The warmth envelope my body feels so comfortable

As I opened my eyes, I saw his sleeping face

I release his waist and crawls higher so his face is now in front of mine closely

I can feel he’s being uneasy with my weight on his

So I put both of my hands besides his head as my body support

And continues to watch his face

It’s mysterious to me

How just by watching he asleep like this makes me feel peaceful

Am I in love with this stranger?

I don’t know

His appearance on my life was coincidentally too sudden

But when he pampered me

I want it again

And I want it more

I used to know love when I was younger

The impulsive feeling that turns my painting into bright colors

Until I decided to kept away that kind of feeling in a small chest and throws it to the deep abyss on my heart

My paintings then becomes a mix of bright and dark colors

Screaming of anguish, excitement, and many more

But never love

After seconds that turns to minutes

I finally stand up

I’ve decided

I want to move here

I think being here will keep my sanity checked

And I will do whatever it takes

Even if I have to beg

But first I need to give good impression

I’ve been pampered by him for two days

Hmmm…I think making breakfast for the first step will do

I walk to the kitchen

Checking his fridge and cabinet for food supplies and utensils

He’s really a clean and neat person

Everything is put orderly without a single stain

I need to be careful then

I make him one of my best dishes and also the most often I made

I rarely do varieties with cooking, as long as my stomach is full

Time passes by and finally the dish is ready

I can see sunlight beyond the curtain

I pushed the light button and then walks to the living room

To open the curtain

The room is now brighter

I see his sleeping form showered by the warm light

How his already fair skin becomes fairer

And his face looks so innocent, making me curious of how will he be if I tainted him

But for now on, I want him just be like this

Innocently blinding my mind

I sit beside him

Taking a few minutes to enjoy watching him

Until I finally shake his shoulder

“Baozi… Baozi…”

I called him by that nickname while continues shaking his shoulder

Finally I hear his groan and his eyes fluttering open

He’s still half awake

“Good morning Baozi”

I greet him with a smile, a smile that unconsciously formed on my lips when I see him

And then a series of event happened that morning

From he wakes up, we ate our breakfast, I told him I want to stay with him

Persistently until he finally gives in

He’s too nice

But I need that kindness

And then I wash the dishes while waiting he takes a bath

Until he finally walks out of the bedroom

Looking nice and ready to work

He told me he will be home at 7

And then he left

I look at the closed door and then take up my hand phone from my pocket,

Luckily it still function properly

He dries it when I asleep the day before, and put it on the table with my wallet and keys

Because my clothes need to be washed

25 texts

And suddenly my hand phone vibrates, the sender itself calls me

After a moment of hesitation I finally answer it

“Hey…”

“[WHERE ARE YOU MAN?! YOU’VE BEEN GONE FOR THREE DAYS!!]”

“That’s my business”

“[Tsk! Where are you? I’m gonna pick you up]”

“You don’t need to”

“[At least tell me where you are?! You know it’s hard for me to keep the client calm, they’re eagerly waits for your painting]”

“Then tell them to be patient, or they preferred to have half made ones?”

“[………you’re so selfish you know…]”

“I am, Sehun”

“[*sigh*…at least you’re still alive, just call me when I need to collect it]”

“Oh, right, can you search a new place at XZ district near