There is an end of all ends but our end is unlikely to have an end, life doesn't have an end, not one we know of and have witnessed, the end of tavia, sehun, kyungsoo, chen, luhan and liu was as simple as that life just took it's course, tavia passed with a smile on her face and a friend to greet, kyunsoo was holding their daughter, she's 3 month's old and as beautiful as the moon, his tears fell quietly trying not to startle his sleeping daughter, mary they called her the shortcut of maryam, maryam an Arabic name chosen by tavia who was lately fascinated by the Arabic culture which came along with her interest in religion, she prayed that her daughter would be as pure and virtues as the mary and be guarded by the lord like the mother of Issa, that's the Arabic name for Jesus, issa the son of maryam, she smiled as she was writing down another letter to her daughter, telling her the reason for the odd name, "it wasn't odd at all it's the history of your own blood child" 
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sometimes tavia drew for her daughter sometimes she recorded songs and voice notes, but mostly she wrote, and each letter ended with a dried spot of tears, each letter held a date, tavia wrote letters to days she prays her daughter see days that she hasn't witnessed for her age yet, when she turned thirty tavia had a letter for that asking her what is it like to be neat and wise, she told her she wished that she had seen nice days, she wished her she had met the love of her life but more she had more to say, more things to confess things that gave a reason to the random sights mary would see, mary often told her trusted uncle chen who's like a father to her about the dreams that she'd get and once, mary remembers he told her they weren't dreams
it was the rehearsal of her wedding, that wedding, that never happened, mary saw a lady in a pretty black dress she was young abs beautiful, she asked her finance to come with her to greet the lady, 

there was no lady!

he left her, he had been having an affair and well when she turned out to be a bit odd, he had escaped putting his parents in an embarrassing situation with both of their families, chen and her father both promised they'd kill him once they see him, mary lives alone now she works for a law office and her just blew off her 30th birthday candles around all her happy colleague s some even whispered, "she's 30 and single, how pathetic" they were all envious of her, she had the sharpness of her mother and well she got payed seven figures as an annual check, and just because she isn't married it doesn't mean she's not seeing someone, in fact she was seeing quite the funny things, in her dream she would see herself spending time with a frail white skinned boy with blonde hair, she always wondered why doesn't he age with her, or at least a different dream, it was always that one breath taking dream when he was taking off her cloths on a dim room standing before a mirror, she heard herself calling for his name she remembers as its something like "sehun", she laughs at herself whenever she remembers how she waited to dream that dream in some nights.

