Hangover
UnrestrainedTonight I drink
Hoping to drink all of my frustration away
But I know it's a futile attempt
I never thought it will be too late
After years I've been patient enough with his selfishness
Letting him do as he pleases
Frustrated enough with his self destructing acts
By not taking care of his own body
Letting him paint and live on his studio
And I taking care the client and the money
Making sure he lives wealthy enough
And the money I received were just bonuses
Hoping that one day he will see me
Care for me
Even love me
But now I find him moving in with another man
With that Minseok guy
Why?
Why Luhan?why?
Am I not enough for you?
I've been with you longer
I've done so much to you
I’ve give everything for you
But your bright smile is not for me
How you see him is so much different
Different to me
To everyone else
What've happened between you and him?
That suddenly you changes so much in front of him?
Am I just a colleague for you?
Only your business partner?
I hate you Luhan
I hate you so much for making me blind like this
For bruising my heart like this
For taking my time to be like this
I hate your smile that I’ve been craving so much
I hate your laugh that I’ve been wondering all along what it will be like
And I saw it in front of my eyes
That smile, that laugh, that eyes filled with warmth and passion
But that smile is not for me
That laugh is not because of me
And that eyes is for somebody else
For that Minseok
A short one with chubby cheek
Well not that chubby but enough to make him look a bit round on the face
Kind enough to invite me for dinner
But his crooked smile makes me annoyed
Annoyed at the fact that he’s the one who steals Luhan’s heart
The one who makes him smiles
The one that sees the other part of Luhan that I never thought exist
I even hope that this is just a dream
A nightmare
But it’s not
I look at my palm with an imprint of my nails
The result of clenching my knuckle hard enough of jealousy
I thought in Luhan’s world there’ll only be me
Since his previous supposed to be lover left
That Wufan guy
Although Luhan didn’t showered me with love and care, but being beside him is enough
But now everything has crashed down
The naivety has broken when I met Minseok
I continued drinking and drinking
Didn’t know when I passed out
Because suddenly everything went black
The warmth of the sun to my face wakes me up
I open my heavy eyelids
The blurry vision slowly becomes clearer
I look at the source of the light
The window
And I can see that the sun is high enough
My head aches painfully
I need an aspirin
Badly
Standing up with hands on the table as support
The pain on my head becomes more and more unbearable
With half lidded eyes I walk to the bathroom
I opened the cupboard above the sink
Searching for an aspirin
Damn...
I'm out of it...
I punched the wall in frustration
But that won’t help relieving my headache
After a few minutes of self composing
I look at my watch
It's 11.45 am
! I need to meet the client at 12.30!!
I hurriedly takes of my clothes, and turn on the shower
The cold water feels a bit nice to my poundi
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