Sica. If you’re reading this. I guess I didn’t make it. I wasn’t strong enough. I’m sorry.

The thought of it makes me hate myself so much. Leaving you with only my ice cold body… that couldn’t wipe away your tears… embraces you or love you. The thought of you being alone in this sea of people hurts me a lot. Knowing that I left you… the love of my life to suffer painfully from this loss… I hate myself for being so heartless. Please hate me too.

Thank you. For everything. Your love. Your time. Your smiles. Your touches. Your words. Your presence.

You light up my life. I would rather live a year with you than a lifetime without you.

I know you’re strong enough to endure this. Given the same situation but if our roles switched, I wouldn’t be strong enough to get through this.

Remember what you promised me Sica?

You’re going to live well. I know you can do it. You’ve always kept your promise.

Unlike me…

There are so much promises that I couldn’t keep.

I promised that I’ll be fine but I’m not.

I promised that we will visit Jejudo for the sunrise every 10 years together but I couldn’t.

I promised that I’ll love you forever but my forever is too short.

I know the list goes on…

I’m sorry I broke my promises.

I’m sorry I hurt you.

I’m sorry I left.

I’m sorry I couldn’t be there for you anymore…

While I’m no longer by your side, there will be a day where someone out there that can heal your wounded heart… Let that person stay and accompany you… I won’t blame you. I’ll be happy for you. Sincerely.

I’ll just be part of your memories now. Don’t be stagnant. Don’t be stubborn. This isn’t fair I know. Move on Sica. Please try your best to forget about me.

Please remember your family. They need you. Don’t let them feel the way I did to my family.

Take care and live well.

I love you Sica.