Finally I found him

Minseok

He looks at me with disbelieve

But I’m here

I know I’m not being fair

I know he needs time to think

But I can’t stand being away from him

At least not in the place I don’t know

“So you manage to find this place”

I turn my face to Sehun who smiles amusingly

Yeah

You left me with an address of where you are

And words

‘Dare to come?’

But it’s not because I felt challenged by those words that I came to this place

Because I…

“Why are you here?”

Minseok asked with a tone of displease

Is he mad?

I encourage myself to look straight to his eyes

“Because the apartment without you is not home…”

I said filled with honesty

Yes, I can’t stand being without you

It’s suffocating to be alone

It’s distressing to not know exactly where you are and when you’ll be back

I’m frantic

I’m obsessed

I need you so much

Sehun walk past me with a soft pat to my shoulder

And walks back inside

Closing the balcony door

“Luhan…”

You sighed and shakes your head

And I just stand there waiting

Like a little boy that waits for his punishment

“Drink, you need it”

He offered me his glass

So I walks closer to him and takes the glass

“Thank you”

I said and sips the drink that is coconut juice

It’s refreshing

And he just stands there and stares at me patiently

“I will be back in a few days you know”

He chuckles

“……But…It’s…lonely…”

I bite my bottom lip and gaze at him longingly

He shrugs and then turns his body, hand leaning on the balcony railing

I put the glass on nearest table

And then walks closer to him

Standing by his side

“I’m sorry…”

I said while holds the railing tightly

Afraid that he will be mad at me

“If I’m gone and never come back, what will you do?”

He asked, eyes staring the beach

“I will be gone as well…from this world”

It’s the answer from my heart

I can’t keep my sane mind without you

“You’re selfish”

He finally looks at me

“………………………………….. I am…”

I clutched at my own sleeves

I’m selfish to force you live with me

I’m selfish for keeping Wufan and Sehun by my side but didn’t repay their love

And I’m selfish to be here

“If I won’t be happy you will still hold me on your side?”

If I won’t be happy

If you won’t be happy

If you love Wufan

“……I…”

I don’t know what to reply

I’m afraid of losing him

But do I ever think about his feelings?

I look at him desperately

His face is blank

He didn’t show anything

But then he chuckles at my answer

Seeing his smile makes my heart feels glad

“Well, you’re already here, let’s just think of it as a vacation”

He pats my back and then grins widely

Usher me to walks back inside together with him

And I feel a bit guilty

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