• let go
•  
• Three month later

Suddenly everything was ordinary, little bit hard, little bit hurtful, but easier than it was expected.

To Siwon, he still has that feeling in his heart, that he couldn't explain, why did he miss hankyung so much all the time lately.

Why he found it really entrusting that he remembers the way his lips move

He found very annoying the fact that he knew the color of his eye, or the way his face looked when he's sleepy, or how many time his heart beat when hankyung called up his name.

Or The fact that time is stopping and thing have a way of moving extra slow drove him to the edge

All he does is, pretend  that the feeling is not really there

yunho and jae were another story to him, it still bother him every time he's with jae the conversations automatically becomes a bout yunho, he only knew couple of things if yunho hurt jae he will kill him, as for his feeling he decided to put it aside for a little a while to pretending that  it doesn't really hurt ,, all he kept telling himself is.

As long as Jae happy am happy.

Jae pov:

I woke up thinking it goanna be a lovely day I feel happy , I Am happy , `smile` really happy it not that often that am happy, but ever since I been with yunho , am happy .

Still were not really together, together, it more like were enjoying the time without labeling it so it fain for now

I got the family I always wanted, am loved, am in love and am late for work, I almost feel out of bed, I run to moon bin room

"Moon bi-ah were la…, hyung"

"hi there, good morning Jae joong"

"morning, siwon hyung"

"`Smile` breakfast" showing the muffin basket in his hand

"Sure, but am late for work"

"Ummmmmma"

"Morning baby" kissing his cheek

"Hhh umma is funny"                                                                

"Hhh ya moon bin your umma is really funny"

"Ya why are you laughing at me"

"It Saturday" the bother yelled

---------- After breakfast----------------

Siwon pove:

I and Jae decided to go to the park to have a picnic, he made all the food that we liked and for awhile there it felt like old times

The park was full of people, and the weather was so wonderful, and for some reason my mind wondered off, and I remembered the first time that I met hankyung

I was crying, and he just held me 'smile'

I can hear all the children laughing, and Jae and moon bin plying around having fun and I couldn't help but to smile even more.

I thought Maybe we can be normal like we use to again, I really love theme and I wanted to protect them , I wanted us to be a family  but I realize that hard to make

As much as I wanted, they will never be mine.

====== top and lee jinki ========

Being with top is everything I have dreamed about since I know what love is, and I hoped to god that never changes.

I was staring at him as he slept he look so small, so adorable

'I love you ' I whispered to him softly

'I love you too'

'Sorry did I weak you'

'No, I missed you ' ''smile ''

'Hhh, how can you miss me, I didn’t go anywhere'

'I know, but still, missed you'

'You're crazy hhh'

'Yes, for you'

''Blush''

'You know am so lucky to have you'

'Oh really, how come ' '' his arms around me, staring in to my eyes''

' because , I see all the craziest in the world and people who are in this free fall and incapable of being happy , and am so lucky , so lucky that I found you , your sweet , and generous and caring and beautiful and .. Will there are no words for you

Your everything I ever wanted and more, I love you with all my heart and veins,''deep breath''

And...

'And what 'smile'

                                                                                            Marry me?

'What ' I sat down not really believing what I just heard

' marry me jinki , I can't find a better warmer person to spent the rest of my life with other than you , I'm completely  ,completely in love with you I even love thing about you that drive me crazy and I don’t want to west any time any more I don’t want too

All I ever want and need  is to be with you and only you , to be loved by you is magical , you're the reason am alive , you are my miracle jinki , you are my family my home , you are my heart beat , so please , will you please marry me? '

'Yes, ill marry you 'tearing'

Siwon pov:

I don’t know why but I found myself standing on hankyung doorsteps, I don’t really know why but I felt the need and the urge to talk to him

He always makes me feel better

I was about to nock when the door suddenly opened, and he was just there and all cloud do was nothing, he smiled at me and simply just said

'Hello''

''hi"

"'smile ' do you want to take a walk with me"

"Sure"

"Let go"

# sure i know it not really good but am trying 

always keep the faith