"what do you want me to do sir??"

 

"color it red,i want my hair to be red!!"

 

"are you sure sir??"

 

'just do it,stupid!!"

 

i decided to color my hair red

 

red i such a strong color

it also means danger

so whoever dares to get on my way,goodluck,cause you're dead!!

 

i went out of the shop

 

my phone rang

it's seungri calling

 

"yeoboseyo??"

 

"hyung!!"

 

he screamed loudly on phone

 

"damn it seungri!!are you gay??!!you scream like a girl!!"

 

"mian hyung"

 

"fine then,why??"

"hyung i just called....ummm... just in case ....umm you know .....ahhh the proposal..you know"

 

seungri is really getting on my nerves with that band thing

 

"NO !!FOR THE NTH TIME!!NO!!"

 

 

"fine!!!well just have dinner with us it's top hyung's birhtday"

"okay i'll be there"

 

"yey!!"

 

"will act your age seungri!!"

 

"whatever hyung!!bye"

 

"bye"

 

the call ended

 

it's been a while since the last time we hangout

 

they're my gang

 

i might act rude to them but they mean a lot to me

 

and i know they will not leave me

 

unlike.....

 

 

ARGHH forget it :<

 

i went to the restaurant

 

i searched for them

 

"hey guys!!"

 

"umm who are you,sir??"-daesung

"did seungri did something to you,well we apologize,sir"-TOP

"hyung,i'm a good boy now!!"-seungri

"who are you??"-taeyang

 

arghhh these bastards

 

"damn it guys!!!you stupid bastards!!"

 

"GD!!"

 

i facepalmed

 

"what's with the hair??"

 

"none of your business!!"

 

i sat down

"happy birhtday top!!"

 

then they all went silent

 

"did an angel just passed??"

"hyung..."

 

"what??"

he pointed his finger somewhere

 

i looked at its direction

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

dara and donghae

 

 

nice!!

 

 

really nice!!!

 

 

 

the restaurant is kinda full

 

and the only vacant seat is the one next to us!!

 

 

this isssssss sooo annoying!!

 

 

well no choice they went to that seat

 

 

when dara noticed me

 

her eyes went big

 

maybe she was shocked because of my hair

 

told ya gdragon is back

 

 

 

"guys,this place is so gay!!let's go to the club!!"

 

they exchanged gazes

 

"what??"

 

"hyung,stop going to that place."-seungri

 

"so what if i go there??"

 

"jiyong.."-top

 

"it's GDRAGON hyung"

 

i emphasized gdragon a liitle loud to have it heard by dara

 

"fine!!we're just concerned.in that place you drink,you smoke,then you get yourself into trouble"

 

"well have you forgotten,that's your daily routine,too"

 

they looked at each other again

 

"it's the past we've changed remember.WE changed"

 

"yeah right!!the past !!my oh so great past!!"

 

"umm guys i think we should stop this topic,let's understand gd's feelings"-taeyang

 

 

i was a little touched there by taeyang

 

 

they talked

 

while i stayed quiet while trying to avoid looking at the other table

 

there's a background music playing

 

and becauae it's my lucky day

 

the song on play is

 

bruno mars' when i was your man

 

Same bed, but it feels just a little bit bigger now
Our song on the radio, but it don't sound the same
When our friends talk about you all that it does is just tear me down
Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name
And it all just sound like uh, uh, uh

Hmmm too young, too dumb to realize
That I should have bought you flowers and held your hand
Should have gave you all my hours when I had the chance
Take you to every party cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby is dancing, but she's dancing with another man

 

 

eveything changed since that t day

it seems like everything turned black

all black

hopeless and miserable

 

is there really something i lack??

something wrong i've done??

 

all i did was love her

 

but it was all a lie

 

My pride, my ego, my needs and my selfish ways
Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life
Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made
And it haunts me every time I close my eyes
It all just sounds like uh, uh, uh, uh

 

i know i will never find someone like you,my princess

no one will ever replace you

 

it just hurts that in your case it's the opposite

 

donghae replaced me already

 

or should is say

he just took what' he really owns

 

your heart

 

i was too stupid to think that it was mine

 

while the truth is it's not

maybe it never did

 

too young, too dumb to realize
That I should have bought you flowers and held your hand
Should have gave all my hours when I had the chance
Take you to every party cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby is dancing, but she's dancing with another man.

Although it hurts I'll be the first to say that I was wrong
Oh, I know I'm probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know
I hope he buys you flowers, I hope he holds your hand
Give you all his hours when he has the chance
Take you to every party cause I remember how much you loved to dance
Do all the things I should have done when I was your man!
Do all the things I should have done when I was your man

 

i just hope he's gonna love you more than i can do

 

i don't know what i can do to him if he ever made you cry

 

because i will never do that

 

 

despite of everything you've done

 

i stll care for you

 

i still love you princess

 

 

 

 

the song ended

 

 

i just hope the pain in my heart ended just like the song

 

but i doesn't

 

it will never will

 

 

 

i went out to smoke

 

 

i can see them from outside

 

she's smiling

 

i used to be the reason for that smile

 

she's laughing

 

she used to laugh even at my corny jokes

 

she's happy

 

my mind tells me to be happy for her

but my aching heart don't wanna do it

 

i puffed smoke

 

"jiyong"

 

"it's..."

 

"i know you're not gdragon.you're my dongsaeng, jiyong"

 

"hyung.."

 

"it hurts i know"

 

"you don't know hyung"

 

"i do,ji.a girl once dumped me before that's why i become a gangster before.but i realized she will not come back even if ruin my life

it's just nonsense"

 

hyung has a point

 

"when you met dara you changed,then you changed us too"

 

when i heard her name,i felt pain in my heart

 

i can feel my eyes being filled up with tears

 

 

 

"hyung,why does this has to happen,we were so happy but then in just a snap everything fell down"

 

tears flowed out of my eyes for the nth time

 

"it just hurts hyung!!aghhh!!if only i can take this stupid heart out of my chest!!i wanna end everyhting hyung.this tis too much for me to bare.am i that bad??why??!!!WHY!!!"

 

he hugged me

 

"we're here.you don't need to go through it alone.we're hereyou can go through it,ji. i know you're strong"

 

i cried hard on hyung's shoulders

 

like a liitle boy seeking comfort to his big brother

 

 

 

i wiped all my tears

 

 

and said

 

 

 

"is there still a place for another member for your band??"

 

 

A/N

 

umm this is just a short fic

probably  a few chapers left

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