Jungkook's POV

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It was finally after school. I was in a really good mood because I knew today was Jin's day to pick me up.

He was hanging out with me as much as he could but it was usually twice a week.

I was very thankful for this hyung, he made my life feel so much easier.

Of course, he wasn't Taehyung.

My parents had become more lenient since I had made it clear I wasn't going to take their . They were afraid of being too strict because I ran away for a day, after Jin gave me the letter, and threatened to never return if they didn't give me more freedom. It also helped that I told them Taehyung had left the country. They let me go out as long as I let them know where I was and that I was safe.

My parents had been having issues about this since I woke up, anyways. My mom wanted to restrict me more but my dad told her to stop coddling me because I was old enough to start being my own man and he wasn't responsible for my misbehavior. He said, in a somewhat demeaning tone, that he had done all he could to teach me the right way and that I was on my own, now. He had also gotten my mom a dog for her birthday, which certainly kept her entertained.

It's not as if my studies were affected. I was still too much of a nerd to slack off like that.

Jin handed me a white paper bag after I took my seat in his car. "I brought you something."

"Ah, hyung, you're the best! I love these!" I said, sticking my nose in the bag of cinnamon-sugar-roasted almonds and inhaling, before popping one into my mouth.

I had developed quite a taste for sweets thanks to Jin, who also loved them. Every week we would visit a bakery, or whatever place sold desserts, to try a new one. As much as we loved trying them, there were some that we simply could not get enough of.

"But if you brought me this, I guess we're not going to the bakery?" I asked as we drove away, leaving that dreadful school behind.

"Actually, I have to go back home so I picked those up for you on the way here. I promised Jenny I would drive her to the airport and see her of in a couple hours. She's visiting with her parents for break. You want to stay the night? It gets lonely out there."

"Sure. I'll just text my mom now, before I forget."

I pinched an almond between my fingertips and brought it to Jin's mouth. He lingered on my fingers, the excess sugar off, before pulling away. 

I scrunched up my nose and wiped my hand on his shirt, making an exaggerated "ugh" sound. He glance at me and blew me a kiss.

"Watch the road, moron." I cried, sticking my tongue out.

He pulled on my ear with one hand. "Use that word at me again and I'll abandon you on a rural highway." He jeered.

I smacked his hand until he finally let go. "Aish, you're so mean, that hurt!"

"Am I mean? How come you like it?" He asked and grabbed my ear again, tugging harder.

I couldn't help but laugh in between fits of whining.

I was used to his abuse. I knew he was always playing around and it wasn't even half as bad as the bullying I got at school. The best part was, I got to talk back to him and he would never really get offended.

Besides the teasing, he treated me a lot better than anyone else did. Sometimes better than Taehyung ever treated me. I guess because he actually made the effort to do little things for me, while Taehyung just kind of sat with me or gave me .

One thing was for sure, being with Jin never felt boring.

Later:

Jin had finally gotten back from the airport.

We lazed around his living room. I played with his cat as he got out his guitar and started strumming it.

He started playing me a song that I liked. I had heard it on the radio in his car, before, and I told him it made me feel happy.

I couldn't stop smiling as I watched. I was used to watching him play but it amazed me, every time.

I started clapping. "Wow, did you learn that song for me?"

He nodded, smiling widely. He got up and took a seat next to me on the couch.

"Ah, I wish I could be good at artistic things." I sighed.

My smile faded, slowly, as he reached out and my cheek. I felt a fluttering in my stomach. Not so much butterflies, but nausea.

I guessed I shouldn't have eaten so many candy almonds.

He cupped my face, leaned in and planted a gentle kiss on my lips. The cat jumped off my lap and scurried away.

I sat there in shock, not daring to kiss him back.

He noticed this and quickly pulled back, furrowing his brows.

"Jungkookie. I can't hold it in, anymore. I like you so much." he uttered, softly.

I couldn't help but feel guilty. He had been nothing but good to me and I felt like an ungrateful brat.

