A/N: You know KIM SIBLINGS is composed of JOONGKI, SHINHYE and JAEJOONG, right? Jae was at the cafeteria too.

DARA 

Okay now I’m pissed, I mean who does he think he is? He wants to end us this way? Just like that? So be it. I was fine before I met him and I’ll be fine when he’s gone.

He’s the one who took an innocent joke and turned it into something more. Why the should I feel guilty.

So what if the other hayseed s in this town wanted to laugh behind their hands? I didn’t give a what they thought before and I’m not going to start now.

That angry fume got me through the rest of the day and into the evening while alone in my room doing my homework.

Dad had picked me up from school. I didn’t say anything to him but when he saw Jaejoong getting into his car he’d given me a questioning look which I chose to ignore.

With my eyes focused straight ahead we’d driven out of the school lot to home.

Thank God dad had to drop me off and went out again. I couldn’t stand to answer any questions right now especially since I didn’t have all the answers myself.

Right now anger is my friend I’ll hold onto that feeling for as long as I could because to do anything else might break me.

I kept myself busy, but in the back of my mind somewhere in my subconscious, I knew I was on autopilot.

My movements were somewhat mechanical as I geared myself up for the next step.

Homework done, shower over with, I made Dad dinner but nibbled on a carrot stick which I fought to keep down.

By seven o’clock I was curled up in bed under the covers.

I have no interest in my Facebook page or calling any of the friends I’d left behind in Seoul.

I have no friends here to speak of except for the Kims and I learned today that they weren’t my friends after all.

Shinhye hadn’t even looked at me. Joongki had given me a few furtive glances here and there as I sat at that table alone and chewed my way through an apple, fighting nausea every step of the way.

Jae, well....... he took the cake.

It’s as though I never existed. He passed me in the hall on the way to one of his classes which I’d gathered he’d somehow changed to get away from me.

I looked. I couldn’t help looking at him that one time to see if there was anything there, anyway to reach him, any clues, any hope.

He’d been stone cold. I could only wish to be as merciless.

I finally fell asleep after anger had kicked the out of my grief and won.

him then, the whole ing school could off!

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The next day I drove my piece of truck since Dad had his guy look at it and they’d decided other than the fact that it was an eyesore, it was drivable.

I got a sick sense of satisfaction out of knowing that Jaejoong hated the truck. He was going to hate my outfit even more.

Not that I was dressing with him in mind but my clothes is my armor and the princess was back in full force.

My thigh high, low heeled Hermes boots over skinny jeans, an off the shoulder Cashmere sweater in my signature winter white with large diamond hoops and matching bracelets, hair flowing down my back and blown pin straight, lips glossed to a high sheen. This was fierce. if I needed someone else to tell me that .

I have a mirror, I have eyes I can see that .

Mother ers knew to stay out of my way when I walked down the halls with my Chanel shades and attitude popping off of me like neon signs.

es better not say anything loud enough for me to hear. The little mouse Kim Jaejoong tried to turn me into, was nowhere to be found.

I was me again, the fact that I had to fight to hold onto that attitude, to being a , didn’t faze me, I pushed that back hard.

I was back to saying you to everyone and everything.

Three and a half hours later when I walked into the cafeteria I found out I’d gone through all that for nothing. He wasn’t here.

In fact he missed the next two days as well. Each day was a stab to the heart.

I almost preferred to have him here giving me the cold shoulder than not seeing him at all.

I missed the out of him, his laugh, that cocky smirk smile of his, his wild as hair, even his annoying bossiness.

I wanted so badly to know where he was, what he was doing, was he back with that Tiffany ?

That thought made my stomach feel like I’d swallowed battery acid, it made me livid.

This was so unfair! Do I deserve this for leaving? Was that so bad he had to do this?  I had no answers and no one to turn to to get them.

I felt like getting the out, like just packing my up and heading out. Get out of this yy place.

I had a nice little nest egg from all the times I’d made Kathy pad my account when she wanted something. she could afford it.

I could just disappear somewhere, leave all this craziness behind, forget I’d ever met the golden boy with beautiful eyes and his hot as body.

Yeah, I had about as much chance of doing that as I did forgetting my own name.

The weekend was the worse this ing rinky-dink town had nothing to do to begin with, add a touch of the blues and I was ed.

Sunday evening I just decided to drive around Cheongshim, no destination in mind just something to do to break up the monotony.

I ended up at the diner where some of the other kids from school were hanging out.

Over a plate of Pasta Primavera which I barely touched, I listened to the snickers and hoots of laughter around me.

I was just about to throw a glass of water in this one dude’s face when I heard a gruff voice say from behind me.

“Leave her alone guys.”

Joongki pulled up a seat next to me as the s piped down. For some reason I felt like crying, he was the closest I’d come to Jae in almost two weeks.

“What’s going on lil Dee?”

“So you can actually speak to me, that’s allowed?”

I was feeling y, so sue me.

“Something you missed about our family, we’re clannish, tight as . If one breaks away we all break away. We might not all agree but that’s just the way we are, family sticks together. That doesn’t mean that we wouldn’t all try to get the other person to see the error of their ways if it’s warranted, but I’m sorry

Little Dee, I think you really ed up. He’s not playing and when he gets like this only God knows what he’ll do next. I’ll try to reason with him but I can’t promise anything. When lil bro gets like this not even mom and dad would with him so......”

I took a deep breath as my brow furrowed in confusion. Could he really be this pissed off at what I’d done? Would he give up on me that easily on us? The us that he swore he wanted?

“Where is he? Why hasn’t he been to school?”

“He went away for a few days to clear his head but he’ll be back at school tomorrow. He really loves you, I know this. There’s no doubt in any of our minds so I’m thinking he’ll come around eventually. But please for the love of God don’t do anything else to piss him off, at least not any time soon.”

He loved me still, hearing those words from someone else, someone that would know, was like balm to my soul, it eased the pain just a little. Until.....

“Oh .......”

Matthew jumped out of his chair his attention focused in the doorway. I turned my head to see what was going on and looked into the ice cold eyes of a very pissed off Kim Jaejoong.

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