she's now at her apartment, holding a whine class and cutting into her birthday cake a cheese cake she had some love for that creamy savory flavor of the cheese sweetened by the very sweet sticky thing that always topped it, it wired wonders with her most favorite whine. she remembered something, a letter, a letter from my mother, she nearly smashed the whine glass as she settled it on the coffee table and started to walk around her new apartment, she was wondering around, is it on the bed room? the study? her thoughts were suddenly cut by a call, she answered ans she smiled, "as if he knows when i need him" she thought.
"hey daddy" 
"hey honey, i'm sorry i didn't call earlier" his voice was shaking and his breath was ragged as if he was running away from something. "i just remembered your mother wrote you a letter for your birthday, and i was looking for it all day" her eyes widened as she pushed her phone closer to her face, she felt as if words cant form yet on but she heard her voice speak and it made seasonable words " dad, aren't all the letters with me?" she closed her lips and he could hear her questioning breath over the phone, his voice deepened like he's about to tell the most truest thing and his breath studied "the opened ones" she frowned, "oh!" she said, and she did sound mad when she said it but she wouldn't dare to stretch her tongue on the man who was both a mother and a father to her, " well dad" her tone softened, "i was looking for it myself, and you called" she released a relived sigh, she didn't know why was she relived by her father's call, was it because it reminded her not to worry so much, yet to care abut those who're living, those who stayed enough to have their feelings hurt or lifted? kyungsoo didn't say anything at first but she could feel her father smiling, "i found it" he said almost grinning, "OH!" an exited one, she smiled as her posture softened than her hard stance seconds before, "thank you dad!!" she almost jumped in her place, she heard his chuckle over the phone as he told her, " your uncle and i are home tonight, how long will it take you to get here?" he asked, she smiled as she said " according to the review of my new car it can shorten a 90 minutes ride to 30, i believe i'll see you guys in 10" 
"hey hey there!" he sounded upset, "don't let your madness of speed takes you too far, i want to see my daughter intact" 
"okay mother" she laughed as she hung up
she arrived in 8 minutes, "good thing you guys moved closer to me" she said as she took off her white leather jacket and her long legs just wandered around the unfamiliar house, the furniture was the same, yet placed so oddly it seems like they've pointed out all the angles she didn't see on the old house, "welcome,welcome" said a face with an ageless smile that didn't seem to change despite the years that came, she jumped and rand for a squishing hug, her uncle was shorter but wider, he was a bit rounded, mary always felt tingles as she squished him till he nearly chocked on his breath, and planted endless kisses on both sides of his cheeks remembering the times she'd come home from school and he's shower her with the same love she's showing now, "easy easy on chen now mary" her father came with three whine glasses, he sounded quite cheerful than his usual self, his glasses reflected her and her strong embrace on her favorite uncle, she slowly began letting go of him as she saw his face turning tomato red, she squinted his eyes at him in a sign of adornment, her father was holding so many things she couldn't help it but to run to help him with the glasses and sneaked a kiss on the cheek for him "only one?" he sounded faking doubtless "if only i get half of the love chen gets" he put the glasses down as he straightened his back and took a long look at mary her figure froze both in fear of and amazement, her father never failed to frighten her when his face turned expressionless,  "let's take a look at you" he finally said as he took one of her arms and turned her around, "you've gained weight recently" she face flushed as she blinked in embarrassment "she looks fine to me" smiled her favorite uncle, mary turned to face her uncle "he always teases me about my body" she cried. "that's because, he's mad that he's not feeding you anymore" he smirked at kyungsoo who flushed by that comment he pointed at chen as he said "be careful not to bite the hand that's feeding you" he narrowed his wide eyes at chen, chen waved him off as he pointed mary to sit, she sat down with her knees aiming higher than both of her uncle and father, her legs had an elegant length that drew stares into them from both men and women, she always wondered who did she take after, after all in the pictures she saw of her belated bother she was the same height as her father, she was even shorter, she read a study about how people inherited their height from their grandparents, she met both her grandparents, none had the extreme height factor that could contribute to her tall creation , "i see you're looking for you're mother's letter" her father's deep tone scaring her again "if i hadn't told you about the letter you wouldn't have come to visit us at all" he raised his voice, a tear formed on mary's eye as she tried to find the words to speak, chen gave her a back hug and she felt as safe as the child she was "KYUNGSOO! you frightened our only daughter!!! look at her pale cheeks!" 
kyungsoo didn't want to look and kept his stare fixed on the reflection of the whine glass, mary sniffed then she began to talk, " dad i didn't mean to abandon you, or not to come to think of you" she paused " it's just that I've been too busy to even take care of my own self she reached to hold her father's hand, but he pulled it away "save or for another time, i don't buy it" he scuffed her off, she was taken aback by his reply that her lips dried she blinked to process what's going on and then he turned to face her to talk " it's not like we need money!, why do you keep working so hard?" he frowned it was a questioning one, she couldn't think of a reasonable reason to reply him, she bit hard on her teeth and looked at the ground she clearly know's she's been neglecting her family because of her work, and there's no explanation, the air suddenly felt thick as if all the air in the living room wasn't meant for breathing her eyes blood red tears began to drop fast and hard, like rain on a thunderstorm, "i'm sorry" was all she was able to muster from her uneven voice, chen was shocked so was her father, they don't know the stressful lifestyle she's been exposed to daily they don't know how long she waited for this day her thirtieth birthday the day she'd open the last letter her mother wrote for her, and after that, every new communication from her mother would be old used and outdated, she hated to think of that, hated to think about the last letter, the last will the last words her mother could store for her she had always hoped that she'd find another stack of unopened letters to open and read them all over night and feel her mother presence once again she hoped dreamed and was the only thing she fancied about, girls dreamed of dreamy boys, pink dresses pink wrapped gifts but mary only wanted to get that feeling back of her mother surrounding her, watching over her. 

