double update for this day wohoo!!

 

 

 

 

since we are now regular performers at the restaurant we will perform there again tonight

 

"hyung what happened to your face??"-seungri

 

"ahh nothing"

 

'are you okay??sure you can perform tonight??"-top

 

"i'm okay hyung,im a gangster"

 

 

then everyone went silent

 

 

"oh c'mon guys !!i mean in my past!!im gonna start a new life now!!"

 

"nice to hear that"-top

 

 

then it's our time to perform again

 

 

destiny is really playing it's game on me

 

 

donghae and dara came

 

 

we caught each other's eyes

 

 

dara's eyes widened but looked away

 

 

how i wish i can look at you a little longer :(

 

 

"good evening everyone!!hope you are enjoying your stay here.we're bigbang and we're about to grace your evening people"

"our first song is my original..yes i wrote it it's title is butterfly..it's for the girl i truly love.to my one and only princess ,this is for you.well i see a lot of couples here ,huh.hope you'll enjoy it"

 

then we started singing

 

It’s all about you, my Butterfly
Every time I come close to you
(every time I’m feeling you)
Feel like I’m gonna dream every time
( I get butterly)

Unintentionally, I look the sky like
It looks similar to when you smile
Specifically your dazzling [smile] baby
My day consists of our romantic drama
Make me cry and smile no no no

I can’t sleep, I call your name
I turn my head shyly (no matter what)
I like it this much
I rarely stop walking

Every time I come close to you
(every time I’m kissing you)
Feel like I’m gonna dream every time
( I get butterfly)

Beautiful girl

Unintentionally, I look at the ground like
I flutter so much at your 3 lettered name baby
I’ll heal your one small wounds
My love is you

Like a butterfly
You look for a flower, flutter around like a child
Your innocent eyes have a smile
Your body moves like the sky, the sky
Your eyes glimmer, glimmer
I’ve become like this
(You’re the only one girl)

Every time I come close to you
(every time I’m holding you)
Feel like I’m gonna dream every time
( I get butterly)

I’ll promise the things I promise
We missed each other, and it makes me worry
Just to know the game it’s all the same
What, it’s this confusing
Though you can’t trust guys
Love can be forever
Why do you push and pull
Can’t act any more honest

Look at my eyes
You see my eyes
You see my lips
Listen to my heart
If you’re listening answer me
Kiss me on the cheek
My memories
Yes my heart
Yes that be all I say
If our lovingness continues a lot
Then we’ll never break up, trust me
I’ll make love to you

Every time I come close to you
(every time I’m feeling you)
Feel like I’m gonna dream every time
( I get butterly)

Ye you’re special to me
Your turn
La la la la la la la
Yeah my butterfly

 

 

 

i can't help myself to look at her

 

but she's having a good time with donghae

 

she probably didn't pay much attention to my song

 

 

but then this night is just starting

 

 

 

donghae stood

 

took a small box from his pocket which made dara shocked

 

 

then he knelt

 

 

 

i felt goosebumps cover up my body

 

 

i can hear him from the stage

 

 

"dara, i know i left you for a long time and i will not repeat the same mistakes again.i wanna share the rest of my life with

you,will you marry me??"

 

my world crashed for the nth time

 

i looked at dara

 

people are cheering

 

"SAY YES!!SAY YES!!"

 

her face was too confused

 

 

please say no!

 

no!!please!!

 

say you'll come back to me!!

 

 

please!!!

 

please!!

 

 

 

but then she answered

 

"yes donghae!!i'm going to marry you!!"

 

i'm can feel my heart torn into pieces

 

i ran

 

"hyung"-seungri

 

"let him go"-top

 

 

i ran and ran with tears streaming down my face

 

 

i stopped at a dark corner

 

i rested my back on the wall

and cried hard

 

 

 

"arrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhh!!!"

 

 

i punched the wall

 

 

and then i went to my comfort place again,the  club

 

i saw everyone having a good time

danicng,drinking

 

i kissed the very first girl i saw there

 

she kissed me back

 

 

it lasted for a few minutes

 

and then i let go

 

 

"hey there don't leave i like you"

 

"GO TO HELL!!I DON'T LIKE YOU!!YOU FILTHY !!!"

 

 

her eyes widened in shock

 

 

i went straight to the counter and ordered a drink

 

"give me the hardest drink you have there!!"

 

i am not able to count how many glasses i drank

 

i just drink and drink

and kissed a lot of girls that night

 

 

the pain is too much

 

does that really have to happen in front of me!!!

 

that's the most painful slap i've ever had!!

 

 

B***SH**!!!!

 

this life is too annoying!!

 

 

my life is a disaster!!

 

 

this is hell already!!

 

the pain is too much for me to handle!!

 

 

i can't do this anymore!!

 

 

i went home

 

 

i opened one of my drawers  and took the thing i kept for a long time now

 

 

 

gun

 

 

 

 

i'm gonna end everything now!!

 

i saw a picture frame with our picture of dara in it

 

"princess,*cries*why??do you really have to hurt me this much??what have i done??WHAT!!!don't worry i will not bother you anymore.just be happy okay.I LOVE YOU DARA!!"

 

i pointed the gun on my head

 

my finger was now on the trigger

 

 

i closed my eyes

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"HYUNG!!!!"-seungri

 

 

i opened my eyes and saw my gang there

 

top hyung rushed to me and took my gun away

 

"give me that hyung!!"

 

"no!!are you insane!!"-top

 

"you don't understand hyung!!i can't do this anymore!!it's too much!!i wanna end everything now!!i wanna end this crappy life of mine!!give my f**k*** gun back!!"

 

"JIYONG!!!"-top

 

he's crying already

 

"hyung.."

 

"please don't do this..there are people who still care and love you!!we,bigbang,since childhood we were together.we are more than willing to help you!!can't you see our efforts since that day to comfort you!!to back you up!!please don't be too selfish!!"

 

 

i can see the others crying,too

 

"i'm sorry guys"

 

i buried my face on my knees and cried

 

"i'm sorry"

 

 

i felt them hugging me

 

"hyung please don't kill yourself we are just here for you"-seungri

 

 

 

 

 

when everyone is now calm,i asked about this contest on tv

 

"have you seen the new contest on tv??"

 

"oh you mean X FACTOR KOREA??"-taeyang

 

"yeah that's it!!"

 

"they say if you'll win that you're going to be sent to japan and start a career there"-daesung

 

"we're gonna join that contest"

 

"are you sure??"-top

 

"yes hyung!!as your leader,i'm gonna do all to make bigbang a huge star!!"

 

 

 

 

japan??nice place huh!!

 

we have to win

 

it's an oppurtunity for us to succeed

 

to be famous

 

 

and an oppurtunity for me to move on

 

if i'm far,it will be easier for me to move on

 

 

to forget

 

 

 

"so BIGBANG IS IT A CALL??"

 

"YES!!"-

 

"BRING IT ON!!"

 

 

 

 

 

A/N

 

 

second update for this day

 

hope you like it :))

 

the secrets are about to be revealed guys :))

 

btw

 

who has twitter here's mine

@HAErt1520

 

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