Do You Love Me?
Topbom & Daragon Oneshot CollectionHe never understands me.
“Jiyongie, I made you lunch!”
He never cares for me.
“I’m busy, Dara.”
He never thinks of me.
“But… I even woke up earlier for this…”
He never appreciates me.
“I’m really sorry, I have to practice. Band competition is near.”
Why the hell did I fall in love with him?
“Ji…” Tears were flowing from my eyes yet I only got the view of his walking back that was slowly walking away from me.
We have been together for about 3 months. I fell for him because he helped me once when I was troubled with books that Teacher Yang told me to bring. I was a loner that time and I got seriously no friend, but he was there to help me.
I confessed my love to him right after school and he said yes to my question. I was so happy and it was like my heart and brain were exploding.
But as time passes, his sweetness rusted, and I began to question myself. Does he really feel the same exact way as me?
It’s always me who call him first, it’s always me who ask him for a date, it’s always me who say the three important words, it’s always me who sacrifice and suffer.
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“Ji, what’s your favorite food?”
“Later Dara, I have practice session in 2 minutes.”
“But…”
“See you later.”
I sighed. I was rejected again.
“Dara!!!” A loud male voice shouted from afar.
“Oh, Donghae?”
“Aigoo, what’s with the long face?” The bright guy grinned.
I looked down to my feet. What can I say?
“It’s that Jiyong again, isn’t it?”
“Hae…”
“Break up with him, Dara. I beg you. You’re suffering!”
I looked down again. I can’t, I love him and I don’t even know why.
“You deserves someone better than him…”
I kept my silence and closed my eyes tight.
“You’re hurting and he doesn’t even care.”
No, you don’t understand.
“Please Dara…” He shook me. I know when he uses ‘please’ in his words, it means that he’s really serious. “At least break it up with him, for your own happiness.”
“Mianhae, Donghae.” With that, I left him alone.
I can’t leave Jiyong. I’m not ready. I know that I’m stupid for keep loving him, but my heart won’t listen to what my brain thinks. I don’t even know why my heart keeps loyal to him.
I didn’t have any other choice than going home. I walked, kicking some trash in my way, and my focus was down to my feet. Then I came across a small cafe and decided to drop by for a coffee or two.
“One Caramel Latte, please.” I said to the cashier girl and paid before going to my seat.
My eyes widened when I saw a group of boys with familiar school uniform entered and claimed a table that I guess is luckily far from mine.
“What do guys want? My treat.” The loud one with big eye-bags said. He looked like he hasn’t slept for centuries.
I couldn’t catch what they want but the next thing I know, my latte was arrived, which few minutes later, came their orders.
I could hear their chitchats but I didn’t hear it clearly. But I didn’t focus on that. I’m currently observing why Jiyong looks so down while his friends are all noisy?
Just when I was about to go home, I heard a loud voice came from Jiyong’s table.
“You guys know I don’t want to get near Dara anymore.”
That’s it, I've heard it really clear. I went out from the cafe and held my tears up without them to notice.
I cried inside my bedroom for who knows how long. My brother and my parents comforted me, but no use. I really feel like I lost it all. Why? I gave you my all but this is your return favor? I really lost it all.
I called Donghae and told him all. He listened to all my stories and my cries. He’s really
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