Chapter 19

The Monster In My Head
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"You know nothing about me!" - Jin Ae yelled, frustrated knowing that she was almost exposed.

 

"I know you can see spirits, what more do I need to tell you about yourself for you to believe me?" - Yoongi yelled back.

 

"I'm tired of living in the shadows of your world, why can't you ever spare me a glance too!?"

"Why is my suffering invisible to you?"

"I don't think I can go on anymore"

"I'm tired"

These were the words Yoongi wanted to say but all that could be heard was a sigh.

 

Jin Ae looked at Yoongi with pure horror, almost as if she was looking at a monster.

"H...How?" - Jin Ae mumbled " It's not possible.... It can't be...I...I..." - Jin Ae couldn't find the words to express what exactly was going on in her head.

 

Yoongi didn't answer, all he did was stare back at her. He was hurt, he didn't want to become someone Jin Ae was afraid of, he wanted to become someone whom Jin Ae could share her worries with. In fact he wanted her to understand the pain he was going through, he wanted to confide into her but looking at her horrified expression, Yoongi changed his mind. Maybe now was not the time.

 

"Do you see them too?" - Jin Ae questioned, her voice hardly audible.

"No" - Yoongi answered, his face stone cold.

"Then how do you know?" - Jin Ae quickly shot back.

 

"What's going on here? Something Interesting? Let me in on it too!!" - a voice interrupted the pair.

"Jeo Seung?" - Jin Ae questioned while Yoongi just rolled his eyes in annoyance.

"Yeah? Why the hell do you look washed up? Something happened?" - Jeo Seung questioned, taking a step closer to the pair. His hands cupping Jin Ae's face, examining it.

"No! No! Nothing! " - Jin Ae quickly replied without a seconds break, pulling away from Jeo Seung's grip.

"hmmm okay, but what the hell is he doing here?" - Jeo Seung pointed his finger at Yoongi, annoying him further.

"Why ? Now I can't even visit a cafe in peace?" - Yoongi sneered.

"Ummm I think I questioned Jin Ae not you" - Jeo Seung shot back. 

Yoongi just groaned, ready to get into a quarrel with Jeo Seung.

"Stop it you both!" - Jin Ae yelled - "Both of you get out from here, I have had enough drama fo today, I can't take it anymore, just go.... please" - the angered tone at the beginning was suddenly changed to a plea.

The guys could not help but obey Jin Ae's wish after looking at her pleading eyes.

Without a single word said, both the guys walked out of the cafe, leaving her all alone.

 

"You, you told her didn't you?" - Jeo Seung questioned Yoongi when both of them were out in the street. A grin plastered on his face.

"Don't interfere in my business" - Yoongi answered with a deadpan expression.

"I knew there was no way you could stay away from her" - Jeo Seung replied, a sense of mock in his tone.

Without bothering to reply him, Yoongi walked away from there leaving Jeo Seung standing alone in the middle of the street, smiling to himself.

 

"The more you run away, the more you will find yourself coming back to the same spot. Even though I know what is going to happen, it will be fun to watch it all unfold from the sidelines."

 

The silent nights used to be very comforting but not today. Today it brought a feeling of uneasiness with it. An eerie feeling, a feeling of being vulnerable. 

 

When your darkest truth gets revealed, the past you always tired to hide from the world gets out, that's when you feel the whole world around you collapse, not because people come to know who you really are but because of the judgment you will receive from them.

 

Living in the fear of being judged because you are different is same as living in the depths of hell.

You become your own Satan.

 

Jin Ae woke up before the sun today, the events of yesterday night replayed in her mind over and over again. She was in desperate need of answers from Yoongi.Without any further thought she picked up her phone and dialed a number.

"Namjoon ah, can you please put Yoongi on the call?"

"H..huh..?" - Namjoon who was in a deep slumber was woken up by this call. Not knowing what was going on, Namjoon checked the caller ID again. Why did Jin Ae call him when she wanted to talk to Yoongi.

"Is Yoongi there?" - Jin Ae questioned again out of desperation.

"N..no... hyung must be in the studio right now" - Namjoon replied, his voice hoarse.

"Send me his number" - Jin Ae said before hanging up on the call.

"Wh - Hello... Jin Ae...?" - Namjoon tired asking but the line was already dead.

Namjoon stared at his phone, it was 4.30 AM. Why the hell did Jin Ae want Yoongi's number at 4.30 in the morning. What in the world was going on?