"the last letter" she said with both hands curled into her father's "it's there on the desk of the study" he pointed to a room in the dark only lit by a faint yellow light that grew brighter as she got closer, oval and brown was her father's desk, she saw the letter unsealed, just like the rest of them, she loved the trust that was between her parents, she knew her father wouldn't read any of them for the word he gave her mother, she took the letter and sat on the leather chair, it swung  to the back a bit but not to trip her just a bit to rest her back as she lifted her legs to her chest, she always sat like that when she read her mother's letters, "dear mary, i write you with little fear in my heart, i know you'll be fine, i know you'll be healthy and successful for tho I've never seen kyungsoo my lover, mistreat anything or anyone ever, i am assured that you're fine.
you are meant to read this on your thirtieth birthday, you know that you're older than i am at the moment, hahaha i hope the fact that you're aging isn't a sensitive spot for you as it is for most ladies i know, i wonder how was your day" 
mary began to wipe a tear off her flushed cheek 
"did you eat well? what type of cake did you eat?" "a cheese cake" whispered mary as she sniffed
"i wonder about a lot of things but the most important is that if i'll be able t watch over you when i pass, i want to know all these questions i've asked myself, i began reading holy books that i took from my parents library and i figured if you're a good person you can go to heaven and watch over your loved ones from there, this shakes me, because my dear i haven't been much of a good person recently" mary snorted a laugh at her mother who used the term recently for something that happened 30 years ago " i.." the pen color changed it seemed like she stopped at the "I" and then stopped writing for a while until she got back to it, "i, read a good person is a person who doesn't cheat, doesn't lie and doesn't steal, i didn't steal, well maybe i did, but i did cheat, i cheated on your father kyunsoo, i know he wont be reading this because before i began writing this part i made sure he swore to me not to read any of the letters i address to you" 
that explained the change of the color of her pen, making him promise not to open the letters after her death sure took a while
"i don't know who was first, chen or sehun" mary head spun
"chen? THE UNCLE CHEN?!" she wondered if her father had known about this, her hands were on her temple as she proceeded  to read "i had just found out about my fatal disease  and my parents left me alone and chen was with me that night" mary paused reading and looked at a mirror opposite her face, and thought "night!?? as far as i know i could be the child of chen?!!!" she looked down at the letter and almost grasped at the next line.
"don't worry, we didn't do it" her eyes widened as she gave an amazed look at the letter, "how can she know me so well when i haven't met her" 
"it's the mother's heart" mary was now astonished by the letter it almost felt like her mother was standing before her and answering her mind! "or maybe a mere coincidence,, i just know that how i would react.. 
and you're my daughter after all" mary smiled a comforted smile she took a long breath before  she read the rest, "chen and i shared a moment, a little spark was lit between us when i was scared and lost, i didn't feel guilty to your father because he had left me when i clearly asked for him but guilt is piling up in me right now, the more i think of you the more guilt clutches on my heart, it;s like stealing my heartbeats away not allowing me to drew breaths of comfort there by i write you this my child the last letter, my letter of confession "i slept with a ghost named sehun, i don't know if it's sane to write you the following but i only ask for the lord's forgiveness and then you" mary frowned with more interest "he has a pale handsome figure, he is frail yet tall, it was on a dark night, all i remember was the mirror and calling out his name" mary gasped as she held in a sign of shock and disbelief, her breath was racing to know what would change her reality forever, "you are a part of him you know mary?, i just didn't know how it worked back then, he did it to help me, he explained what had happened and left without a sign, i hope you don't hate me after you fold down this letter and look at me with only the best in mind for i have been a reckless teenager back then and wanted nothing but to divert my attention from the fact that i am dying and used all that i can find, including people, and my friend" she saw the trade mark of her mother's letters a dried used to be damp spot, easy to find on paper, yet on this letter it was a dried damp spots all over the letter mary drew a really long breath and scratched her head, she didn't know what use did that ghost bring, she began coughing and chocking to nothing but air the sounds of her coughing got louder and louder as she tried to leave the room she stumbled over some papers and fell after them, coughing and twisting and scratching her arm, her father and uncle ran to her asking her whats wrong, when kyungsoo saw her red arm and long scratches marks were showing dots of blood over her arms length, he ran to his room the cabinets of medicine, he found what he was looking for he ran to mary who's now screeching for thin air, his eyes filled with tears to see his daughter in such pain, he opened the cap and got a pill or two and shoved them into , she was coughing hard enough unable to swallow air, she couldn't take the pills but with some calming from her father she was able to swallow, her coughs calmed down a bit and then she laid helplessly on the floor unconscious salivating on the floor, then chen yelled " IT'S EXPIRED!!!" he threw the bottle to the wall in fury but kyungsoo didn't seem to grasp what was going on he was fighting for air as well as he looked down his own daughter foaming mouth
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it wasn't moment's later until she woke up next to a sleeping uncle on a chair and an awake praying father by her side, her eyes looked around, her eyes seemed like the only thing that she could control or feel at the moment then the pinch of pain pain was everywhere it felt like fire on , she realized there was a tube on allowing her to breath, a needle on her left arm that she fed on for the past night, a tear escaped her eye as she looked at her palm joining father, he was praying with his eyes closed so sincerely , he was holding hand she figured a hand that's pale and washed off she hated the sight of that hand then she tracked to see where it belonged and she was shocked to find that it's her's, she looked over at her sleeping uncle behind him where brown lit curtains by the sunlight, she fixed her gaze on two individuals that looked familiar yet so new, it was the very first time to see the frail man so clear, or the lady that looked a lot like her young self, she gasped as she pointed at them who were just as shocked of her ability to see them, kyungsoo noticed her gasp it was a loud one specially  when that tube is in , it made a hollow sound, kyungsoo rose form him posture and went to look at mary's terrified face, he kissed her head as he brushed her hair and said, "you got an allergic reaction from the cake you ate, food poisoning and you took an expired pill." he paused for a moment "which i gave to you with the rush of fear that i had" mary's expression softened as she took her left hand to rest it on her father's that had his hands on her shoulder, tears of relive roll on the sides of her face. 

THE END