I looked around the room, breaking eye contact. "But...uhm..what about Jenny? She's really nice." I asked, already knowing the answer but wanting to hear it from him. It felt wrong to do this behind his girlfriend's back. I didn't want to be the cause of any drama but I had a feeling this would happen.

"I like her too.. but..you're different. I never thought I could feel this way about a guy but it just feels natural, with you."

"That's kind of what Taehyung told me. Must be a curse." I scratched the back of my head, out of habit, still avoiding his eyes.

Jin groaned in frustration. "Why would it be a curse? It's not a bad thing. Anyways, forget about Taehyung. I'm honestly sick of hearing about him. It's been five months and he hasn't even tried to contact us."

I gasped and jumped to my feet. "What are you talking about? He doesn't even know I'm awake! It's my own fault.." I glared down at him, intently.

He rolled his eyes.. "Just stop it. Stop blaming yourself for someone else's ignorance! You are not a robot who can just take in everyone's burdens and ignore your own true feelings. I've told you this, before."

He held my hands in both of his. "Look, Kookie.. I know what first love is like. It's very hard to forget about that person but you can't live like this." He stood up and continued, raising his voice  "You deserve so much better than him....you're only hurting yourself and I can't stand seeing it! I bet you could die and he wouldn't bat an eyelash."

I pulled my hands away and gave him an impulsive smack across the face.

"No! You're wrong! Taehyung still cares about me! You're just ing jealous that I would choose him over you!" I screamed.

He gaped at me, absolutely enraged and grabbed me, wrestling me to the ground.

I had never seen Jin get so mad. It scared me, quite a bit, but I still tried to struggle.

"You know what? Fine. How about you prove me wrong. Let's hear how much he still cares about you." He pulled his phone out to find the number and clicked 'call' without hesitation.

The phone rang a few times and I prayed he wouldn't answer.

"Heya, Taehyung! It's Jin, I got a new phone." Jin said, faking a cheerful tone.

My eyes widened at the utterance of his name.

"Same old, you know. It's good to hear your voice! Sorry for not calling sooner...uhm..I have someone here who wants to talk to you."

I lifted my head off the wooden floor, mouthing in protest.

He held me down, forcing the phone onto my ear. I tried to move my head away but gave up, quickly, not wanting to be rude to Taehyung.

I tried to steady my heavy breathing. "Tae...um..H-hyung..." I managed, swallowing hard.

"Jungkook?" I heard him say, very faintly. My vision started blurring up with liquid.

I shut my eyes, hard, making the tears fall to the sides. I couldn't think of what to say for awhile. I knew I would regret calling him, which was why I had avoided it for so long.

"I shouldn't have called..I don't wanna bother you I-I just....I'm sorry..." I said, trying to hold back my sobbing.

After a few seconds, Jin brought the phone back to his ear. When he realized there was no reply, he promptly hung up, rolling his body off mine. He stood up and walked away, without a word.

I was left on the ground, drying my tears with my shirt sleeve. I quickly sat up, suddenly feeling extremely nauseous. I wasn't sure what to do, so I forced myself up and followed Jin into his bedroom.

He halted his steps and turned to face me when he noticed my presence.

I couldn't meet his eyes. "I'm sorry, hyung. Please don't leave me alone." I begged, in quiet desperation.

His arms crept around me until he pulled me into an embrace.

He lifted my chin up and stared into my eyes. "I'm sorry, too. I shouldn't have lost my temper, like that."

I nodded in understanding and hugged him back, tightly.

Despite how flawed our relationship had been, I still felt like Taehyung had been the right person for me.

At the time, it felt like we would live happily together, forever, as naive as that sounds.

Before I made that phone call, I still had hope that we could.

When I realized that he couldn't even say my name properly, I couldn't help but feel like a huge burden. If he was that uncomfortable talking to me, there was probably no place for me in his life. I didn't want to believe it but hearing his voice again made it a reality.

Jin was right: he had moved on.

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A/N: I might be addicted to making you guys cry. Does that make me a sadist? ♥ This wasn't that sad to me idk.