Disbelief

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The next morning, with the alarm of her cellphone Miyoung forced herself to stand up even after getting only a few hours of sleep. Surprisingly, she hadn’t slept as badly as she had thought she would. She twisted her lips a little, feeling guilty that she hadn’t thought about Sehun at all the seconds before she’d fallen asleep. Luhan had been on her mind and how she was going to thank him, and Miyoung could feel that her dream from last night was also somehow connected to that, even though she couldn’t remember it anymore.

Now, however, there was this unsettling feeling again, not knowing if Sehun was okay. So the girl quickly got changed and left her tent, looking around. Little did she feel the disappointment when she couldn’t spot Sehun standing somewhere, with his usual stoic expression, safe and sound, despite knowing that this scenario was relatively unrealistic.

Miyoung huffed. Well, since she was now awake at this early hour, she could use it to thank the intern. Heaving a soft sigh, she turned to the direction of the teachers’ tents. She blinked repeatedly, surprised by the sight of Luhan standing a few metres away from her, back-facing her, though. She immediately recognised his blonde, fluffy hair. Noticing that he was looking at the forest, she wondered, if he had even slept. Or had he been waiting for Sehun and Ara?

For Ara especially, she thought, twisting her lips. In an attempt to shake off that thought, she fastened her steps as she approached him. But shortly before she was standing directly behind him, her determination faded and she turned around again while she was walking, brows heavily furrowed.

She couldn’t just go there and be like “hey, sorry for being a brat and thanks”, could she? She had to prepare herself to thank him properly. But before thinking about thanking him, shouldn’t she make up her mind on how to greet him first?

Miyoung halted her steps and, in ridiculously deep concentration, thought about how to greet him. “Hello, Mr. Lu. … Good morning, Mr. Lu. Have you slept well? …” She shook her head. Wasn’t that too much already? Besides, wouldn’t it come across as too stiff to greet him with hello and a bow? He seemed to be more of a laid back adult most of the time, so something like “Yo, Lu” would even be okay. But that was something that pranksters or the clowns of the class would do, and not Lee Miyoung.

The girl found herself chuckling at herself after mumbling “Yo, Lu”, when all of a sudden a voice interrupted her chuckling,

“Who you’re yo-ing, huh?” A far too familiar voice asked, and Miyoung just wanted to shrivel up. Why did he have to appear just when she was saying that?! How much of an awkward and embarrassing situation was this?

Pressing her lips together and hoping for her bangs to kind of cover her red cheeks, Miyoung turned around slowly. Gosh, this was so embarrassing. He literally caught her practicing how to greet him!

“Oh, I wasn’t yo-ing anyone,” she answered, smiling awkwardly. “I-I was just mumbling ‘YOLO’ to myself. You know? That You only live once thingy? I’ve heard classmates say it …” The last part was actually true. She had heard the other students use it, and although she liked the meaning, she didn’t like how it was used it so many unfitting situations.

“Pff … Teenagers,” she heard Luhan laugh, and truthfully, she wanted to huff at him. Being called teenager in such a mocking voice felt so idiotically humiliating to her. Especially, when what he thought of her right now wasn’t even true. She wasn’t one of those who used YOLO in every possible situation!

“Anyway, what are you doing? It’s still so early, not even the teachers are up,” Luhan changed the topic, and Miyoung mentally thanked him for that.

“You’re a teacher, as well,” she blurted, but Luhan only shook his head. “Nah, more like, soon-to-be teacher.”

“I, er, wanted to … thank you again.” Miyoung’s voice became weirdly soft as she said that. “But properly,” she added.

“For yesterday. I mean, I was really disrespectful yesterday, so …” she trailed off, bowing. “I'm sorry for my bad attitude, and thank you for helping me with my injury and for not telling the other teachers and yeah …” She decided during the last second to leave out the part of cheering up because that felt too personal to her, all of a sudden.

She remained in the bowing position for a while before the sound of suppressed laughter made her look up again.

He looked nice while laughing, Miyoung unwillingly noticed. He

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gogogirl26 #1
Chapter 24: i really like this story. Sometimes i wonder what happen with antagonist story. And im someone that hate if sometime main characters always got they want. I know they struggling and other, but being antagonist and being hated its really another story. And their story usually end up in saddening way. Thanks for making this story and showing that antagonist characters also human at all. I really hate Sehun when he offered about ending the relationship cz he found his gf. Like pls you really didnt care about Minyoung at all, i feel you Minyoung. Hope you gonna update this story again :)
Stay safe and stay healthy ^^
againagainagain #2
Chapter 24: Nooo... did not realize this is an ongoing fic. Just got caught up send knowing I have to edit it jarring. Lol


On another note there are two things in particular that I appreciate about this story. 1) The setup of the story seems to suggest that Miyoung and Luhan will end up together. Over at the very least have a deeper and more involved relationship than what typically transpires between teachers and students. I appreciate that you're taking your time to build the musical understanding between them, that they're both 18 point oldest, ie. "Legal", and that you haven't fallen into the trope of a student- teacher romance. Honestly, I hate that setup more than anything. While it's feasible that kids may have crush on older people, it's unrealistic and socially and morally irresponsible for teachers to be involved with students. And if the student is underaged it's even more irresponsible. It's not to be reciprocated. Instead this story presents a situation where the student and teacher are addressing bullying and developing mutual respect and encouraging each other.
2) that being said, this chapter is a turning point. Miyoung is remembering how to be confident and believe in herself again. I think that is this moment she may not be self-assured, but she's truly self-aware.Her and Luhan have resolved to do something about the bullying. But honestly Luhan came across as a bit of an enabler when he more or justified Miyoung's plan to retaliate. I actually think that Miyoung is right to a certain extent that blackmailing makes her no better than her bullies. If they go through with this then I hope that eventually both Miyoung and Luhan will have a moment of reckoning . We can be confident and self-validate ourselves without adopting the same behaviors that make others monsters. I hope our protagonist's cunningness can help her to fight back in a more subtle or indirect way that brings results. I hope she can maneuver in ways that are wise and effective rather than vindictive. That this be a story of blooming self-assurance, rebuilt trust (I believe this is where Luhan comes in) , and maturity. A coming of age story of sorts.


I guess we'll see!
XxOliviaxX
#3
Chapter 12: And the very moment the world of her and mine hits like Bang !
XxOliviaxX
#4
Chapter 8: Why I'm feeling sad ....
XxOliviaxX
#5
Chapter 1: Love it !
claire_bear_
#6
I hope you update this someday, don’t rush though if you don’t want to
sarahk143
#7
Chapter 24: oh my goodness i just found this story again and just realised it's been almost a year since i last touched it!!! still gives me such great vibes. x
VIPgurl97
#8
Chapter 24: I was looking for a story with antagonist-like protagonist and I found this. I love that Miyoung makes mistakes and learns from them. I hope you will update in the near future since I want to see Miyoung and Luhan become closer!
Cat_that_luvs_kpop #9
Chapter 24: Pls update. This story is extremely well written and even though I haven't read ara's pov yet I can tell it will be very good. I really like the way you write. Miyoung is very cunning which makes her a very interesting person. Happy late new year!