exhausted spirit.”

“The cordi nonnas can take care of the bags,” Myungsoo said with another shrug.  “It’s so hard to get to sleep though.  It’s our first time to perform here and what if I mess up and what if something bad happens?”

“Myungsoo, it’s going to be okay,” his mother said.  “Don’t worry.”

“I can’t help but worry,” Myungsoo said, fidgeting with his hands.  “I can’t stop worrying, Umma.”

“Shhhhh,” his mother hushed.  “Myungsoo, just for  moment, lie down and close your eyes, okay?”

Myungsoo nodded, even though his mother couldn’t see him, as he did what she told him.

“Remember when you were younger, I would sing you a lullaby?”

Myungsoo laughed softly, pressing his face against the hotel sheets.  “Yeah… it’s been such a long time.”

“You always fall to sleep,” his mother said fondly.  “Put the phone down and set it to speaker.”

Myungsoo once again followed his mother’s instructions and settled down against the soft sheets. 

“It’s going to be okay, Myungsoo.  You’re going to do fine.  Good luck, give my love to the others.”

Myungsoo smiled, his eyes closed.  “Are you going somewhere, Umma?”

“No, I’m going to be right here, but go to sleep, Myungsoo.”

He reached out towards his mother, his hand resting on the mattress as if his mother could reach across the sea to him.

“Sleep well, Myungsoo.”

~*~

I stood upon a hill,

Stared up at the blue sky,

And drew a lovely person from my heart.

I want to fly up to the ends of heavens,

Hug the breeze on the air,

And whisper with the winged angels.

Hello! 

It's been like two months since i posted the foreword, sorry for being late. > - <"  I wanted my friend to read this first but she's been busy and still is but she told me that i could post it anyways without her reading it first. I'm probably not going to update the next chapter until she reads it though, the whole fic is written bc she supported me in manyways.  I'll post the next chapter next week, or some time this week, depending on how much homework my lovely teachers decide to give me, probably on Tuesday or at the latest Friday. 

*For those of you who don't understand korean (like me... i can sort of read japanese though...) the verse at the begining of the chapter and the two verses at the end of the chapter mean the same thing. It's the same lullaby called "The Story of the Heavens"  [하늘나라동화]. 

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