Do you ever feel happy but still you are sad?  Do you feel satisfied but still you are unsatisfied? 

How can you make sure that having this thing will always be yours? Or at the first place, is it yours? 

The Only thing that are permanent in this world is change. Change in all sorts and kinds. You change your perception, your feelings, you yourself. But how can you tell that you change for the better? 

This week, I never been happy like this. Being close to her, it just my dream then, but here she is with me. Talking and sharing thoughts and stories. This is satisfying but still not. 

Is it bad to dream that she will become more closer to me? More than a friend? 

Sitting under a tree at the back of the building, she is talking about her baby, her dog. Me, listening to every single words she is saying, looking at those pink and probably kissable lips.

"You can come to my house to meet kuma and play with him" she said smiling. 

"Sure." I said giving her my sincere smile. I would love to. I want to know her even more, know what is her room look like, what she is doing when not in school, how her life is doing even in simple little things.

I love Jennie and this feelings for her, hasn't even decrease but it's getting more everytime I am with her. 

"Lisa, I'm sleepy. Our last subject is about 2 hours from now. " she said yawning. 

"Here. you can put your head here. I will wake you up when