After Geunseok left I didn’t know what to do with myself. I had just cheated on Lay and I enjoyed it, but it was wrong. I knew it was wrong because I loved Lay not Geunseok. Why did I let him kiss me like that then? I asked myself, but I was unable to come up with an explanation for it. I felt my phone vibrate as it jogged me out of my thoughts and I quickly took it out of my pocket to see who was trying to contact. My eyes went wide when I saw that it was a text from Lay.

            Was he texting to tell me he was coming over now? How can I face him right now? He’ll be able to tell right away that something’s wrong with me. My thoughts were running wild , but I decided that I should at least read what his text said first.

From Lay:

            Soohyun, I’m sorry. I won’t be able to come over today. Tomorrow, I promise.

Oh, so he won’t be coming over, I thought to myself as I let out a sigh of relief. Wait, why am I relieved about this? Shouldn’t I be upset that he isn’t coming over? I should text him back first, so he doesn’t think I’m angry or anything.

To Lay:

            It’s fine. We can just hang out tomorrow.

            I sent the message before plopping my down on the couch. The whole encounter with Geunseok had drained me and the fact that my mind was now running a mile a minute wasn’t helping me to relax. I’ll take a hot shower; that should help calm me down. I thought to myself. So I went into my bathroom and the shower before stripping off my clothes. As I step under the hot spray of water, I felt my muscles relax as my skin warmed up. Even though the water was relaxing, I didn’t feel as if my worries were being washed away. I just felt less anxious, but at least it was something.

            When I got out of the shower, I wiped off my foggy mirror and looked at myself. I didn’t seem different, at least I didn’t look guilty or anything. I figured that I might just be able to keep this a secret from Lay and never have it happen again. At least that’s what I thought until I saw a small reddish mark on my neck. I touched it and it was slightly tender. Then my mind rushed back to Geunseok.

            “Ah!! He gave me a hicky!” I screamed out as I began to freak out in the bathroom.  I didn’t know what I was going to do about this. I mean, Lay rarely ever gave me hickies.

            “Kibum hyung! I call Kibum! He’ll know what to do!” I quickly got dressed in my pj’s, before looking for my phone to call Kibum. He has had a lot more experience than I have; I know he’ll know how to deal with this situation.

            The phone rang a couple of times before he finally picked up. “Yoboseyo?”

            “Hyung! It’s me, Soohyun,” I all but screamed out.

            “Soohyun-ah, what’s up?” He asked and I heard shuffling in the background before hearing “Jonghyun, stop.” Then I realized that I might have been interrupting something.

            “Umm…hyung, should I call back later.”

            “Stop Jonghyun!” I heard him yell before he turned his attention back to me. “No, Soohyun it’s fine. Jonghyun is just being an and is going to have to learn patience. So, what did you need?”

            “Hyung…I sort of have a problem.” I started out, hesitating on if I should tell him everything.

            “What kind of problem?”

            I obviously kept silent a little too long for his liking because the next thing I heard was “If Lay did something to you, you tell me right now and your hyung will handle it. I will kick his so hard…”

            “Hyung! Lay didn’t do anything, it was me,” I whispered out and that was it. He started to freak out.

            “Are you in trouble?! Soohyun, are you hurt?! You’re home right?! I’m coming over right now!” The next thing I heard was a dial tone as I pulled the phone away from my ear and simply stared at it. Why must he always overreact? That was one trait that we didn’t share. I felt that I was usually calm and level headed, but Kibum hyung was always jumping to conclusions.

            Sure enough, he wasn’t lying when he said that he was coming over because he was over to my apartment in about thirty minutes. I heard frantic banging on my door and let out a sigh as I got up to let my hyung in.

            “Soohyun-ah! Are you ok?!” Kibum hyung asked me as he put his hands on my arms and looked me over to see if I was hurt. Soon enough he noticed the hicky on my neck though.

            “What’s this? Is Lay finally marking his territory by giving you hickies? I guess he’s nervous since you’re going to school now,” Kibum laughed as he let me go and walked into my apartment. I guess he deemed that I wasn’t hurt.

            “So you don’t look like you’re hurt,” I knew it. “so why did you call me over here?”

            “I didn’t call you over here though hyung.”

            “Key…did you overreact for no reason again.” Jonghyun hyung said as he crossed his arms and looked at Kibum hyung.

            “What?! No! He sounded like he was hurt and he…”

            “Did he actually say he was hurt?”

            “No, but he said he needed my help and…”

            “Hyung! I didn’t need you to come running over here though.” I interrupted him and he put his head down, only for a quick second before snapping it back up and slightly glaring at me.

