A/N: I used the following song as an inspiration for this chapter. Please have a listen to it to get the feel of the chapter- Haven

"Oppa, I have something to say." You said, looking at Baekhyun

"What is it?" Baekhyun asked, looking up at you

"I....I'm going to go away for a while." You said, staring at him

"Why? Is something wrong?" Baekhyun asked, wide eyed

"I just need to go away." You said, your eyes blank

"Why? Where?" Baekhyun asked, reaching out for your hand

'I'm going to miss this.'

'His eyes'

'His lips'

'His smile'

'His voice'

"Huh? Just somewhere in the countryside. I want to get some fresh air." You explained, smiling softly

"Really? Want me to come with you?" Baekhyun asked, smiling

'Come with me, stay with me. Feel all the love I can give you, even if it's for just a tiny bit'

"No, I can go by myself." You said, tears in your eyes

"I'll miss you. Why won't you take me with you?" Baekhyun asked, pouting

"Because you need to stay, for me." You said, smiling softly

"For you? What do you mean?" Baekhyun asked, confused

"Nothing, just some random thoughts." You said, shaking your head

"How long will you stay? You start school soon." Baekhyun said, worried

"I don't know. I'll call you." You said, your eyes lost

"Okay, I'll wait for you." Baekhyun said, nodding his head

"Me too. I'll wait for you too." You said, blinking back tears

'His eyes'

'His eyes'

'His eyes'

'I know that look.'

You opened your eyes slowly, tears glistening as they fell. You sat up, looking around the hospital room. Baekhyun and Chanyeol were sitting on the couch, sleeping silently.

'His eyes'

'I know that look.'

'I know what they mean.'

'Please let this be a dream.'

Tears kept falling as you stared at Baekhyun, your eyes growing wide as you saw him adjust his position. You stared into your hands, your heart broken into unfixable pieces.

You stood up and walked towards the bathroom, staring into the mirror. Your face looked sunken in, almost dead. Your eyes were lost and blank, completely dull and hollow.

'His eyes.'

'Just like mine'

Just like mine'

"Why not me? Why not me?" You whispered, falling to the ground

You stared at the door, watching Baekhyun's head lean on Chanyeol's shoulder. Your heart, whatever pieces were left were gone. You looked back towards the mirror, standing up.

You closed the bathroom door, locking it. You turned towards the mirror, raising your hands. You watched as the mirror shattered, glass shards all over the sink. You picked one up and stared at it, memories flooding back.

'Blood'

'Pain'

'Tears'

'Baekhyun'

"Na Ri! What's going on!?" Baekhyun screamed, pounding on the door

"Na Ri! Open the door!" Chanyeol yelled, using his body to break the door

You looked back at the glass shard in your hand, closing your eyes as you placed it over your wrist. You flinched in pain when you made that cut. You fell to the floor, smiling softly as you waited for the end.

"Oppa, why couldn't it have been me? Why him?" You whispered, closing your eyes

"Na Ri, please wake up."

"Na Ri, wake up."

"Na Ri, why did you do that? Why did you hurt yourself?"

"Na Ri, you need to wake up."

'His voice. So lovely and sweet. I'm going to miss this.'

You slowly opened your eyes, blinking your eyes in surprise. You glanced to see Baekhyun looking at you, your hand in his. You sat up and pulled your hand away, the pain unbearable.

"Na Ri, look at me." Baekhyun said, tears falling

"Go away." You murmured, closing your eyes

"Why? Why aren't you telling me anything?" Baekhyun begged, holding onto your hand

"Go away, please." You whispered, tears falling

"Are you okay?" Chanyeol asked, looking at you

"Help me, please." You pleaded, sobbing

"How? Tell me how." Chanyeol asked, grabbing your hand

"It hurts so much. It hurts." You sobbed, breathing unevenly

"Where? Where does it hurt?" Baekhyun asked, wide eyed

"Here. It hurts so much. Take it out. Take it out." You begged, pointing at your chest

"Why? Why does it hurt?" Baekhyun pleaded, tears falling

"Let me go." You said, looking at Baekhyun

"What do you mean? Na Ri, tell me. What are you feeling?" Baekhyun asked, wiping away your tears

"Let go of me. Just once, help me let go." You whispered, your soul bleeding