Hopeless

Into the arms of another {DISCONTINUED}

Ricky's POV

I called Changjo one last time on the way to school. This was the 30th call since last night and he still wasn't answering me. I still had no idea what was going on but i'd rather have Changjo talk to me than worry about what happened last night. I just wanted to know he was okay.

After he'd walked out I felt so embarressed that I threw money on the table and ran out of the restraunt. I tried to see if I could find him when I left but after running around for an hour I couldn't find him. I went to his house and his mother said he hadn't come home yet.

I was really worried and was terrified that he hated me. The last thing i'd ever want would be for Changjo to be mad at me. I loved him too much to want to let him go.

I was sure i'd see him at school today so I decided it'd be better to stop calling him. Hopefully I'd be able to get Chunji and Niel's help to get him talking to me again. They'd probably be just as worried as me once I told them about last night.

Chunji and Niel also knew something wasn't right with Changjo but they were too busy with their own problems to be able to help me get him back to his normal self. Besides, I was usually good at getting Changjo back to his normal self. Just a little bit of messing around with me would put Changjo in a good mood for the rest of the week.

The fact our 'date' didn't go too well either yesterday had really gotten me down. I was hoping that maybe today we would have been able to come to school holding hands as an official couple. But no, something ruined it. Right now I didn't really care, I just wanted Changjo back and I don't mean just here now, I wanted the old Changjo back too.

I walked into the school grounds and I never felt so lonely before. Knowing that Changjo was angry with me made me feel like i'd lost a part of myself. When he wasn't around I felt like I was not whole. I needed him. More than anything.

I met with Niel and Chunji in the school library while they studied. They had alot of projects to be doing so they had to come to school early to get them done. I immersed myself in a book about the english language while they studied, hoping they wouldn't bring up my bad attitude. I knew it was a matter of time before they realized something was wrong with me and that Changjo wasn't around.

I just wished there was something I could tell them, I didn't even know myself. That was one of the worst parts, I had no idea what I'd done wrong.

"I wish everyone would just leave me alone and stop butting in!"

What he meant by that I couldn't even start to understand. Was I really bothering him that much? I really didn't think so. Before I just dealt with his new attitude and it was only this last week that I started asking him about it. Now that I thought about it, he seemed to have gotten worse since L.Joe showed up. Was L.Joe the problem? was he causing some of Changjo's problems?

I really needed to talk to L.Joe. Hopefully he'd give me some clue as to what was wrong with Changjo and then i'd be able to help him and get the normal him back. I think L.Joe was the answer to this and the only person who'd be able to help me. Well... I hope he would be.

Zoneing back in, I heard Chunji and Niel talking about their school work. Since they were a year higher than me I didn't really need to listen but it wasn't until they started talking of the certain blonde that I began to listen to them.

"I wonder what kind of foods L.Joe likes, I don't want to buy anything for the sleepover that he won't enjoy"

"Maybe you should ask him instead of worrying about it"

"It wouldn't be a surprise then" Chunji always did the best sleepovers, mainly because he catered for every single one of us. It was the first time I'd heard about L.Joe attending the sleepover, which turned into a weekly things for all of us. I myself wasn't feeling too great about the idea. If something was going on between L.Joe and Changjo then maybe Changjo wouldn't wanna attend the sleepover and it'd no longer be a tradition, which I felt it was.

Things were starting to take a really bad turn and I didn't like it.

 

L.Joe's POV

I was really pissed at Changjo after yesterday, I'd probably end up punching him in the face if I saw him today. Thats how annoyed I was. I wasn't that kind of person but when someone was treating me like a life ruiner it really got on my nerves. It's normal for people to be curious. I think. It wasn't like I was trying to pry on purpose. 

Hopefully i'd be able to have alot of fun with Chunji, Niel and Ricky to make me feel better. I definitely didn't wanna be near Changjo today if I could help it. I was looking forward to getting to know Ricky more at lunch because he seemed like a nice person, we'd probably be able to be great friends. He asked too many questions but other than that he seemed pretty cool.

Maybe it'd be better if I just focused on my new friends instead of thinking of Changjo and CAP

"Hey new kid!"

There went my bad luck again as guess who just so happened to have walked over. The taller, arrogant senior who I really did not feel like seeing today.  He was the whole reason Changjo was mad at me.

I couldn't help but feel curious again, maybe i'd get a better idea of what was going on from CAP than I'd get from Changjo.

I looked at him and he was grinning, it looked almost real but knowing how horrible CAP seemed, I knew not to fall for it. He must have noticed that I didn't seem too happy, his grin sort of disappeared from his face.

"Is something wrong?" I wondered whether to just tell him the truth. "What's going on between you and Changjo?" I decided to just come out with it.

He looked at me confused for a second. "Changjo?"

"Yes Changjo, he seems to be around you alot" he just shrugged. "Changjo is a friend, I don't see why it should be a problem"

"For one, you're really rude towards him and two, why hasn't he told anyone you're his friend? even Chunji doesn't know"

He tensed up when I mentioned Chunji's name. I almost forgot he had a thing for the red head.

"Why would Changjo be friends with his friends ex best friend?"

"How did you-"

"Chunji mentioned it, he doesn't seem to have a problem with telling people that he doesn't like you" a frown appeared on CAP's face, I'd clearly struck a nerve. Right now I was feeling very brave, I don't know what it was. Maybe it was the adrenaline that I was getting from knowing that I was talking back to one of the most popular guys in school.

"If Changjo hasn't mentioned you to him then clearly he doesn't like you that much right?"

"I don't care if he doesn't like me"

"Then why are you friends with him?"

