Self-Validation

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Almost two weeks have passed ever since my plan to catch the culprit was set in action. After I installed the camera and bought new clothes, I had to wait almost a week until I found out who was behind ruining my P.E. clothes. They wanted to ruin my new clothes just before P.E. I'd bought another set of gym clothes in preparation, though, and went to P.E. normally. 

 

One girl gave me an especially nasty sneer, while some others raised their brows at me, in surprise or annoyance I couldn't tell.

 

After P.E. I checked my phone and found out who it was.

 

No surprise there, really. Those who had reacted to my appearance at P.E. were the ones.

 

Some days ago I told my driver, Namjoon, their names and this morning he's given me a folder containing some facts about their past. I waited to open it until now. Now that I am alone on the rooftop with no prying eyes from my class. 

 

Feeling the weight of the folder as I turn it around again and again, I hesitate.

 

"What's the matter?" comes a voice from behind me.

 

I don't turn around, I'm not even startled by his voice. He  surprises me on the rooftop all the time, so much I believe that even before my return he must've come here regularly.

 

Once, as we almost walked into each other -- me going up and him descending the narrow stairs -- he looked as surprised as I felt to see me. I think that he, too, needs to retreat to the rooftop for a piece of tranquility in this chaotic school. 

 

"I was just wondering... If I do blackmail them, will it really help? I don't want to add fuel to the fire, but I don't want to just endure their bullying," I voice my doubts to him even before I can stop myself. Maybe it's the rooftop with its feeling of isolation from the rest of the school -- the rest of the world even -- but I don't mind speaking honestly here. Maybe, though, I've just accepted Luhan as my ally in this little war. 

 

At this thought I turn around and give him a determined smirk. "But it's nothing, really. Like I'll stop after coming so far." 

 

For a moment he seems taken aback, before his lips twitch in what seems like amusement and something else I can't quite pinpoint. 

 

Then, as if snapping out of it, he becomes serious. "It's good you're determined, but be careful, okay?"

 

Somehow, I feel weirdly touched by his worry. 

 

Clearing my throat, I say, "Of course." 

 

And so I decide to go through the folder with Luhan, and we discuss and plan how to confront the culprits as we sit side by side on the concrete floor. 

 

"You really are cunning, you know that?" Luhan says at some point, raising his brows at me, but not in a chastising manner. 

 

I shrug at him. "I only know how to balance my lies and truths."

 

"But you may be a little too provoking? That girl, the leader, might react very aggressively. She always struck me as a very negative person, and her background info only proves it. Too much pressure, too little love," he mumbles thoughtfully. 

 

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gogogirl26 #1
Chapter 24: i really like this story. Sometimes i wonder what happen with antagonist story. And im someone that hate if sometime main characters always got they want. I know they struggling and other, but being antagonist and being hated its really another story. And their story usually end up in saddening way. Thanks for making this story and showing that antagonist characters also human at all. I really hate Sehun when he offered about ending the relationship cz he found his gf. Like pls you really didnt care about Minyoung at all, i feel you Minyoung. Hope you gonna update this story again :)
Stay safe and stay healthy ^^
againagainagain #2
Chapter 24: Nooo... did not realize this is an ongoing fic. Just got caught up send knowing I have to edit it jarring. Lol


On another note there are two things in particular that I appreciate about this story. 1) The setup of the story seems to suggest that Miyoung and Luhan will end up together. Over at the very least have a deeper and more involved relationship than what typically transpires between teachers and students. I appreciate that you're taking your time to build the musical understanding between them, that they're both 18 point oldest, ie. "Legal", and that you haven't fallen into the trope of a student- teacher romance. Honestly, I hate that setup more than anything. While it's feasible that kids may have crush on older people, it's unrealistic and socially and morally irresponsible for teachers to be involved with students. And if the student is underaged it's even more irresponsible. It's not to be reciprocated. Instead this story presents a situation where the student and teacher are addressing bullying and developing mutual respect and encouraging each other.
2) that being said, this chapter is a turning point. Miyoung is remembering how to be confident and believe in herself again. I think that is this moment she may not be self-assured, but she's truly self-aware.Her and Luhan have resolved to do something about the bullying. But honestly Luhan came across as a bit of an enabler when he more or justified Miyoung's plan to retaliate. I actually think that Miyoung is right to a certain extent that blackmailing makes her no better than her bullies. If they go through with this then I hope that eventually both Miyoung and Luhan will have a moment of reckoning . We can be confident and self-validate ourselves without adopting the same behaviors that make others monsters. I hope our protagonist's cunningness can help her to fight back in a more subtle or indirect way that brings results. I hope she can maneuver in ways that are wise and effective rather than vindictive. That this be a story of blooming self-assurance, rebuilt trust (I believe this is where Luhan comes in) , and maturity. A coming of age story of sorts.


I guess we'll see!
XxOliviaxX
#3
Chapter 12: And the very moment the world of her and mine hits like Bang !
XxOliviaxX
#4
Chapter 8: Why I'm feeling sad ....
XxOliviaxX
#5
Chapter 1: Love it !
claire_bear_
#6
I hope you update this someday, don’t rush though if you don’t want to
sarahk143
#7
Chapter 24: oh my goodness i just found this story again and just realised it's been almost a year since i last touched it!!! still gives me such great vibes. x
VIPgurl97
#8
Chapter 24: I was looking for a story with antagonist-like protagonist and I found this. I love that Miyoung makes mistakes and learns from them. I hope you will update in the near future since I want to see Miyoung and Luhan become closer!
Cat_that_luvs_kpop #9
Chapter 24: Pls update. This story is extremely well written and even though I haven't read ara's pov yet I can tell it will be very good. I really like the way you write. Miyoung is very cunning which makes her a very interesting person. Happy late new year!