i heard of a good news about ji

 

i heard bigbang is forming a band

 

well that's nice

 

at least he's moving on

 

little by little

 

i can't help myself but go to him

 

watch him

 

 

 

yeah i went to that restaurant they're performing at

 

i disguised

well getting used to this hiding-myself thingy!!

 

 

i just hope he wouldn't notice me

 

then i saw them on stage

 

and began singing

 

 

those two songs

 

 

i felt it

 

 

ji i'm sorry

 

 

it's not like that ji

 

 

it's not a lie ji!!

it's not!!

 

i can't take it,i can feel ji's pain through the song

 

i went out

 

stayed there until i saw them leave

 

ji was alone

 

will i follow him??

 

 

 

 

i did

 

 

i followed him

 

 a group of men blocked his way

 

i hid at a lampost

 

 

then they stared hitting ji!!

 

omo!!ji!!

 

then they left

 

 

i guess that's my cue

 

 

i changed to my black hood

 

"you again??"

yes ji i'm always here

i started treating his wounds

 

"who are you??"

 

i didn't replied

 

"hey!!answer me you bastard!!!"

 

"show me your face you stupid coward!!"

 

"are you ugly??are you a ghost??"

 

"HEY!!"

 

 

if i only i could show my face to you

if only i can be with you

 

"have you fallen in love??"

 

"you know i love this girl,but she left me"

 

"that girl changed me,i thought she loved me but it's all a lie.i'm a fool,right??you can laugh at me GO ON!!I AM SUCH A

STUPID JERK!!but you know why??i still love her...bigtime!!she still holds my heart...my aching heart!!!but she's in another man's arms now!!can't bring her back anymore...she will not come back"

 

ji no it's me!!i'm the fool ji!!i'm weak!!i'll just leave and hurt you!!

i cried good thing i was  wearing a mask

 

i stood

 

"hey!!"

 

he hold my hand

 

this feeling

 

 

his hand with mine

 

i want to intertwine it with mine

 

 

i wish i could make this a liitle bit longer

this is so familiar

 

but it has to stop!!

 

 

i took it and ran

 

 

i took my mask off tears flowing down my cheeks

 

i sat on the street

 

 

crying my heart out

 

 

i just wish my tears would wash away everything off

 

why does this have to happen to me!!

 

 

it hurts like hell!!

 

i can't be the one i love

 

that's the worst feeling

 

you see him

he's just there

 

but you can't be with him

 

the worst part is

 

 

 

 

you have to hurt him

 

 

am i doing the right thing??

 

but i'm just gonna ruin his life!!

 

 

arrgghhh!!

 

 

i don't wanna live anymore!!

 

 

i saw a hand on my shoulder

 

 

"ji??"

 

i unconsciously said

 

but it's donghae

 

"no dara it's me"

 

"donghae!!"

 

i hugged him tight

crying on him

 

"go on just cry it all out.i'm just here"

 

i just cried on him non stop

 

at least my life has still something right at this moment

 

and that's donghae

 

 

donghae's pov

 

 

i saw her sitting on the street crying

 

"ji??"

 

i smiled bitterly

 

"no it's me"

 

"donghae!!!"

 

 

she hugged me

 

 

and cried

 

"go on just cry it all out.i'm just here"

 

i can feel her tears

 

my heart is aching right now

 

for her i'm just a friend

 

a friend she can lean on anytime

 

well i guess i have to accept that

 

that's my destiny

 

dara i'm just here

otakuFG