"You're over stepping your mark new boy" he came closer to me, making himself look even taller compared to myself. He was obvious trying to be threatening. Other students had started to gather near us to listen to the arguement. I wasn't exactly scared of CAP, I was just worried what would happen if CAP decided to turn the school against me, like Niel.

"It's a simple question CAP, now answer it"

He looked down at me, trying to come up with an answer. At least I knew he was gonna tell me something, I already knew now that CAP didn't really care if Changjo liked him or not.

"I use Changjo for things"

"What things?"

"I don't think its any of your business and i'd prefer you keep out" he shoved me backwards and I couldn't help but lose my footing and fall back onto my . The people who were around that had noticed our arguement had started laughing when I fell onto the floor. I stood up straight away hoping i'd come off as not being threatened.

CAP had already walked away leaving me to be laughed at by everyone else. He'd gotten me really annoyed, with just one shove he'd managed to embarress me.

I looked at the people and they were still watching me, I knew in their minds they were probably belittling me. I wasn't gonna turn out like Niel.

"Don't you all have somewhere better to be?!" they all look startled and went on with their business. I was determined not to become the kid who was easily picked on like back in America. It was one of the reasons I was back in Korea, to get a new start. This new start was not gonna be messed up by a big bully who thought he was better than everyone else.

I will find out what your problem is CAP.

 

Chunji's POV

"I tried calling Changjo a few times but he wasn't answering me"

"I did too... have you noticed how quiet Ricky was this morning?" I realized that Niel was right. We were so busy with our project and talking about our sleepover that I hadn't noticed Ricky's change in attitude. It was odd not seeing the usual bubbly boy.

He just sat reading his book the whole time. I almost forgot he was there with us. Maybe he and Changjo had an arguement. It must have been the reason for Changjo not being around. They didn't argue very much, the only times they did they'd always make up pretty soon afterward. Most of the time they argued about the silliest stuff. This was definitely strange.

I didn't have much time to think into it because I saw L.Joe walking towards us. I couldn't help but smile at the site of the small blonde. It seemed like the world got so much nicer once he came into the room. I then noticed he had a pretty annoyed look on his face. Why was he annoyed?

I would have waved him over but Niel beat me to it.

"Yah! L.Joe!" he shouted across the hallway and started waving his arms happily. I shouldn't have expected less, especially after what he asked me last night over the phone.

 

"Chunji, what do you think of L.Joe?" I could sense that Niel was being very odd over the phone, almost nervous like. "He seems like a great guy, why?"

"Well.. I was just thinking that he seemed like a great guy too... like really great"

"Niel what is it?" he quietened down a little before asking another question. "Do you think he's good looking?" L.Joe was good looking, one of the best looking guys i'd seen in a long time, but why was Niel asking me this? did he notice how good looking he was too? Did he think I liked him?

"He's okay, Niel what is this about? why all the sudden questions about L.Joe?" he went quiet again. I'm sure I could hear him biting his nails too. It was definitely weird for Niel to be like this.

"Hey Chunji?"

"Yeah?"

"Could you ask L.Joe if he'd like to go on a date with me?"

 

Chunji didn't really know the guy but he already wanted to date him. I really didn't think it'd be a good idea for Niel and L.Joe to date, well not yet anyway. Niel is very sensitive and if L.Joe said no, which he'd most likely say, he'd feel really bad and we'd probably not be able to hang around L.Joe anymore. I really didn't want that.

I told Niel to get to know L.Joe more before he'd ask him out, for one Niel didn't even know if L.Joe was gay. Also I wasn't quite sure Niel actually wanted to date L.Joe for the right reasons. Niel found it very hard to make friends since joining this school, I was a little worried that he was mistaking the feeling of friendship with attraction. I didn't want Niel to get hurt.

L.Joe's annoyed look changed when he came over, he looked pretty happy to see us. "L.Joe I was wondering if maybe you and Chunji could swap seats so I'd be able to sit beside you" Niel grinned hopefully. I felt a little uneasy that I wouldn't be able to sit beside Niel anymore but if it gave L.Joe and Niel a better chance of getting to know each other then I guess I was happy.

L.Joe looked at me. He seemed to want my permission which was a little odd. I grinned and nodded to tell him I was fine with it, maybe he was worried that I wouldn't be able to sit with Niel.

I had to be honest... I wasn't as bothered about not sitting beside Niel.

I was more concerned about the fact I was starting to feel jealous. Why? I didn't know.

 

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I would have written more but i've been really tired today.

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I don't think the quality of this chapter is that good but I promise to make the next chapter better

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chunjiholic #1
Chapter 26: Get well soon. Rooting for u no matter what. It's a shame to see you give you but if you think it's the best then okay. Take care :)
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#2
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#3
Chapter 26: OMGGG wow it's okay I understand! I will miss this! I can recommend someone who can and will be willing to take over! This person is a huge fan of this story and keeps telling me thingsXD the name is Yume-nii! Talk with this person. Sure Yume-nii will say yes!
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Chapter 26: I read this story 4 the first time n i really love it!!! but it make me sad you discontinued this story but it's okay... i hope some one will continue it !_! wish you feel better soon!!!
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#5
Chapter 26: I hope someone will take over the story and continue it... I would if I could actually write :/ Anyway, thanks for writing this much of it already :) I hope you start to feel better soon. Hwaiting!
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#6
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Chapter 26: I'm really sad about this ;_; But it's no use to keep us waiting if you know you won't be able to update. This has been a good fic and, if someone wants to take it over, I hope they will be as good as you !
Get some rest and I hope that you'll get better very soon :) Fighting !
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Chapter 23: omg i like your story;; update soon plsss
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Chapter 25: Will be patiently waiting...fighting!!!