❝ chapter four

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[blue text = spoken in english]

    “, bro. What did you say to her?” Eddie gasps, staring at the text in my phone screen. 

    “Just go to your room.” I mutter, half of me annoyed because my own brother just witnessed me getting indirectly rejected and half of me annoyed because I’m not there in Korea and I have no idea why did she change her mind all of sudden. 

The door to my room suddenly bursts open and I hold myself back from actually cursing Brian but he strives for the seat between me and Eddie and unlocks his phone. It displays a news article, the article itself and somehow it’s not CNN. Thanks goodness, the last thing I want right now is definitely not getting my face shove with another Trump’s news and piss myself off anymore than now. 

    “There is a news about you, bro. It says, Eric Nam’s last kiss hasn’t been a week yet.” He reads and my eyes almost gauge out at the bold blocks of letters in front of me. “When asked about his last kiss, Eric Nam laughed and said that it hasn’t been a week yet and if it was right to say this.” 

I remembered saying this. I remembered the shoot. , Yongsun must have saw this. She must have heard it from her members. , why did you have to be so ing honest and open about who kissed you? Damn it, Eric. It’s no surprise that she never wants to talk to someone like me again after this. 

    “I think we found the reason why your girl doesn’t want to meet you, bro.” 

I ran my fingers through my hair in exasperation. What was I thinking when I decided to let the whole nation - possibly the whole world, knew that my last kiss was a few weeks ago? Did I really rule out the fact that Yongsun definitely owned a phone, owned a television, owned a tablet, gained full access to internet browsers and I was still stupid enough to think she will never see this? Damn it, Eric. 

    “Eddie, just leave. I need to think.” I sigh. “And, she’s not my girl.” 

    “Come on, dude. You gotta tell us what’s going on with that girl you kissed from a few weeks ago?” He laughs, still clearly locates the humor in his older brother’s sorrow. 

    “Dude, you were there with me.” I frown. “And, she was the one who was drunk, came up to me, said something like she heard from our friends that I’m a singer in Korea then kiss me. Heck, it was even in front of grandma. She thought we were dating, she even pulled me aside to scolded me why would I even date someone who drank like she’s swimming in a pool of alcohol?” 

Brian laughs at that then shuts up immediately when I shoot him a glare. I would probably find the humor in that too if it isn’t for a certain someone back in Korea who probably has a lot going through her mind at the moment. As if I don’t know that Yongsun always overthink something and she needs someone to tells her that everything will go well and she’s doing well. People seem to think Yongsun is strong after what she’s been through, they seem to forget that she’s still fragile and cautious on the inside. 

She probably thinks I was being fake this whole time. She probably thinks this whole time during our filming, I only did it for the public’s impression. God, she has no idea how much I want to hold her every night.

    “There, you said it. Tell her exactly that, she’ll understand. The last time we got to talk in that video call on my birthday, she seems to be really nice.” Brian nods. “Seriously though, are you that stupid to openly told everyone when your last kiss was when you know this news spread like fire in that industry?” 

    “Stop telling me that. I already feel stupid enough.” 

    “I know you don’t lie on broadcast but still can’t deny you ed your own luck up this time, bro.” Eddie shrugs. “If I was you, I’d be catching a plane to Korea right now and explain the whole .” 

    Brian laughs. “Yeah, take grandma with you for witness.” 

    I rolled my eyes. “You do realize we’re not in any kind of relationship right now and the kind of job we both have. I don’t care if I kill my own career, but she loves hers.” 

To be very honest, I think I might just do as they say.