I woke up, not wanting to open my eyes. I try to sense what is going on in my bedroom... many things are running through my head right now. I need to be brave!

I quickly got up and looked to my left side.

Nothing but the note...

I cried, I screamed, I punched, I kicked. I freaked out. I didn't wanted to read the note. I've turn my own into a real mess.

I lay down on the floor of my bedroom, the note was now on my hand... I slowly put it in front of my eyes. I start reading.

Dear Taeyeon...

I know this is not what you wanted, what you've expected. I'm sorry. 

There's no reasonable excuse for me to not like you... Is just... what you've said is true, If you were a guy things could be different... I know it might

souns stupid and narrow minded but is the truth I can't imagine myself with a girl. Is too weird for me.

Please understand. It's better for us If we don't see each other for a while, If in the future you want to come to my house to talk to Jessica please text

her first so I would get out first.

I know sorry is not enough... It hurts me to write this...

Bye.

I hope someday we can overcome this and be friends again.

if I were a guy things would be different... a guy... narrow minded... I'm too sad and tired to cry... but I can't stop thinking about what she wrote... If I 

were a guy... that's obvious not possible, I was born a girl and I don't intend to change it... 

What If...

I quickly logged on my laptop that was in the corner of the bedroom, luckly I didn't trashed it.

I've promised myself I wouldn't give up on you Tiffany. I know yo