Reluctant |riˈləktənt|

(adj) unwilling and hesitant; disinclined

“My mom has been asking”

“About?”

“Why keep having a sleepover at your place. She said we have a pretty nice house too” Sungyeol  chuckled.

“That’s not what we need.”

“ you.”

“We can do it later” Myungsoo smirked; it doesn’t last long until Sungyeol’s pillow finds its way to his face.

“I’m going to miss you.”

“It’s not that I’m leaving forever. And it’s not that far. It only took 4 hours.” He said. And Sungyeol knew it’s true. He’s going to graduate within 2 weeks. Then he’ll leave to Seoul afterwards. He got accepted in an Art Institution. Sungyeol had never been thinking about it until it hit him. Myungsoo was leaving.

“Hey, I’ll come visit every week. Don’t worry okay. I’ve told you I won’t leave you all alone. Or you can come and visit.”

“For what?” I asked.

“I’ll take you to places there. Seoul has a lot to offer for you.” He said. And Sungyeol smiled. It’s pointless. He knew it all along that it’s pointless.

“I’m not sure this thing we’ve been doing since 2 weeks ago will last any longer.”

“Excuse me? Are you high or something Yeol?” Myungsoo sat up and glared at Sungyeol.

“No, it’s just long distance just don’t work.”

“It’s not that long okay, we don’t have any time differences. It only took a freaking bus to get back here or to visit me.”

“How?”

“They have over night busses….” Myungsoo’s word got stuck. He knew it as well it won’t work for Sungyeol.

“I’m sorry.”

“Shut up. We’ll make it work.” Myungsoo kissed the latter. It wasn’t just an empty promise; he was willing to make it work.

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Sungyeol sat by the window with hick drapes all over it. His room was pitch black. He looked at his phone. This is the day.

You : I’m sorry.

Soo : It’s fine.

You : I’m sorry.

Soo : Shut up. I’ve told you it’s fine.

You : I’m supposed to be there.

Soo : You know you can not do that. Don’t do anything stupid.

You : I know. I’m sorry.

Soo : Stop it.

Soo : IT’S OKAY. I got to see you last night, so it’s okay.

You : We meet each other every night. There’s nothing special.

Soo : It kinda was.

Soo : kekeke. If you know what I mean.

You : It’s time for you to shut up Kim Myung Soo.

Soo : Yeollie is scaryyyy~

Soo : What are you doing?

Soo : You shouldn’t be doing anything at this time.

You : You’re going. And I can’t send you away. And you expect me to sleep?

Soo : No. It’s just suspicious.

You : Don’t worry. You know my house. They wont let me do anything stupid.

Soo : I know. My bus is moving now by the way.

Soo : And I’m sleepy as hell.

You : Go to sleep then.

Soo : I’m going to.

Soo : Hey,

Soo : You still remember our promise right?

You : What promise ? :s

Soo : you.

You : hahahaha. I do.

Soo : forever?

You : What?

Soo : DON’T PLAY STUPID WITH ME LEE SUNG YEOL

You : I don’t want to be your best friend.

Soo : LEE

Soo : ING

Soo : SUNG

Soo : YEOL

You : I want to be yours. Forever.

He typed. And deleted.

You : I remember. Shut up. Go to sleep. Text me when you get there.

Soo : I will. Don’t do anything stupid.

Soo : Don’t miss me. Kekeke.

Sungyeol smiled. He hugged his knees tight and cried his heart out. Blaming the world what had he done wrong, why did it had to be him.

Why?

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