            “Fine! Next time you can just call someone else when you need help because I won’t come.”

            Jonghyun and I both let out a sigh at the same time. Kibum hyung always started to pout when he was embarrassed.

            “No, hyung it’s fine. I’m sort of glad you came over.”

            “See! He’s happy I came over!” Kibum said as he stuck his tongue out at Jonghyun. He then came, sat on the couch next to me and put his arm around my shoulders.

            “So what’s wrong Soohyun? You sounded weird on the phone.”

            “Hyung, it’s this.” I then pointed to the hicky he saw earlier and all he could do was laugh.

            “What? You were freaking out over a hicky? Soohyun, people give those to the people that they love as a sort of way of marking their territory. Or if they’re really into biting and such while having . Like I said, Lay probably gave that to you to make sure other people knew you were taken.”

            “Hyung…Lay didn’t give this to me,” I said in such a low voice that I thought Kibum didn’t hear me, but he did.

            “What do you mean he didn’t give that to you? Did someone…” Kibum let out a gasp as he took a hold of my shoulders and looked me in the eyes. “Did someone take advantage of you? You tell me who it is right now and I will kick their for you, I swear I will!” He said in a stern voice and I knew he was serious.

            “N-No hyung. He didn’t exactly take advantage of me…since I didn’t push him away.”

            Kibum released my shoulders, but continued to stare at me; as if trying to wrap his head around the situation. “So, are you saying that you cheated on Lay with someone else?” All I did was nod my head, not wanting to say the words out loud myself. Kibum let out a soft sigh before placing a hand on my shoulder.

            “I’m not going to lecture you on what you did, I feel like you’ve probably beaten yourself up enough for it, but do you plan on being in a relationship with the person that gave you this?”

            “No! I love Lay!” I screamed out and Kibum nodded his head.

            “I understand, so this was just a mistake.”

            “Yea! He’s some guy from my school that has been trying to get me to go out with him. I had met him once before during the summer while I was with Lay, but he won’t take no for an answer.”

            “So he did force himself on you.”

            “No…well yes at first, but it was my fault for accepting it.” Kibum hyung was silent for a while and I wanted to know what was going on in his head, well that was until he said it out loud.

            “Did you have with this boy?”

            “What?! No! Why would I have with him when I haven’t even done it with Lay yet?!”

            “Oh, well it’s good to know that you’re still a . Anyway, what’s your problem again? Besides the hicky.”

            “Hyung! The hicky is my problem! What if Lay see’s it?!” I exclaimed becoming frustrated; it was almost as if Kibum wasn’t listening.

            “Oh yea, point. Hmm…oh! Jonghyun can you go in the car and get my bag.”

            “Why do I have to get it?”

            “Because I said so, now go!” Jonghyun mumbled to himself but nonetheless went to get Kibum’s bag. Kibum turned his attention back to me once Jonghyun left and gave me a small smile.

            “Soohyun, I know I said that I wouldn’t lecture you but you know what you did was wrong right? You shouldn’t cheat on someone if you really care about them. If you no longer want to be with the person you should break up with them first, before moving on.”

            “I know hyung, but I really do love Lay. What happened with my hyung was a mistake and won’t ever happen again.”

            “That’s good, because even though Lay isn’t my most favorite person, I still feel like no one should be cheated on. As long as you know what you did was wrong then like I said before, I won’t lecture you.”

            “Thanks hyung.”

            Soon Jonghyun hyung came back up with Kibum’s bag and hyung quickly began searching through it. For what? I don’t know.

            “Damn it! Where is it? I know it’s in here, it’s got to be.”

            “Hyung, what are you looking for?” I asked him but instead of answering me, he made a sound of victory as he held up a small tube of some brown stuff. 

            “Found it! I knew that it was in here! The little was just hiding under all my .”

            “What is that hyung?”

            “It’s the solution to your problem, that’s what it is Soohyun.”

            “That doesn’t exactly answer my question but…”

            “It’s concealer Soohyun. Key always makes sure to keep some concealer in his bag, just in case he gets a pimple and has to cover it up.”

            “Yah! Do brush pimples off like they’re no big deal! You should know better than all of us how it’s best to have clear skin. I mean you are an idol.”

            “Yea, yea. Just hurry up so we can go home.”

            “I told you, we’re not having until you learn to control yourself,” Kibum hyung said as he pulled out a medium sized white pad. It was slightly tan on one side, I guess from hyung constantly using the concealer on his own skin.

            “I don’t even care about that anymore. I just want to go to sleep now. I’m tired Key and I actually have work tomorrow.”

