I was driven to a big restaurant in Beijing to attend the after party for an international congress I just went to this morning. As a diplomat-to-be, I need to do lots and lots of these gathering simply to broaden my relation to help me get to a better position. Just like any other after party it’s common to have free flow alcohol and , although I’m not interested in getting myself an girl I gulped down the alcohol quite a lot tonight.

I had rough weeks lately. With my wife—AeRi. Several months ago we’re being told that we cannot have a child because somehow her ovaries don’t have a hospitable condition to conceive. It broke our heart completely, it broke her confidence and self-worth, and I’d be lying if I say it didn’t create a little crack in our marriage.

We used to have a happy marriage. Our love blossomed since we were eight. I fell in love with her during middle school and asked her to marry me right after we graduated from high school. My mom was completely against our marriage, but when I explained to her that AeRi is the only person I want to spend my life with and I’ll scratch my name off the family register if she didn’t let me marry the love of my life, my mom gave her permission.

After the verdict we got from the doctor, days went by rather badly and every time I went home, AeRi will greet me with her grim face. She’s a stay-at-home wife so she’ll always be there when I arrive. One day I found her sitting under the shower crying heavily. She kept apologizing to me about her big flaw. She told me that my mother figured out about the verdict and went so mad she doesn’t want to see AeRi ever again and demand her to divorce me. It was a hard time in our marriage.

During the hard time, I hang out with my best friend ChangMin a lot and he knew about our problem. He’d take me out drinking till the night drops, introduce me to his dates and sometimes even tease me in getting my game on with some of the girls he knew. I was a loyal husband. The drinking I could deal with but the girls I chose to leave. One of the drunken night I came home very late, and AeRi was still awake to wait for me. She was furious, she brought the topics about her being