She carries her bags and 
Leave the country
The only farewell she received 
Was from her lover mother
She lived 
Tried to kill herself
But somehow 
The wind got in the way
Set a fire to her room
The window broke and let the smoke get out 
Tried to jump off a cliff 
A breeze pushed her back to safety
She Lost all hope.
This child will come to life.


On the other side

Didn't taste sleep for months sehun
Writing letters 
Over and over 
Sending them to the fake address that his mother gave him
There is no reply for months 
He lost all hope
I can't trust my mother anymore
He carries his frustrated body to her office 
S: Mother?
M: yes darling
S: mother~ is the-
M: son, I am kind of busy at the moment
Do you mind ?
S: S-sure~ 
Leaves the room 
Knowing it wouldn't make a difference even if he asked.
....... 
Walking the steps to his room 
With his eyes half opened
He is not giving another chance for a lie
He goes back to the office 
He stops to think about his decision

To receive to shock of his life.
He hears his mother uneasy voice
Troubled and worried.
Asking about someone's health.
M: How is She?
M: Tell me what are you giving her!
M: I don't understand chinese !!!
M: okay-okay speak slowly.
M: she is asleep
M: and how is the Baby?
Sehun
Could hear his own heartbeat.
Slowly collecting the information to create a fact.
China?
Baby?
Soon to be interrupted by his mother shouts
M: A BOY!!!!
M: IT'S A BOY!!!
M: and how much does he weigh? 
M: that's healthy ! That's a healthy number!
M: what are you naming him?
M: L-Luhan!!!! 
M: what a wonderful beautiful name!
sehun who is annoyed by the amount of air he is inhaling.
S: L-Luhan?  
S:LUHAN
His knees got week
His eyes no longer can see the light
Passed out 
On the ground laying
.
Woke up 
Next to his mother who is sitting 
On the chair watching over him

The memories of last night 
Rush back to his head.
He is in a state of shock
His face isn't changing expression 
Hardly capable of breathing 
He leaves the bed
His zombie walk turned into a ghost walk
He isn't making any noise anymore
No stretching 
no humming to songs
He slept listening to.
That sehun died.
His mother wakes up
She can't hear his voice nor his pain
But sure his presence.
Looks at her back
M: Sehun?
S: *not wanting to reply*
S: yes mother.
M: did you sleep well?
Sehun Leaves the room in pure resentment.
How dare she?
How dare she act like she cares.
How dare she pretend that I matter.
Sleep well?
I wish I died in my sleep. and never woke up.!

S: L-Luhan!
He just remembered
He has a son of his own
He turns around 
And goes back to his mother.
M: what brought you back boy? 
S: MY SON!
M: * in shock*
M: YOUR WHAT?!
S: MY SON LUHAN!!!!!!
M: that baby is not Your Son ! And I never want to hear that!!!!
S: I DON'T CARE what you say!!
S: it's Time to tell the truth!!!
M: sits down all cool.
M: what do you want to know?
Sehun with tears covering his eyes.
S: how is she
Where is she?
What made her leave?!
M: first of all,She is doing fine
Quite fine actually
She is in china~
And the reason that she left is something you already know, she got a wedding proposal from a wealthy man.
And her family couldn't be happier 
See all these pictures you took of her
Were quite useful.
And yesterday
She gave birth.
To a healthy beautiful boy
And she named him luhan.
S: thinking it's another lie from her
He knows it.
S: mother?
S: can I at least call her
To congratulate her?
M: sure sure son
M: but she's in the hospital right now
Maybe later.

To sehun.
These words meant everything to him
The fact that he might get the chance to  talk to her
Hear her voice
Was the world for him
But the reality keeps on banging sehun's day dreams.
This is not the first time his mother promised him a call with her. She always do and then changes her mind at some point.

"Mothers hearts are always the same
Care can turn into a war
Of figuring out what's best for her child.

Love?
I had that
And it didn't last.
Trust?
I did that
And it went to ash
Only you
Only you my child will survive 
Only you my child will last 

Oh sehun
You weren't brought into this earth to follow the trace of a worthless woman
And listen to me when I say it.
You Don't need her!

Don't argue too much
I know you want to
But she moved on
So should you.