            “What? And I don’t?! Just sit there and be quiet. We’re leaving soon, you damn baby.” Kibum hyung then placed a small dot on the pad before telling me to let him see my neck. I gave him access to the hickey and he quickly applied the makeup, covering it up.

            “There we go. All fixed!” he said with an accomplished smile on his face. I quickly went to the mirror in my bathroom to check and sure enough it was covered and you couldn’t even tell I was wearing makeup.

            “Hyung you did it! I can’t even tell that the hickey was ever there!” I exclaimed as I went back over to him and hugged him tight as thanks.

            “Of course I did it. I’m not a stylist because of my good looks.”

            “What does a stylist have to do with make-up though? Don’t the make-up artists do all of that stuff.”

            Kibum hyung patted my head as he ‘tsked’ and shook his head. “When you’re older Soohyun-ah, you learn that it’s hard to find good help. Anyway, you can keep this. That hickey seems to be a light one, so it will go away probably in a week, but I’m guessing you’re going to need to cover it up for that week,” he said as he handed me the small bottle and pad.

            “Really hyung? Are you sure? You don’t need it?” I asked, not wanting to take something from him that he probably used on a daily basis.

            “Don’t worry Soohyun, Key has another two bottles at home. He’ll be fine,” Jonghyun said as he stood from the chair he was sitting in and took Key’s hand in his.

            “Yea, I do. So don’t…YAH! Were you going through my make-up again?!” Kibum hyung started to yell at Jonghyun.

            “I just needed to use some eyeliner real quick.”

            “What did I tell you about touching my make-up without asking though?! I knew it, it looked like you were going through my things too, but I didn’t want to accuse you. Just wait until we get home…”

            “Yea, yea, yea. Anyway Soohyun, we’ll see you later.”

            Kibum hyung was still fuming but stopped long enough to give me a hug and say goodbye. They left my apartment still arguing, but I could tell it wasn’t that serious and that they would probably make up as soon as they got home. After they left, I went to look at the now covered up hickey and was still amazed that it was covered up so easily.

            “Now I just have to keep it covered when Lay comes over and until it goes away in general.”

            Luckily it wasn’t as stressful as I thought it would be. The reason being, that Lay didn’t come over all weekend. I would try and contact him but he wouldn’t answer his phone. Only to call and leave a voicemail really late at night apologizing, saying that he could get away from his practice. I should’ve known that he would be really busy at this point in time. He did say that their debut was only a couple of months away and from what I heard (from Jonghyun hyung); SM has a lot riding on this new group. So even though I knew I shouldn’t disturb him, I still missed seeing my boyfriend.

            It was currently Monday and I was sitting in class thinking about when the next time would be that Lay and I could actually see each other. I didn’t want to go to the SM building anymore, since he hardly had the time to text me. So I figured going to the building would just be annoying and distracting. Even though I was fretting over Lay, my day was flying by pretty quickly. Before I knew it, I was sitting in the cafeteria eating lunch with Eunji.

            “So Eunji-ah, how is your rehearsing going? You’re trying out for the showcase in October right?”

            “Yea, I was in it last year, but I’m not sure if my voice is good enough for it this year.”

            “You’ll probably do fine! I mean, if you weren’t talented you wouldn’t be here right?”

            “I’m not the only talented person here though and shouldn’t you be calling me noona Soohyun-ah?”

            I looked at her with a strange face and then I realized that we really only saw each other at lunch and that we never told each other how old we were. She probably assumed that I was younger than her since I was technically a freshman in this school.

            “I was born in 2002 though, so I think we’re the same age.”

            “Wait, really?” She seemed really surprised by the fact that we were actually the same age and I couldn’t help but laugh. Did I really seem that young to her?

            “Wow, and all this time I was getting upset that you were talking informally to me, but it doesn’t matter if we’re the same age right?”

            “Yea,” I said with a smile on my face. We laughed about how silly we were for not getting the age introductions out of the way first and talked for a bit more. Soon lunch was over and I was heading to my acting class.

            As I was walking to my class, for the first time ever in life I wanted to skip, because I didn’t want to see Geunseok; not just yet at least. That’s because every time I thought about him, my face became hot and I couldn’t help but remember what he, we, did on Friday. When I got to the class, luckily he wasn’t there yet. I went over to Sun Woong, who seemed to be lost in thought, and sat next to him.

            “Sun Woong, what are you thinking about so hard?” I asked him and he looked surprised to see me sitting there.

            “When did you get here Soohyun-ah?”

            “About 30 seconds ago, anyway what has you distracted.”

