The touch of his lips sends a tingling sensation

Spreading like wildfire to my whole body

Luhan is kissing me

A chaste kiss

A fast touching between our lips

Combined with his previous statement makes my heart pound hard

It’s like my whole mind says

‘Finally’

Finally, there’s someone who wants me

After my last heartbreak, I lost all confidence to love someone

Even I ended it before confessing

I was a coward

And now

There’s someone wanting me

And the feeling becomes so exhilarating that I want to feel his lips again

Luhan looks so frail right now

I know that feeling

And my hands reaching him

Pulling him forward to me

Crushing his body to mine

And the warmth becomes addicting

My lip touches his in a different manner

Touching becomes too little that I want to more

I pulled his jaw to open his soft lips

My eager tongue explore his sweet cavern, leaves no spot untouched

His taste is so addicting

I want more and more

And then how he whimpers makes my mind splits in two

Between wanting more and release him

But as his clutches on my clothes becomes stronger, I know I need to stop

Finally I released his lips

And both of catch our breath

And I catch my own mind

What’ve I done?

I kiss him back?

I want him?

Do I really like him?

“Mi..Minseok…”

He calls my name with those eyes

Eyes filled with fear

It’s like he’s making sure that I’m Minseok

I stare at those chocolate orbs that’s still have the trails of lust

Do I really want him just like he wants me?

Silence fills the place

There’s only the sound of our breathing

 Then my fingers reach him

Touching his bruised lips

Brushing it gently

“I’m sorry”

I said

I’m still confused with my own heart

 He blinks

 “I should be the one saying that…I…”

Said Luhan with eyes shows confusion

I’m sorry Luhan

Don’t look at me like that

Please…

I pulled my hand and then stands up

Suddenly he catches my hand

Holding me tightly

“Don’t…”

I pleaded

Please Luhan don’t…

“Why? If you don’t like me…just say it…”

His voice starting to crack

I sighed

Don’t be like this

 “I like you, Luhan, I do…but….”

 I stare at him

How those brown orbs my sanity

I curled my finger into a fist, trying to hold my mind

And then I sit back

Legs crossed

“…Can you give me more time to think?”

 I ask him

I need time

I need to hold my mind until I’m sure it’s not just lust

It’s not just because of dense feeling of not wanted to be alone anymore 

“So...you will consider?”

He asked with hope

“I am…but I can’t promise anything for now…Just…give me time to think about you…about us…”

I’m sorry Luhan

“I will wait…but I won’t stop”

He flashed a confident grin

What?

 “Stop what?”

I asked confusedly

“Stop showing how much I love you”

Luhaaaannn

Don’t be like this…

I cover my face with my palm

There’s a mix of worry and joy in my heart

And also uncontained lust

“Don’t…”

I beg him

“Why?”

Because if you touch me like that again, I’m worried that I can’t stop myself for having more

“Because maybe the next time won’t be just a kiss”

I’m being truthful

I know my own self

That’s why I need to stop him

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