A/N: I was contemplating if I should post this. 
I had this written up, It was inspired by Christina Perri's Human. 
It served as an inspirational drabble. 


(BOLDED- Lyrics) 


I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue

I can stay awake for days
If that's what you want
Be your number one
I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

You sat there. 
It was cold and dark. 
You squeezed your eyes so tightly. 
It was as if you were squeezing them for the survival of yourself. 
You gave soft sniffs, and gasps as the tears were working their way down your cheeks. 
You were alone. 
You have always been alone. 
Your body seems to be vibrating, or was it the amplification of your heart beats. 
It seems to sent waves through your veins. 
It was running so wildly in you. 

It only spells fear. 

She had rules, she always had them. 
She had ridiculous and painful rules. 
You were like her puppet on a string. 
She had you tied up to it... 
You were bounded by them. 
The rules. 
 
You tried the only option, 
You chanted," 
 

"I can do it
I can do it
I can do it"


You have to keep it in. 
No tears, she always say that. 
No... it wasn't just a speech. 
It was a rule. 
Another rule
No tears. 

You tried gulping airs through your mouth. 
It makes your lips trembled, you wasn't sure if it was for fear,... or for anything else..

It wasn't fair. 
Why were you suffering like this? 
It was always only you. 
 

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

You never came across yourself as human. 
You were just her toy. 
A non-living thing. 
A non-existent item. 

You let her words run through your body. 
It send chills down every nerve of your bones. 
It pierced through every living bit in you. 
It was like.. you live to her cold words. 

Be strong, you have to be strong. 
It wasn't a whisper to yourself. 
It was like a silent default system in you. 
You have never live out of the word strong.  

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that's what you need
Be your everything

"Don't Cry. " 
"You have to do this" 
"You owe us that much. " 
"Girls who cry are wimps. " 
"You are stupid. " 
"You are ugly. " 
"You are not loved. "


Your heart ached as those familiar words triggered another wave of emotions in you . 
You were defying the rule. 
The tears spilled over. 

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

You tried to hallucinate yourself. again. 
This.. is just.. a game. 
You tried to force a smile. 

You glared at the glistening blade. 

It was taunting you. 
It was like teasing the hairs on your skin which was already standing and shivering at the cold wind. 
It only cause more gooosebumps to appear. 

You immediately closed your eyes. 
She.. 
She can't always do this to you..
 

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
"Cause I'm only human, yeah
 

There are times you doubt yourself. 
You wondered if everyone in this world was going through what you were. 
Why were you suffering? 
Why must you face such a torture? 


I'm only human
I'm only human
Just a little human

You bit your lips so hard to soften the sobbing. 
The emotions held and trapped within you for all these years.. 
It had rebelled again the default system you have forced the programming upon. 


I can take so much
Till I've had enough

Stand up. 
Stand up now. 
You found that surge of energy that bolted your legs to straighten themselves. 
Your eyes were watery, but it feels drained and dry. 
You had shed all the tears trapped within. 
You had let go of the fear that you have been hiding. 

You can't let her do this to you, 

'Cause I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human, yeah 





 (In case there are misunderstandings. 
The "She" can be referred as anyone, or basically life. 
It was written to show how one was suffering from the pressure being put upon by that person/life, and... 
I wrote this for people who is currently going through hardships. 
It is okay to cry, its okay to fall, its okay. )