I've deciding to put A/N above so you would read it (gah i know you guys are impatient and so lazy to read my A/N) but it's important, you guys have to know this coz this is killing me :( 

Is it kinda rushed guys this chapter and it's short I don’t know what brings into me that I wrote like this ~.~ 

I didn’t even make the scene whereas Kyuhyun should be getting crushed and break down for the wrongdoings he had done to Hyukkie, what had he done to me?! I can’t bring myself to write that bad about him, I fall in love with him all over again while I’m watching Mamma Mia and Radio Star -_- I can’t write him suffer much…but I might write ones (I don’t know if it would success or not) in the upcoming chapters…yes! This still has long journey to be done! Kekeke I know you all might already bored with this story fufufu :’(

This update is also for celebrating my 1st anniversary when I was posting this story! *clapped, standing ovation with super junior's members ;p*

In November, 3rd 2012 and now it’s already November, 3rd 2013 I hope I could update the other ficts but I gor writer’s block in I FOR YOU and Etude of Memory and this college things is killing meeeehhh! -_- I hope you could be more patient with this college freshman to wait another updates from me ~.~

ANYWAY ENJOY!!!

Words that you can’t hear— [Shin Seung Hoon – The Words That You Can’t Hear]

Oh? Again?

The sound of beeped sound from the heart-detected machine echoing just around his surrounding

I’ve been in this kind of situation before, right?

The sounds of the door being opened then closed disturbing the echo sounds of the heart-detected beeped sound and make it ring inside his mind to the weak-body laid on the bed.

Is it that I fall into comatose condition again? Did I just hear the sound of the door and someone’s entered just now?

Someone’s shuffled towards him, that someone put his hands into the grasp, not so tight to make it hurts but hard to let go, yes. That someone smiled and caressed the cheeks of the weak laid body that looked-like getting thinner in just countless days. “Hyung, I’m here again”, Hyukjae..that someone finally let out his voice.

Oh, I hope everything’s gonna be just alright…and—oh? Hyukjae’s voice? Did I just imagine things?

“is it the tenth days you’ve been in this condition? and this is the nth times I’ve been visiting you around and with a restless heart, becoming aware with the situation that I afraid mom and Kyu would catch me visiting you—yah how many times I’ve been told this to you? If you’re bored and furious hearing that everytime I came here I always come with those prologue, then wake up and tell me to go away, go mad at me, chase me out—I’ve already used to it like a habit, I’ve been bled, hurt, humiliated by the others told me that so I would be okay soon—“

Hyuk? Why you’re hurting? Bleeding? Humiliating? What did happens back then when I was in this condition? did you get hurt so much by the humiliating you receive that you were bleeding? If it’s like that, hyung would believe you Hyuk…hyung is apologizing for our mother’s fault, for kyuhyun’s fault, for other’s fault and especially my own fault not being faithful to you, judging you wrongly...not even once trying to find you like Donghae did, I deserved this condition as my punishment but please don’t be pressured by this…I’ve gotten in this condition because my own ing fault, so please don’t be sorry…hyuk? I hope you heard me, please

Hyukjae didn’t see the slight movement made by the others’ body.

“Hyung, I don’t know if you could hear me or not since the beginning when I told you my side stories but I’m not even once crossed inside my mind, regret for being your half-brothers, for causing the accident years ago I’m sorry, I’ve already paid it but I think? Maybe karma took a toll on me? I’ve been thinking, wasn’t it enough for giving up my sights to you? Why did this fate playing game on me? why did I have to drag others to feel this kind of painful feeling I felt over again? Did I have to pay—“, Hyukjae gulped his saliva before he choked a sob, crying silently before continuing his words. “—with my life? With my soul? Did I have to disappear? The stain like me should be erased quickly right? So I wouldn’t stain other’s life anymore…hyung? Should I disappear? Might as well be you would wake up soon since I won’t be here—

Sungmin felt himself rendered into a speechless condition as he heard Hyukjae’s statement. The word come like rushed salted-sea prickled to the wounded heart. No, Hyukjae is lying right? Give up his sight? Means…he give up his two own eyes and now…is he planning to try on suicidal?! Right at that, Sungmin that remained inside his mind fell to the all white ground and shut tightly his ears, right then in the same times he felt like he’s hearing the frantic beeped sound echoed around his surroundings. He felt like he want to wake up soon, awake inside his body not his mind, and preventing Hyukjae to do that careless things again. ‘stop with those sacrifice Hyukjae’

The frantic beeped sound of heart-detected machine surprised Hyukjae. just then, without him knowing panic surges over him as he heard those and he frantically reach everywhere as he could and managed to press the button for calling doctor and nurses before his wrist being grabbed by someone and that someone with his grasp tightly on Hyukjae’s wrist lead him going out from the room, leaving the weak laid body alone awaits for the doctor and nurses to come.

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“Something’s bothering you lately I supposed”, Kibum approached the man drenched in sweats still hardly catching breaths from the excessive amounts of