Chapter 19
The Monster In My Head"You know nothing about me!" - Jin Ae yelled, frustrated knowing that she was almost exposed.
"I know you can see spirits, what more do I need to tell you about yourself for you to believe me?" - Yoongi yelled back.
"I'm tired of living in the shadows of your world, why can't you ever spare me a glance too!?"
"Why is my suffering invisible to you?"
"I don't think I can go on anymore"
"I'm tired"
These were the words Yoongi wanted to say but all that could be heard was a sigh.
Jin Ae looked at Yoongi with pure horror, almost as if she was looking at a monster.
"H...How?" - Jin Ae mumbled " It's not possible.... It can't be...I...I..." - Jin Ae couldn't find the words to express what exactly was going on in her head.
Yoongi didn't answer, all he did was stare back at her. He was hurt, he didn't want to become someone Jin Ae was afraid of, he wanted to become someone whom Jin Ae could share her worries with. In fact he wanted her to understand the pain he was going through, he wanted to confide into her but looking at her horrified expression, Yoongi changed his mind. Maybe now was not the time.
"Do you see them too?" - Jin Ae questioned, her voice hardly audible.
"No" - Yoongi answered, his face stone cold.
"Then how do you know?" - Jin Ae quickly shot back.
"What's going on here? Something Interesting? Let me in on it too!!" - a voice interrupted the pair.
"Jeo Seung?" - Jin Ae questioned while Yoongi just rolled his eyes in annoyance.
"Yeah? Why the hell do you look washed up? Something happened?" - Jeo Seung questioned, taking a step closer to the pair. His hands cupping Jin Ae's face, examining it.
"No! No! Nothing! " - Jin Ae quickly replied without a seconds break, pulling away from Jeo Seung's grip.
"hmmm okay, but what the hell is he doing here?" - Jeo Seung pointed his finger at Yoongi, annoying him further.
"Why ? Now I can't even visit a cafe in peace?" - Yoongi sneered.
"Ummm I think I questioned Jin Ae not you" - Jeo Seung shot back.
Yoongi just groaned, ready to get into a quarrel with Jeo Seung.
"Stop it you both!" - Jin Ae yelled - "Both of you get out from here, I have had enough drama fo today, I can't take it anymore, just go.... please" - the angered tone at the beginning was suddenly changed to a plea.
The guys could not help but obey Jin Ae's wish after looking at her pleading eyes.
Without a single word said, both the guys walked out of the cafe, leaving her all alone.
"You, you told her didn't you?" - Jeo Seung questioned Yoongi when both of them were out in the street. A grin plastered on his face.
"Don't interfere in my business" - Yoongi answered with a deadpan expression.
"I knew there was no way you could stay away from her" - Jeo Seung replied, a sense of mock in his tone.
Without bothering to reply him, Yoongi walked away from there leaving Jeo Seung standing alone in the middle of the street, smiling to himself.
"The more you run away, the more you will find yourself coming back to the same spot. Even though I know what is going to happen, it will be fun to watch it all unfold from the sidelines."
The silent nights used to be very comforting but not today. Today it brought a feeling of uneasiness with it. An eerie feeling, a feeling of being vulnerable.
When your darkest truth gets revealed, the past you always tired to hide from the world gets out, that's when you feel the whole world around you collapse, not because people come to know who you really are but because of the judgment you will receive from them.
Living in the fear of being judged because you are different is same as living in the depths of hell.
You become your own Satan.
Jin Ae woke up before the sun today, the events of yesterday night replayed in her mind over and over again. She was in desperate need of answers from Yoongi.Without any further thought she picked up her phone and dialed a number.
"Namjoon ah, can you please put Yoongi on the call?"
"H..huh..?" - Namjoon who was in a deep slumber was woken up by this call. Not knowing what was going on, Namjoon checked the caller ID again. Why did Jin Ae call him when she wanted to talk to Yoongi.
"Is Yoongi there?" - Jin Ae questioned again out of desperation.
"N..no... hyung must be in the studio right now" - Namjoon replied, his voice hoarse.
"Send me his number" - Jin Ae said before hanging up on the call.
"Wh - Hello... Jin Ae...?" - Namjoon tired asking but the line was already dead.
Namjoon stared at his phone, it was 4.30 AM. Why the hell did Jin Ae want Yoongi's number at 4.30 in the morning. What in the world was going on?
After getting Suga'
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