Chapter Fourteen – “Don’t tell me what to do”

[ 1368 words – date]

“I don’t need your excuse, Myungsoo, we’re already over.”

“HYUNG!” Myungsoo finally snapped. He grabbed on Sunggyu’s shirt and pushed the leader onto the wall ahead from them, staring down at him with clear anger on his face, “Why don’t you listen to me first, you stupid leader?”

“What—“

“You always say that everyone is pitying you. Why can’t you see it clearly for once, Gyu hyung? Stop acting oblivious!”

 “Myung—“

 “I love you. I do love you! It’s not a pity, so don’t tell me what to do!”

Sunggyu was stunned with his mouth slightly parted as Myungsoo was actually dared to shout at him like this. He didn’t even get to push him away when Myungsoo kissed him forcefully, making all the counter-words he had thought just now disappeared into the air.

The kiss was rather desperate than a sweet one, unlike the ones they shared on these past few days. Myungsoo had his hand gripped on Sunggyu’s forearms, keeping him in place as he broke the kiss, pulling back just a bit.

“Have you believed in me, Sunggyu hyung?”

Sunggyu shook his head, looking up at Myungsoo’s now teary eyes that were looking at his. He caught a glimpse of hurt there, but Myungsoo didn’t pull away like what he expected him to. The visual had his thumb brushed softly on Sunggyu’s lips before he leaned in for another kiss again, more softly this time, like he wanted to take all the pain.

This time, Sunggyu was the one who lost it, as he slipped his arms on Myungsoo’s shoulder, pulling him closer as he kept their lips connected.

Unknowingly, Myungsoo had managed to melt the insecurities he had, as Sunggyu was slowly starting to believe in Myungsoo. He believed that Myungsoo was actually falling for him, that’s inevitable, as they started this dangerous game together.

Because he felt exactly the same

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The beats and music were just sounding like echoes to Sunggyu, as his body had already memorized all the dance steps. He had repeating the title songs for their comebacks from debut until now, dancing to all of them alone. He didn’t know how many times it was already, but judging from how his shirt was already drenched by sweat, it’s been quite long already.

No, he didn’t feel the tiredness at all. He just had to work his body out so he would forget about everything, about how he would lose his voice if he did the operation and how everyone was asking him to do so. What’s so scary about dying? He didn’t even get it.

And then his thought went to Myungsoo. That guy really confessed to him and fluttering the barrier he had built for that guy since the first day he had felt a kind of feeling for him. Myungsoo could be the reason why his decision was shaking.

“Why just now?” Sunggyu gritted his teeth, didn’t even dare to see the reflection on the mirror, the imperfect leader of Infinite that would lose his voice soon, the pathetic leader that couldn’t be a singer anymore. “Why are you like this, Kim Sunggyu? WHY?”

That was when his legs finally gave up. He dropped onto the floor on his knees, breathing heavily with the sweats dripping down fr