            “Oh, I was just thinking about if I should audition for the showcase. I heard freshman rarely get picked, but I still want to try.”     

            “I didn’t even know we were allowed to try out.”

            “Yea, it’s just most freshman know they won’t get picked; so that’s why they don’t even try. Are you going to try?”

            I thought about it and figured that I probably wouldn’t get picked either. I don’t even know what I would do for it. “Nah, I think I’ll just wait until next year. I’m not confident in my skills yet.”

          “What?! You’re like the best actor in out class. You’re like oozing talent from every single one of your pores.”

            “Ok, eww. That sounds disgusting and I’m really not all of that. I think you and a couple of others are way better than me.”

            “Whatever man; you should really think about trying out though.”

            “Eh, I will.” Soon the teacher walked into the room and we began class. I was so grateful that Geunseok didn’t try anything during class. He acted like he normally did and it made me happy. Maybe he was actually going to give up on me. I thought to myself.

            When class ended, I was called to stay back by Jae Wook-nim.  I was wondering why he wanted me to stay back, I don’t think I did anything wrong in class; so what was his reason to call me back.

            “Soohyun-goon as you probably know the fall showcase is coming up next month.”

            “Yes Jae Wook-nim. I know.”

            “Well, I have you selected you along with Jun Soojin from my other class to be in the showcase.”

            “What? I’m sorry, but don’t we have to audition for the showcase?”

            “Well yes, usually. Some students are also picked by teachers as well though, especially freshman; only the ones that show that they have the talent to do it though. I would really like if you would participate though. I already have the script written, so you and a couple of other students would be representing our class in the showcase.”

            “Alright then, if you really have confidence in my talent then I’ll participate in the showcase.”

            “Good! Here’s the script and make sure to practice! You’ll be playing Taewoon, the second male lead.”

            “Ok.” I really had no reason to reject the offer so that’s why I decided to accept it in the end. He thanked me a couple of more times before leaving Geunseok and I in the room alone. I hadn’t even noticed that he was still in the room until he came over to me.

            “I’m glad that you’ll be taking part in the showcase,” he said as he took the script from my hand and started flipping through it. “You also have a decent amount of lines, so you should make sure to practice a lot.”

            I took the script back before bowing slightly to him and walking away to gather my stuff. I didn’t want to stay in the same room alone with him for long because I didn’t know what would happen. He had walked over to me again though and took a hold of my arm.

            “You’re sure in a rush to leave.”

            “Hyung let go. I have class.”

            “Jae Wook-ssi has already given you a pass, so it’s fine. You’re acting like you don’t want to be around me though,” he said as he stepped closer to me to the point that I could start to feel his body heat.

            “H-Hyung,” I stuttered out as I turned around to face him. I knew that would be a bad idea because when I did we were standing so close together and his face was so close to mine. He raised his hand up to my neck before slowly swiping his thumb over my skin.

            “So you were covering it up with makeup. I knew I left a light one here, but I didn’t think it was light enough to be gone in three days,” he said as he ran his thumb over the bruise again and I felt my skin heat up as I let out a shaky breath. I bit my lip as I tried to compose myself and I saw him smirk.

            “Why were you covering it? You don’t want people to know that you’ve been marked?” he whispered the last part into my ear, causing me to shiver as I felt his lips and hot breath graze my skin.

            “H-Hyung…stop,” I forced myself to say. I needed to get away from him because I felt myself easily being carried away by his simple touches and soft words. Geunseok pulled his mouth away from my ear, but didn’t back his body away from mine at all. Instead he slid his hand from my neck to my face as he grazed my bottom lip with his thumb.

            “What if I don’t want to stop?” he said as he slowly started to lower his face and I knew what was coming next. I also knew that I didn’t want to stop him. So I slowly closed my eyes and soon his lips were on top of mine in a kiss.

            I knew I shouldn’t be doing this, again; but there was just something about Geunseok that was attracting me to him; like a moth to the light. The closer I got, the more it hurt; but I wanted to keep going back. He lifted his other arm and wrapped it around my waist as he deepened the kiss and it felt just like it did on Friday. I felt the urge to wrap my arms around his neck, but just as I was about to lift my arms up my phone vibrated loudly in my pocket. I pulled away from the kiss to fish my phone out of my pocket, but Geunseok didn’t let go of me. He kept me close in his arms. I quickly opened my phone to see that I had a text from Lay and I immediately felt like crap again.

Holy ! Is this another update?! I think it is! So here we go guys. Soohyun seems to be confused as and Geunseok is the cause. What will he do? Who knows?

~Lolo