 

After getting Suga'

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[The Monster In My Head] Chapter 27 is up ! My ghosts and me hope you like the chapter kekekekek ヽ(^。^)ノ

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AileeAloya #1
Chapter 31: I knew it...i knew it...Jeo sung was something else...evil demon?..grim reaper?...for a time i though he was the incarnetaion of Yoongi's friend...hahaha...Author nim..pls cont ur stories later..Fighting
Chimswae
#2
Chapter 31: Jeo Sung is so shady and always give me wrong impression most of the time. For an odd reason, I am seeing him in inhuman way like he is dangerous to be around her and he's using her for her own benefit. Jeosung is a complicated character tbh.
bhatikar
#3
Chapter 31: * stares at all the new twists and turns with wide open eyes O_o*

Hmm...one thing for sure, Jeo Seung is definitely not a MORTAL!
All the ghosts bow down to him?
Who is he or What is he??? @_@

I feel so bad for Jin Ae. She had a really terrible day. Although I don't totally trust Jeo Seung with her, I'm glad he was there for her at the end and that she let out all her emotions with him. I hope she feels better with time.

And whatever Jeo Seung said about the miracles, blessings and curses in disguise, he seemed to have a point in that.
But what did he mean when he said that he was with her since her father's death and will be, till her last breath?....it gives a shivering feeling to me.
Does he mean to be some guardian to watch her over..?

But again! Than he also warned her NOT to trust him or his words!
What is he exactly playing at.... @_@

And this new addition Keres! She seems like a intriguing character! She may feel like a kid, but does posses darkness. What does she want to possess Jin Ae's soul??
That too she called him brother and also spoke his uncertain death?
Now Jeo Seung's life is on the line??

Wow! This chapter has definitely plunged me into questions!! But I'm surely enjoying it! ^^
I like how you are showing more and more of Jeo Seung's character, but in a steady manner.
Also, the whole mention of miracles, devils and ghosts seem to really set the story in a good supernatural set! :D Well done!
THANKS A LOT FOR THE UPDATE AUTHOR-NIM!^_^
ALTHOUGH YOU HAVE LEFT ME WITH MORE QUESTIONS THAN ANSWERS I AM REALLY DIGGING FOR MORE! XD



I know the past couple of days have really been difficult for us...
It was a really unfortunate incident to occur and as you said, those particular words have certainly left a different imprint on our hearts.
Stay strong author-nim! And don't worry about the story. Take your time to get back in the form.
R.I.P Jonghyun
RockabillyHippie
#4
Chapter 31: Writing has been difficult for me this past week as well. SHINee was one of my first kpop groups because of the Boys Over Flowers ost and that drama had been my second kdrama. The group meant a lot to me. I'm not a huge fan of SM as a company but the artists under them were all my favorites so Jonghyun's passing has thrown me off balance for a lack of a better term. But I'm slowly feeling myself get back to normal, especially because I've been spending time with loved ones. I really loved this chapter especially because we learn more about Jeo Seung and the little girl who we now know is Keres. This is putting me on the edge of my seat!
nuz123
#5
Chapter 31: What is this Jeo Seung?? Who is this lil sister?!
Chimswae
#6
Chapter 30: To see this story unfold this way is giving me a rollecoaster feeling.. it feels so right and just so wrong at the same time. There are so much things going on between jiae and namjoon and yoongi. I am trying to digest every single thing here hahaha guess I am er when it comes to emotional and complicated relationship . U wrote the emotional paet so well. Kudos to you :')
bhatikar
#7
Chapter 30: NOOO!!!NAMJOON!!!!
Get a grip on your thoughts!
Damn! He has given rise to so many MISUNDERSTANDINGS!!

Seriously, this was the most angst and dramatic chapter ever! Strangely....I like it..:P....

But it was heart-wrenching to see all of them getting hurt thought! T^T
Silly Namjoon! He has no idea about Jin Ae's and Yoongi's world, but instead comes up with such theories....even when she told him the truth...I was expecting him to blow-over like that!
Feel really bad for his heart though...he seems so ignorant of the truth and so broken now...
(I was clutching my hair at his assumptions>_<)

And poor Jin Ae, as if her life was not already messed up, now has to deal with these new chaos!
His words sure did seem like bullets ripping her apart from the inside...
And he didn't even here her confession!

While Yoongi is like always! Trying to hush his pain out even if he is dying from the inside in doing so.>_<
Although I'm glad he didn't say anything harsh to Namjoon in anger! He seemed to handle the situation well...
I hope things will turn around for him.....

And last but not the least..Jeo Seung has appeared! Wonder what he is up to with the other guy....:/

The feels of this chapter really got me though!! O_o
You really topped the drama author-nim!! Good Job! ^_^
I seriously would love such more drama from you....But right now, I so want the things to clear up between them!!
(But I'm ready for drama....:P)

Thanks for the update!!<3
BilliePark #8
Chapter 30: Well he really is an idiot for overthinking. That hurts.
RockabillyHippie
#9
Chapter 30: NAMJOON! WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM, MY GUY?! OOOOOOOOHHHHH MMMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYY GAAAAAAAHD!!!!!!
HoneyFei20
#10
Chapter 30: Wow...Namjoon made me cry....How can you not understand Jin Ae?????? She loves you and you don't even believe her..... sigh.