Confession
UnrestrainedI’m sighing heavily
Why everything turns to be like this?
Luhan is becoming closer with Minseok
Sometimes I wonder
God, did my love life will always turns to be like this?
Or am I not destined to be loved by someone I love
I once love Luhan
But he’s being too absorbed in his own world that maybe I didn’t even exist on his mind
And then when my feeling for Minseok grew
Luhan suddenly comes back in my life
Truthfully this heart is being torn apart
Every time I saw their closeness
I’m being jealous
But I even didn’t know to whom did I’m jealous of
I’m too greedy huh?
I want both of them
Both of their attention
Both of their love
But do I really want it like that?
Do I still love Luhan? Or is it just a lingering feeling of my unrequited love to him in the past
Curious about his feeling to me
Now I’m inside my car, I decided to have a night drive around town
To clear my mind
I opened the window to feel the night breeze
Although it’s 10 pm the city never dies
It’s time for the night life
I see people passing by
From overtime white collar worker that looks like on the way home, until people who work at night, offering their bodies for some cash
And…. Is that Luhan?
He’s walking on the opposite direction, holding a plastic bag
I look for a U turn, and try to catches him
Luckily he walks rather slowly, as my car almost there; I push the window button so it will slide down
“Hey, Luhan”
I called him
He turns his face and when he saw me he waves his hand a bit with a small smile
"Wufan"
It is really him
“Hop in”
I said or maybe ordered a bit louder because he’s now in front of a club so it’s kinda noisy because of the music from inside and also the crowd of people talking, laughing, or even saying nonsensical words of being drunk
“Sure”
He nods his head and then I opened the door to the passenger seat from inside
He quickly hops in and closes the door
“What’re you doing in this late of night?”
I asked him while driving
“Buying some food”
He shows me the plastic with a box of food inside
I can smell fried noodle
“Oh yeah, I remember, Minseok said you’re on the new studio since 3 days ago”
I talked as I remembered what Minseok said today at lunch
Including the part where he was sleeping at Luhan’s studio at saturday
“Yeah, it’s nearby the apartment, I’ll tell you the direction when we’re close”
He said while buckling the seatbelt
“So...how’s the painting?”
I asked him, eyes focused on the road
“It’s finished, Sehun already deliver it this morning”
He answered casually, from the sound of his voice I guess he’s tired
“Oh...good then”
Then there’s an awkward silence between us
He is now beside me but I don’t have a clue to what I need to say
Different from the past where at least I have a few things to talk about to him
Or gathered things to talk about
“So…Is Minseok always tells you ev
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