everything that happened today was so unreal

all this time i was so clueless of everything

but i can't make myself angry

even if she kept an important thing from me

i deserve to know that

but that she's gone all i feel is guilt

maybe i shouldn't have left

there must have been a possibility for a better outcome

 

but regrets will not bring back what's gone it will only worsen the present

 

all i know now is the best part of all of this

 

KONGJU

 

the best gift dara ever gave to me

 

"appa swing!!"

 

she sat down

 

"are you ready??"

 

she looked at me bitting her lip smiling

she nod

 

"hana,dul,set!!"

 

"yey!!"

 

she giggled as with her hands up

 

she stood and pulled the ends of my shirt

 

"appa slide"

 

"kaja!!"

 

we walked hand in hand

 

"appa i'll climb here you wait for me there"

 

i positioned at the end of the slide

 

"appa ready??"

i stretched my arms

 

she slide down with her hands up

"yey!!"

 

"gotcha!!"

 

i caught her and trapped her in my arms

 

"appa *kiss* love *kiss* kongju *kiss* a *kiss* lot!!"

 

"kongju loves appa too!!mwah!!"

 

"appa monkey bars"

 

she ran

"appa can't reach"

 

she jumped trying to reach the bars

 

i lifted her up and put her on my shoulders

 

"appa too high im scared"

"it's okay im here.im gonna catch you!!"

 

we played there the whole day

trying to cover up for all those days we were not together

 

she talks a lot

she said everything about herself

 

then she fell asleep on my shoulders

 

we reached their house

 

i placed her on her bed

 

i sat down on her bed

 

i look at her more closely

 

she looks like dara a lot

it's like it's dara im staring at now

 a tear escaped out of my eyes

 

"sleep tight princess"

 

been quite a while since i called someone princess

 

my leg hit something under her bed

 

i took it

 

it's a box

 

i opened it

 

it's a jacket

a black hoody jacket

 

this is black hood

the one treating my wounds everytime

 

could it be??

 

"appa,what are you doing with umma's jacket??"

"this is dara's"

 

"neh daddy donghae said it's important to umma that's why it is kept there"

 

i looked at the jancket im holding

 

buried my face on it  and cried

 

it's dara

 

that's why her hands felt so familiar

 

that's why!!

 

 

"im sorry princess !!im sorry!!why didn't you tell me"

 

"appa wae??you can have it ,if you like it just don't cry please"

 

kongju's voice was breaking i know she's crying now

begging me to stop crying

 

appa can't stop his tears kongju

if you only knew what happened

 

 

"DADDY DONGHAE!!DADDY DONGHAE!!"

 

hae came

 

"kongju wae??!!"

"appa is crying !!he won't stop!!please make him stop*sobs*"

"kongju appa needs a time alone"

"NO!!"

 

"kongju let's.."

 

"I SAID NO!! I WILL NOT LEAVE APPA !!HE'S CRYING CAN'T YOU SEE!!APPA NEEDS KONGJU !!"

she turned her back at donghae with folded arms

 

i called her

"kongju"

 

i put my hands on her shoulders

 

"you're gonna stay with appa??"

"neh"

"even if it's appa wholeft you first??"

"neh"

"even if because appa is not here,kids bully you??"

"neh"

"why??"

 

"because i love appa!!"

 

i hugged her tight

 

"appa loves you too!!"

 

 

A/N

 

sorry for not updating yesterday

:(

 

well  2 or 3 more chappies??i guess

hope you're enjoying it!!

 

aight!!

otakuFG