*** Last time when I'm update Chapter 32 there's some of my readers haunting me in my Twitter and threatening me. Now let see what comes to me after reading this chapter****       I open my eyes very slowly. I can feel my head throbbing. My body arching. I'm feeling tired and every parts of me feeling numb. Those bright lights hurting my eyes but I'm manage to open my eyes. I saw Felix sitting next to my bed. Right. That's not a dream. I'm leaving Chaerin and Pyongyang for real! This room, my room. It's a proof that I'm leaving her! I try to move but something has stopped every of my movement. I'm frowning when I finally realized I was tied. My both hands and legs was tied to my bed.   "Felix, what are these for?" My voice startled him. He looks at me with his tired eyes. He seems tired and sad. He trying to smile but it seems bitter.   "Honey.. Finally. You're awake." He said with a low voice.   "Why am I being tied?"   He getting up and approach me. "I guess you have the answer, don't you? You've been crying in your sleep. You've been talking and screaming in your sleep. You've been gone insane in your sleep."   "Did I?"   "Yes. You did. Everytime you awake from your sleep. I had to give you some sedative to make you calm and fall asleep."   "For how long?"   "1 week and 3 days. Since you've been here."   I sigh. So no wonder, I was tied and I feel numb all over my body. I'm dreaming about Chaerin. I meet her but then I was dragged by those strong hands away from her. Very far away. I'm screaming her name, I'm crying. Maybe that's the reason why I've gone insane while sleeping.   "What did I said?"   He exhale and look at the other side. "Chaerin. You keep screaming her name." His low voice sting. He's hurt when he saying her name. I can tell it just by looking at his face.   "Felix, can you please untie me?" He nodded and untied the blanket that binding me. Then he look at me, giving me his bitter smile before caressing my cheek.   "You look good. I guess you are fine now. And means I can go home. Don't forget to take your medicines. You're fever because of too much crying." He said and giving me a light kiss on my forehead. I try to move then we heard a bell ringing. He stop at the door. I look toward the bell sound. Someone hanging the bell at my window and tied it up with my hands using a blue yarn. Chaerin's bell! My heart screaming again.   "Oh. The bell. I found it in your hand when you fainted in the plane, the same day we leaving Pyongyang. You seems didn't wanting to let it go so I assume that was a very important bell. That's why I hang it there. Everytime when you start crying in your sleep I rang the bell only then you will stop crying." He explain.   "Felix, thanks." I said when I saw him leaving, he didn't answer instead he just walked away. I sigh. This is new to me cuz I never seen Felix acting like this. He seems lifeless. Maybe he's tired. I sigh again while looking around my room that I left almost 6 months ago. Nothing has changed but something is missing. My television. I untied the yarn and get up from the bed, looking for my phone,digging my bag on the desk but found nothing even my laptop.   "Dara..." Mom voice on the door startled me. She approaching me while smiling. "How do you feel my love?" She ask with her soft voice that making my heart suddenly feel the peace.   "I'm good Mom. I'm looking for my phone." I said and keep digging my luggage.   "Your Dad keep your phone. Let's stop talking about phone. Let just focus on your recovery." I frown.   "Mom, I'm not sick."   "Are you sure honey? Felix said you're having a fever." She place her backhand on my forehead. "See you're burning."   "Mom please. It's not that worse right? I'm not a little kid anymore." Mom smiling even more brighter. "Thanks God my baby girl finally growing up." She said making me smiling but my smile giving a pain to my chest. Even my own smile hurting my heart when Chaerin's smiling image suddenly appear on my sight.   "Mom, I'm hungry." I said while ducking my head. I can feel a warm on my eyes and it's getting wetter. I know anytime soon I'm going to burst into tears and I don't want Mom to see me crying.   "Alright honey. I'll cook something for you." She said and leave. I sit on the floor cluntching my chest. I finally cry and my sobbing getting louder and louder even I bite my lips.   "Chaerin....." I call her name. I close my eyes and all I could see is Chaerin face is everywhere. Her bell ringing when a slow wind blowing it. I can hear her voice calling me her precious. I can hear her voice saying love to me. I can hear her laughter. I saw her smiling. I cover my ears.   "Please Chaerin! Help me! I can't living this way. Take me with you. Please!!" I scream. Then I saw her crying face but she's still smiling and those smile hurts me because it's not a happy smile. She's in pain too.   "My precious, please stop crying.." I heard her voice whispering. I'm shooking my head,covering my ears still with my eyes close. "I won't stop crying!!!" I scream. "I can't live without you!! You should know it better!!" My scream getting louder.   "Dara.. Hey.. open your eyes..." I heard Dad voice but I keep shooking my head. I still can hear Chaerin voice in my head asking me to stop crying.   "Get me out of here if you don't want to see me cry!!!" I scream again. I heard something broken. Glasses.   "For God sake Dara open your eyes!!" Dad yelling at me and a slap on my cheek, not really strong but enough to make me open my eyes wide but still covering my ears with my hands. Chaerin's face gone as well as her voices and whispering. I look around and e