The day of the examination came. We’re both asked to give our blood sample, urine sample, get our eyesight check and even asked to run on a treadmill and have tubes on our mouth while we’re running to check our lung capacity. Insurance policies sure don’t kid around. 

During our treadmill session, a doctor came to me asked me to slow down my pace and stopped running altogether. She says she noticed some unusual activities in my heart beat so she will take another look at it before she’d ask me to continue on the series of checkups. TaecYeon and I got worried a little bit about her finding, especially since she did not give us any further explanation and just sent us home.

“What if it’s a weird illness?” I keep on having that thought.

“Ya, we want to have positive attitude, okay. I’m sure it’s nothing AeRi-ya, we should just wait for the result.”

“It’s been three days, why haven’t the clinic called?”

I spend the rest of the morning with serious concern about my own health. I know I’ve been feeling dizzy lately, but that’s something I live with all the time and it doesn’t really bother my daily activities. We did this examination every year, so it must be something happened within a year that caused the doctor’s concern. I was always marked as healthy whenever I received my examination card, why this time is different. The thought of a terrible illness strikes again, I finally found happiness and a terrible illness might ruin my life for me.

Suddenly my phone rings. “Yeoboseyo. This is AeRi speaking.”

“This is from the clinic, we have your result with us, can you come and get it?” a lady’s voice answers from another side.

“I’ll be there as soon as I can.”

TaecYeon receives the same phone call after me, so we’re both head out to the clinic to get our results. On our way I keep on taking deep breaths to calm myself down. I’m too nervous to see my result. I’m not ready to die from a terminal illness just yet—now that I’ve got back on my feet.

Beside me, TaecYeon keeps holding my hand and pats it some time to calm me down. “Happy