L.Joe's prob

I kept turning and tossing in bed. this is making me angry! i lifted my hands in the air and pounded them on the bed and opened my eyes. 'Why can't i sleep!!!' i shouted in my head because if i shouted out loud, i'd wake up Niel. So i got up and went to the bathroom to brush my teeth, Damn! it was only 5:45, Why can't i stop thinking about Violae? It's driving me nuts, who cares if she's getting kicked out. Uhhh, i need some fressh air to clear my head.

i went to the lake and sat down, you could see the reflection of the moon in the lake which gave of a glowing light. i think i should go back before Niel wakes up and finds me gone.

as i walked back to the cabin, i heard twigs breaking, leaves rustling, and foot steps. No one ever gets up this early in the morning, "Who's there?" i shouted as i walked to my cabin.

"Who do you think it is?" As soon as i heard that voice, i knew it was Violae, and just when i stopped thinking about her too.

Certainly not you." i said as i stopped in front of her, "Aren't you leaving today?"

Then a voice inside my head started talking "Stupid, who do you think is the reason she's leaving, you should be saying something like, 'I'm sorry' or 'I was wrong about you' and maybe even 'i'm a stupid with my pride and anger issues who thought wrong about you and made you miserable' not 'aren't you leaving today?' you idiot!"

"What's it to you?" She said.

"cuz if you are, why are you here this early in the morning?" I just can't say those words, I never did and I never will in my life. No ones worth it.

"Well, i have unfinished business to take care of before i leave," She said, "you want to know what it is?" then Violae suddenly leaped up and pulled me into her, our lips colliding.

WAIT... WHATTT? OUR LIPS COLLIDING! i didnt know what was going on anymore, I'm the one that steals kisses not the other way around. i can't believe theres a girl who would do that. But, this wasn't like a full of feeling kiss, this was more than that. there aren't words that decribe the feeling. L.Joe the Badboy got played by this girl, a girl without fear. i couldn't help but go blank, i couldn't help but do nothing. i stood there as i was being kissed by violae, a fierce kiss that took my breathe away, that made my heart skip a beat. what is this feeling?

My hate for her grew into something else, something i've never imagined, something i didn't long for. i noticed things i wouldn't have before, looking a few days back, was i that cruel and hateful. The Atmosphere around us was tense and meaning less. I cant believe i let a girl do this to me. i let my guard down, something i shouldn't have done. She's something, something interesting. she's different from others,

after I got out of my trance and went back to my senses, Violae already stopped, she was looking right at me, i couldn't help but stare into her eyes, they were full of sadness and sorrow.

"It's revenge." she said at a calm voice, nothing like i expected.

I get it now, Revenge, Niel was right, she was very simular to me, she did the one thing that no one's done before, she broke my pride, the pride that only breaks others, the pride that knew from the beginning that nothing can break hers because she never had one to begin with (In case your wondering, he had that feeling about Violae but didn't know why, it's the kind of like the pride of a person he's talking about. here's the reason; she never really had one because of her family and being hidden, so when she was born, that was taken from her against her own will not because she did anything wrong, she's not a bad person), the pride that had to try even though it knew. "Is that enough for your revenge or do you want me to suffer more?" i asked her, if someone did something to me as bad as the things i did to her, i wouldn't let them off so easily. i don't see why she would.

"No... i got my revenge already." i gave a slight amused giggle/laugh (the one that you do when you can't believe something, not the funny one). then she broke my gaze i had one her and walked away, after awhile, i found my hands on my lips, the touch of her lips still liggered on mine, it was still tingling. she's deffinitly something.

then i heard her voice, she still had something to say, i was still standing at the same exact spot she left me at, even with my back facing her and the trees and wind blowing loudly, i could still hear her words from the distance between us, the wisper like words were clear, very clear. I've never expected them to be so hurtful oneday, they were just mere words i didn't care about now but soon, in the distant future, they'll be everything i'll ever think of, the only thing i'll want to never hear, the one thing i'll want her to take back, the one thing i'll want to never come true "I hope this is really good-bye." then she left. *note: Changed the phrase she said in Chapter 8 so it's this if you look back in Chapter 8*

Well i was hoping to put chapter 10 up today too, i even had determination, but since i just finished this, imma post it now and work on chapter 10 and post it as soon as possible tommorow or possibly later tonight. sorry for the long wait for chapter 8+9. i know i said chapter 8 was the start of school but change of plans, it's next in Chapter 10 :)