dara's pov

 

 

i am now at the restaurant i texted ji we're gonna meet at

 

"sure princess,miss you already can't wait to see you!!see ya later my love!!saranghae!!"

 

that's his reply on my text

he loves me

 

 

 

but i have to do this

 

 

 

 

 

it's for him too

 

 

 

 

i hope he can forgive me

 

 

 

ji

 

 

 

"DARA!"

 

 

i heard his voice

 

 

he's here

 

 

he kissed my cheek and sat down

 

 

i'm gonna miss this

 

 

"ji,i have to tell you something"

"later let's order first"

"but..."

 

 

"i'm hungry :3"


"araso"

 

 

then a waiter came and took our orders

 

i wish our order will a liitle bit late

 

but then it came

 

have to say it

 

"ji,you have to know something"

"what is it??"

 

i felt pain in my heart

 

this hurts me too but i have to

 

i took a deep breath

 

 

i guess ji noticed my discomfort

 

he touched my cheeks and looked straight to my eyes

 

her gentle touch that calms and her eyes seems to tell me how much he lovesme

 

 

ji,i'm sorry :(

 

"princess what is it??tell me"

 

i removed his hand

 

"let's end this,ji"

"end what dara??our meal??don't you like the food??then let's go to other restaurant"

"let's break up"

 

 

i said it

 

the most painful i said all my life

he giggled

"nice joke dara hahaha!!"

"no jiyong.i'm serious"

 

 

i wish i am just joking ji but i'm not

 

he began to cry

 

ji,please stop

 

you don't know how much it hurts me more

 

"dara no.please don't do this.why??have i done something wrong??what??dara please i can't live without you please"

 

i can't too but ji it'sfor you too

 

 

my tears are about to fall too

 

i looked at the floor to atleast stop them

 

"ji,you have done nothing.it's me"

"i don't understand"

"there's a guy i used to be with since i was little.i fell in love with that guy even at a young age.but he left.and now he's back"

"SO NOW YOU'RE THROWING ME AWAY BECAUSE HE'S BACK!!I'M THE ONE WHO'S WITH YOU WHILE HE'S NOWHERE.SHE LEFT YOU SANDARA!!"

 

he shouted

 

"i'm sorry jiyong.he promised not to leave me again"

"I'M ONLY A REBOUND!!I GET IT!!I'M A PASTIME!!JUST TO COVER HIS DISAPPEARANCE!! I GET IT!!"

 

i can't stay here anymore i took my bag and stood

 

"ji i've said what i have to sayi'm going"

 

i turned my back

 

but he hold my hand

 

and hugged me

 

i can feel his tears on my clothes

 

my heart hurt even more

 

 

ji,i'm sorry :(

 

"please my princess don't leave me please!!!i love you!!i need you!!"

 

i need you too,ji.especially now but you'll only get hurt if you stay with me

 

he made me look at him

 

he knelt still holding my hand

 

"please dara.i'm begging you"

 

i can feel his pain

it hurts me more to see him like that

i took my hand and walked away

 

i still heard him shout

 

"SANDARA!!!PLEASE COME BACK!!"

 

but i can't

i was already crying then

and if you see my cry

my plan will be ruined

 

i went home and cried hard

 

hugging my pillow tight

 

ji i love you but i have to do this

 

don't want to see you suffer because of me

 

then donghae came

 

"dara,you already talked to him??"

 

i looked at him and nod

 

he hugged me as i cry on him

 

"dara don't worry i'm here for you"

 

"i love him but i can't continue loving him ,i will just hurt him.i'm sorry i have to use you,too"

 

"it's okay"

 

i know you have a bad impression on me

maybe you curse me because of what i did

but i have a reason for that

 

i was diagnosed with brain cancer

 

the chance of survival is too little

 

 

i'm dying

 

 

i love jiyong so much i can't tell him about my condition

 

i know it's hard to understand

 

but i can't see him suffering

i rather go through this on my own than hurt him

 

good thing my long lost childhood bestfriend donghae came back

 

i asked her to act as my new boyfriend to push ji away

 

i know it's selfish

maybe a little bit evil

 

but i have to do this

 

it hurts me more

 

 

but i can't help myself but still care about him

 

 

everynight, i watch him erverytime he goes to this club

i watch him without his knowledge

 

he returned to his old life

 

the life i once took him out

 

i don't know if what i did is right but he will hurt more if i will not do this

 

everytime he gets into fights

 

i go to him wearing this black hoody jacket and a mask

 

there was one time when he asked who i am

"who..... are......you??"

 

i didn't replied

he might recognize my voice if i speak

 

after i treated him i left

 

"yah!!come back here!!who the hell are you!!"

 

i continued walking

tears flowing continously

 

those wounds and bruises are severe

 

does it hurt ji??

 

if only i can be with you again

 

then i heard hims shouting

 

"SANDARA!!!"

 

"SANDARA!!"

 

"SANDARA!!!"

 

"SANDARA!!"

 

"SANDARA!!"

 

"COME BACK PLEASE!!!I LOVE YOU!!"

 

 

 

 

 he's calling me

you don't know how much i wanna be with you right now

i wanna hug you tight and never ever let you go but we can't be together ji

 

you have to learn to live without me

 

i'll just leave you

 

 

"i'm sorry you have to see your father like that"

 

yes, i'm pregnant

 

that makes my condition more complicated

 

the doctor already asked i will continue with the baby

 

but i will

 

even if it costs my life

 

it's the only memory i have for jiyong

 

the baby is ours

 

 

 

 

 

I'M SORRY JI :(

 

A/N

 

so guys the next chapters will dara's part

a few hae povs though

 

so yeah dara is black hood

 

hope you like it:))

 

otakuFG