Hi everyone^^.

Goodness, finally a fanfic that has just thirteen chapter and took about one and a half year to finish, finally completed. lolz. total fail

As usual, this is just a thank you note. to people who had made it possible for me to grit my teeth and write till the end despite this being probably the most exhausting fic for me to write.

my commenters of course <3

yes, i'm kinda that loser writer who most time depend on readers' response since i lose ideas n inspiration very easily as i get new lame ideas all the time...lol why else would i have hopelesswriter as a name. unless for fics that inspires me like crazy that i could write even without any support at all...that's rare to find, though i do have a few. haa.

lemonkpoplover - thank you for being my first commenter n only reader i had for the first two weeks. even if you stopped reading xD

anybody2you - thank you for being my 2nd commenter. lol.

fir8008 - thank you for being my most consistent commenter. and for lighting back the dying spark. i remember the first comment that came after almost a year of no new comment...(really shows how bad it is lol)...even though i was already writing new chapter(a little)...i kept getting stuck n since i had no reader...i don't feel the relevance to update...and then there's a comment...after almost a year. that really made me go back n write seriously again. n i love how your comments always show that you read the story. i really am grateful for that. thank you so much <3

Raven82619 - a reader that would appear like fairy godmotherdaughter(i forgot i must be older lol) when i need encouragement n felt like i would get none. n not just in this fic. ahh, seriously, thank you. <3

EmpireKids9 - thank you for the 'ranting' comments. well, it's obvious that i love long comments. so...xD..i do love reading people's ranting...*runs*

foreverzea - thank you for the long/expressive comments. really appreciate it. <3

pikarina - thank you for the ever sassy comments. i'm entertained n i hope the ending didn't disappoint you for once. lol. xD

rogue94 - thank you for dropping by a comment. well, i love comment more than subscriber anyway :p (even though subscriber can give me karma n commenters don't-they get karma for themselves)

- thank you again to all commenters. you are just so kind n generous to accompany my long n cruel journey with your entertaining long comments xD that gave me strength to carry on n try not lose momentum/consistency in the writing itself apart from making me feel not-alone.

- and thank you to my subscribers though just so you know i'd have love you 100% more if you comment...lol. no kidding.

like i said, this is one of the hardest fic for me to write personally, because ahem, there were some expectations...and this fic had the most percentage of reality that was blended with fictional aspects(out of my fics) n that made me all the more nervous of hitting the wrong chord, n the emotions involved are just so heavy for me...n i had to get into nine heads to write this. and to everyone who's worried i'd make them breakup...i mean, i know i don't have a good reputation with happy endings n tend to love torturing my characters even to the end...but do you guyz really think i'd dare to make ZE:A breakup? xD heheheh...anyway, did the first part of the last chapter manage to trick anyone to think they broke up? pleasepleaseyes. and did anyone get Kevin's reference about his songwriting? :p that was too obvious anyway.

S.P.E.C.T.A.C.U.L.A.R may look like they're from the members' pov, but more than anything...it's merely my feelings for them...since i'm not a character...i had to transport those feelings to the members accordingly to their personalities. xD...i guess that explains the cheesiness of some parts? except that, when i started it, i had two choices of ending...either disband or not disband(usually, i already set ending from before the story began writing process)...and i really wanted to introduce more fugly dark elements of how a group really is behind the cameras...but somehow...it went the mushy lane once i get to chapter two up to the end...lol.

sorry if the ending is lame. i think i'm bad with happy endings especially when the story is angst. i tend to like ending angst with angst. haa. but at least i tried, rite? 

there's a lot of flowery/layered language to express simple things because i'm trying to weave the words as melancholicly as possible...lol. sorry if it ended up being messy n confusing. sometimes even i don't know wth i'm typing...hahah.

well, i'm not entirely satisfied...it gets lame n tiring to read at times, but i'm happy that i manage to write a fic, specially for ZE:A. never really manage to do such thing for any other groups i loved yet because it's one tough task for someone as lazy as me. T^T.

i don't always do this...shameless promo thingy ok that's a lie..i always do it. but...bcuz i'm so happy to finally complete this fic...i'll share what i'm up to now. those who stalk would know i have new fanfic (besides a ton of other incomplete fics). it also has ZE:A members n idol world(with some more-brutally harsh/realistic elements of idol world, less poetic than this one) but they're not gonna be ZE:A in that fic...hahah, :p ...n the main story is just about the main pairing...yeah i always write sickening boring love stories anyway since i can't contain feels for my otp,blame them not me, only a few of my fics are centered around diff random things like this fic, and also another fic i recently completed as well...feel free to check out if you're interested. it's lame though.

ok, what else...done with thanking people, explaining story, shameless promo...ok. that's about it.

i'm just happy i completed yet another fic. yay~ bleh it's just 13 chaps but still ><...

Thank you again for staying with me.

If you miss me, well, you know what to do...drop by n hang out in my other fics lol. if you're annoyed at me...yay, finally you're freed now. Congrats~ xD

Keep luving ZE:Ameh i don't have to tell you that.lol n keep being S.P.E.C.T.A.C.U.L.A.R <3

See 'ya~

^ yeah, so i shared this everywhere, but just wanna say basically the feelings in this fic can be connected to the feelings in this video. :)