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I look around the airport, feeling like I am in a daze. Ironically, here it seems like nothing has changed.  There still are so many people here,  all busy with themselves all uncaring of each other. It feels like a deja-vu of that day when I first saw Sehun, my then soon-to-be fiance. 

 

Only now, I am a completely different person.  

 

Back then I had nothing and I was  bored and tired with life and all the hypocrisy. Yet, in those months it was me who was the biggest hypocrite. 

 

Back then I had started with nothing and gained so much. A friend, a first love, some sort of ordinary high school life. 

 

Now I start with nothing again, but this time I don't want to gain all that again. I'm not bored anymore. I'm tired, still, but more than that I am wary. So much more than before. I have become more wary of the good sides this world has to offer. Attachment, friends, love. 

 

What is hypocrisy even when compared to losing all you worked so hard for? 

 

I have realized it is easier for me to deal with the world's evil rather than its kindness.

 

I don't need kindness when keeping it is so hard, and when losing it crushes you so much.

 

If I could, I would want to remain by myself, with my books. I have spent a lot of time with  those again when I stayed abroad, nuzzling with them in my bed and reading into the night. My health had become worse, so I had stayed in

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gogogirl26 #1
Chapter 24: i really like this story. Sometimes i wonder what happen with antagonist story. And im someone that hate if sometime main characters always got they want. I know they struggling and other, but being antagonist and being hated its really another story. And their story usually end up in saddening way. Thanks for making this story and showing that antagonist characters also human at all. I really hate Sehun when he offered about ending the relationship cz he found his gf. Like pls you really didnt care about Minyoung at all, i feel you Minyoung. Hope you gonna update this story again :)
Stay safe and stay healthy ^^
againagainagain #2
Chapter 24: Nooo... did not realize this is an ongoing fic. Just got caught up send knowing I have to edit it jarring. Lol


On another note there are two things in particular that I appreciate about this story. 1) The setup of the story seems to suggest that Miyoung and Luhan will end up together. Over at the very least have a deeper and more involved relationship than what typically transpires between teachers and students. I appreciate that you're taking your time to build the musical understanding between them, that they're both 18 point oldest, ie. "Legal", and that you haven't fallen into the trope of a student- teacher romance. Honestly, I hate that setup more than anything. While it's feasible that kids may have crush on older people, it's unrealistic and socially and morally irresponsible for teachers to be involved with students. And if the student is underaged it's even more irresponsible. It's not to be reciprocated. Instead this story presents a situation where the student and teacher are addressing bullying and developing mutual respect and encouraging each other.
2) that being said, this chapter is a turning point. Miyoung is remembering how to be confident and believe in herself again. I think that is this moment she may not be self-assured, but she's truly self-aware.Her and Luhan have resolved to do something about the bullying. But honestly Luhan came across as a bit of an enabler when he more or justified Miyoung's plan to retaliate. I actually think that Miyoung is right to a certain extent that blackmailing makes her no better than her bullies. If they go through with this then I hope that eventually both Miyoung and Luhan will have a moment of reckoning . We can be confident and self-validate ourselves without adopting the same behaviors that make others monsters. I hope our protagonist's cunningness can help her to fight back in a more subtle or indirect way that brings results. I hope she can maneuver in ways that are wise and effective rather than vindictive. That this be a story of blooming self-assurance, rebuilt trust (I believe this is where Luhan comes in) , and maturity. A coming of age story of sorts.


I guess we'll see!
XxOliviaxX #3
Chapter 12: And the very moment the world of her and mine hits like Bang !
XxOliviaxX #4
Chapter 8: Why I'm feeling sad ....
XxOliviaxX #5
Chapter 1: Love it !
claire_bear_ #6
I hope you update this someday, don’t rush though if you don’t want to
sarahk143 #7
Chapter 24: oh my goodness i just found this story again and just realised it's been almost a year since i last touched it!!! still gives me such great vibes. x
VIPgurl97 #8
Chapter 24: I was looking for a story with antagonist-like protagonist and I found this. I love that Miyoung makes mistakes and learns from them. I hope you will update in the near future since I want to see Miyoung and Luhan become closer!
Cat_that_luvs_kpop #9
Chapter 24: Pls update. This story is extremely well written and even though I haven't read ara's pov yet I can tell it will be very good. I really like the way you write. Miyoung is very cunning which makes her a very interesting person. Happy late new year!
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