Become a strong man
Rule the land you always admired
Son,you're a diamond
So valuable 
So precious 
The time I spent raising you
When I could've just let a nanny do it
I said no
I said no to Rest
NO to comfort
Work
Feed
I became a father
When fathers were killing  themselves from the pressure 

Have I complained? 
Have I released a sigh?
My love 
My son
Trust me
A mother's love 
Will never be found 
Not even in the best form of your ideal woman.
No one will wait,care,worry
As I do.
I may sound mad at the moment 
But 
You'll receive this letter 
After I die
Therefore you need to know
The truth.
Liu's child
Is your son
LUHAN is your boy
I am telling you that 
With the knowledge that you will not go after him
You will leave him alone

Every sunday
I receive a new picture of him
I will leave you the key to my drawer that keeps all the pictures
I am too old my son 
To keep such a secret.

Madam oh wrote her will on that day
Not knowing what the future has on hold
For them.

Sehun on the other way 
Can't speak or talk like humans
Storms hit the town every now and then
Until one day
Sehun found the lady who lied about being liu's parent
He ran to her
Scaring her
FP:(fake parent)
Dear Lord
What are you doing young man?!
S: you! You!
P: what? 
S: you are the one who knows liu!
P: I know a lot of people please specify!
S: she has black hair!
P: who doesn't?
S: she's polite,smart,pretty
P: doesn't she have a FACE describe the
Face!
..... 
   
And It was that moment 
When sehun 
Could not remember her face
Just the white dress
And her pale long legs.
He is rushing back to his memory
Trying to remember an expression 
But nothing
But a white halo floats around her head.

A moment of pure silence grasps his mind as he feels distant and neglected from the word.

"Have I forgotten about her
Have I forgotten her face 
What about her eyes
How could I forget her eyes" sehun thinks to him self as he walk slowly away from the woman and covering his mouth from the shock.

As stormy as it is on december 
It got even worse
That it cracked the windows 
And moved the roots

Sehun's high house is no exception
The windows broke 
Inviting the storm to make a ghost party and gave soul to papers 
Danced in circles is what they did
And rested in beds of broken glass
....

Went back to his room
Lifeless sehun
Can't think of a happy memory that won't make him cry

"Better occupy myself" he said to himself
Going to help setting the new glass for the windows.

Sehun and the workers started working at 12pm
And when the sun started setting 
They finally decided to fix the sunniest room in the house
The mother's office 
There they find loads of papers 
And papers 
Wrapped in broken glass
Everyone is taking a chance to pick up a paper not a glass

Most of the work is done
Whenever they think they are done
A paper comes out of nowhere 
As the papers kept on taking turns 
Let's see who's the lucky one who'll come out on  sehun's turn
The mother's will 
Is the lucky one
It had been waiting it's turn for quite some time.

"To My sehun" the letter said.
He picks it up 
Dust it off 
And did you know at that time 
His mother was on vacation? 
Yes yes
That is the time where all the vvips would celebrate christmas and talk about vvip stuff
As tired as he is
He wants to ignore it
Thinking it's probably another greeting card~ 
But when he turned it
And saw the year it was meant to be opened on 
Left nothing but a curious frown on our pale faced angel.

Opening it 
Slowly feeling his heart beating on his throat
Why do I feel this way
Why does it seem off?

So he starts reading the first lines 

"Mothers hearts are always the same
Care can turn into a war
Of figuring out what's best for her child."

He is done reading 
The entire thing
The confession
He reads it one more time
This has to be a lie
This is no reality 
L-Luhan! 
Oh no.
Oh no!
He takes the letter 
And runs up to his room
Reading it again
It's my mother's handwriting 
It's my mother's signature
Why did she want me to receive it that late!

Now It's not only liu's name that's hunting sehun's head
It's luhan
Walking in circles
Covering his eyes
Holding his head
Looks outside the window 
And looks straight at the lake
.......     
I miss you
Were the only words that roamed around his head
His memories that's fading
And all the marks that they left for each other...FADING 
Wants to keep a piece of that memory 
Sehun grabs his envelope opener 
And scraps down the wood on the window frame
Writing both love of his life names.
L-i-u.
L-u-h-a-n 
....