i decided to stroll at the streets of seoul

some things changed huh??

that store wan't there before

 

things do change huh??

are my feelings fo her an exception??

 

i saw the restaurant bigbang used to perform

 

the old days

 

we're just a bunch of kids hoping to be recognized and escape from the life we're trapped in

 

but now it's all worth it 

 

this is also the place where he proposed

 

 

in front of me

 

 

im a part of it huh??

 

 

i heard screeching sounds from a speeding car

 

i saw a girl chasing a butterfly about to cross the street

 

"yah!!"

 

i pulled the little girl to safety

 

"yah gwaenchana??"

 

"neh tnx mr angel"

 

mr angel??this girl is kinda weird

 

but her face is just too familiar!!her smile!!and her eyes!!

 

"KONGJU!!!"

 

a guy rushed to her

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

it's donghae

 

 

 

"yah!!i told you not to cross the street on your own!!"

"but im following the butterfly!!"

"what??"

 

i kinda know who is this girl

and why she looks familiar

 

"dara is obsessed with butterflies she might've got that fromher mother"

 

"jiyong??"

 

"yes.long time no see.is she dara and your daughter??"

 

"yes"

 

"gotta go"

 

i walked away trying to escape the pain im feeling right now

 

"wait"

 

"what???"

 

"i guess this the right time for you to know the truth"

 

"truth??"

 

"follow us"

 

what is he talking about??

 

we went to a nearby playground

we sat on a bench there

 

"kongju,go play we have something to talk about"

"you know mr angel??"

"yes kinda .go play .be safe araso??"

 

 

the little girl left

 

"what is it donghae??"

 

"there's no wedding between us that happened"

 

"what??but you proposed"

"she's my cousin can't marry her??"

 

"but how come you became her boyfriend.that's the root of all this bull****!!"

 

i was having an angry feeling already

 

"neh i know but let me explain"

 

"go on"

 

"we left when we were stll young i came back and she asked me to act as her boyfriend"

 

"why on earth will she ask that??dam*i*"

 

"to push you away"

 

"what the hell!!stop this!!is this a prank??hidden cameras!!you're getting on my nerves bit**es!!"

 

i was so angry !!im already cussing

 

"no ji!!i wish it is really a joke!!but it's not!!"

 

"but why??"

 

"she confessed she has brain cancer"

 

"ca...ca..cancer??"

 

i cried as soon as he said it

 

"neh.she doesn't want you to suffer because of her disease.she'd rather go through it alone than to get you into trouble"

 

"she still hurt me!!FU**"

 

"she wants you to learn to live without her because she's dying"

 

tears on my face,my heart all broken up,and my head having a hard time absorbing all that he just said

 

"how is she??"

 

"her state was too delicate.plus the fact that she's pregnant"

 

"pregnant??"

 

"yes,the doctor asked her a few times if she'll still continue the baby.without hesitation she always say yes.eventhough giving birth might kill her"

 

"and then"

 

"she gave birth to a beautiful and healthy baby girl"

 

"what happened to her??"

 

he looked at me and took a deep breath

 

"she's gone jiyong,she's dead"

 

my world crashed in that instant

she's gone

tears started to flow

 

"that baby is kongju"

"who's her father"

"she's your daughter jiyong!!"

 

my heart skipped a beat

i looked at the little girl who's now playing joyfully

 

"kongju!!"

"neh.daddy donghae!!"

 

hae cupped her face

 

"listen to the daddy donghae"

"neh"

"this guy here"

"he's mr angel:)"

 

she innocently said

looked at me

 

"omo he's crying.what have you done daddy donghae??bad!!will not give you a goodnight kiss tonight!!:P"

 

"kongju,he's your father"

"nae appa??"

 

the girl hugged hae's arm and hid behind it

buried her face and cried

 

"yah you always sais you want to see him.you're waiting for him.he's here now,introduce yourself kongju!!"

 

the girl stood in front of me looking down

 

"annyeong hasseyo!!my name is park kongju.my mother is park sandara and my father is kwon ji...ji..."

 

"jiyong.kwon jiyong!!im your father kongju!!"

"nae appa!!"

 

she hugged me tight

 

"appa i've waited for you for so long appa??where are you??,why are you gone???don't you love kongju??"

 

i remembered the girl from france

how i hated her father for leaving her

but i did the same thing

 

"the kids at school always tease me they say i don't have a mother and a father.they say im a monster because i just sprang out of nowhere.i promise not to be a bad girl appa so that you'll love and will never leave me again.appa!!"

"no kongju i will never leave you again and i love you!!im sorry i don't know!!im sorry.if i only knew you will never feel unloved and abandoned.im sorry im naive about your existence.im sorry my little princess.stop crying.no one will hurt you now.appa is here"

"i love you appa!!"

 

"i love you too kongju!!"

 

 

A/N

 

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